kaineraziel

Male
from Christchurch, New Zealand

  • Activity

    • Far Away

      13 years ago

      kaineraziel

      Are we all alone,
      In the depths of our minds?
      I sit here with friends,
      Yet i feel lonely.
      I feel i miss them,
      Even know i could reach out to them.
      I feel i need them,
      But will they ever know.
      I want to be with her,
      And i dont think i ever can.
      I want to be no longer alone,
      But maybe my heads to far gone.
      Your with in arms length... but im a million miles away

    • Dont Want To Be

      13 years ago

      kaineraziel

      im alone
      every day im alone
      its been this way for to long
      everyday im told im not

      as i walk the streets
      i get looks of disgust
      eyes telling me im nothing
      and words confirming

      theres thoes who say there my friends
      they tell me im never alone
      but where are they when i need them
      i wouldnt know because there never with me

      theres only been 1 person there when im in need
      he stays by me when i need him and when i dont
      he would kill for me if i asked
      he would die for me and i wouldnt have to ask

      should i ask him to kill
      should i ask him to get a knife
      to spill my blood infront of all who think they care
      what would they think would they care

      maybe we should spill it infront of who we dont know
      i think they would care more
      they would care because im in there way
      but they would lie and say they cared about me

      no we should make this mistake alone
      where no one will care
      where my end should be
      where i can truly be free

      all i wanted is for someone to care
      but all i got was a friend who doesnt exist
      all i got was me
      the person who cares

      now i will ask him to make my last move
      knock down the king
      resign this game of life
      now i will be with him forever

      alone

    • me

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      My name is Jack Babington I'm smart but I'm stupid in life
      about the only 2 things I'm good at are writing poems(i have only written 4 and i hate them all so much)
      and sprinting but it hurts me way to much so I'm giving up running
      i hear I'm a smart but i am yet to see that I'm kinda good at maths and science but well I'm getting worse at both of them each day
      i hate my life because I'm alone
      people try tell me they care but none of them have ever shown it
      almost every day and every night i sit alone in my room with nothing but loud music
      music is the only thing i have ever loved
      i don't have a creative mind so i cant write songs or music
      when i listen to music i cant really hear it anymore its just kinda there

      at the moment thats every thing i know about myself

    • I Dont Want To Be

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      im alone
      every day im alone
      its been this way for to long
      everyday im told im not

      as i walk the streets
      i get looks of disgust
      eyes telling me im nothing
      and words confirming

      theres thoes who say there my friends
      they tell me im never alone
      but where are they when i need them
      i wouldnt know because there never with me

      theres only been 1 person there when im in need
      he stays by me when i need him and when i dont
      he would kill for me if i asked
      he would die for me and i wouldnt have to ask

      should i ask him to kill
      should i ask him to get a knife
      to spill my blood infront of all who think they care
      what would they think would they care

      maybe we should spill it infront of who we dont know
      i think they would care more
      they would care because im in there way
      but they would lie and say they cared about me

      no we should make this mistake alone
      where no one will care
      where my end should be
      where i can truly be free

      all i wanted is for someone to care
      but all i got was a friend who doesnt exist
      all i got was me
      the person who cares

      now i will ask him to make my last move
      knock down the king
      resign this game of life
      now i will be with him forever

      alone

    • Destroy Me

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      "Pure eyes, blue like a glassy bead---
      You are always looking at me
      and I am always looking at you.

      Ah, you're too meek ---
      beautiful, unspoiled:
      thus I'm so sad, I suffer---
      and so happy, it hurts.

      I want to hurt you
      and destroy myself
      What you would think
      if you knew how I felt.

      Would you simply smile,
      not saying a word?
      Even curses from your mouth
      would be as beautiful as pearls.

      I place my left hand on your
      face as though we were to kiss.
      Then I suddenly shove my thumb
      deep into your eyesocket.
      Abruptly, decisively,
      like drilling a hole.

      And what would it feel like?
      Like jelly?
      Trembling with ecstasy, I obscenely
      mix it around and around: I must
      taste the warmth of your blood.

      How would you scream?
      Would you shriek "It hurts!
      It hurts!" as cinnabar-red tears
      stream from your crushed eye?

      You can't know the maddening
      hunger I've felt in the midst of
      our kisses, so many of them
      I've lost count.

      As though drinking in your cries,
      I bring my hopes to fruition:
      biting your tongue, shredding it,
      biting at your lips as if tasting
      your lipstick.

      Oh, what euphoric heights I would
      reach, having my desires fulfilled
      like a greedy, gluttonous cur.

      I longed, too, for your cherry-tinted
      cheeks, tasty enough to bewitch my
      tongue.
      I would surely be healed,
      and would cry like a child.

      And how is your tender ear?
      It brushes against my cheek;
      I want it to creep up to my lips so
      I can sink my teeth into its flesh.

      Your left ear, always hearing words
      whispered sweet as pie ---
      I want it to hear my true feelings.
      I never lied, no...
      but I did have my secrets.

      Ah, but what must you think of me?
      Do you hate me? Are you afraid?
      As though inviting you to the agony
      at the play's end; if you wish, you
      could destroy me --- I wouldn't care.

      As you wish, you may destroy me
      --- I wouldn't care."

    • My Savage Creatures

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      the coming of each new day
      marks a new disappointment
      a new pain that slowly kills me
      is that what you want my death
      because thats what its coming to
      its coming to my end
      i can no longer hold it back
      the best you call Jack
      he wears a mask
      all masks come off some time
      but when mine is removed
      death shell come in its wake
      this mask hides me
      you have never truly seen him
      when you do you better run
      i wont be able to stop him
      he is stronger then the mask
      but do i want to stop him
      maybe i should let him ravage the earth
      but wait theres more
      there is another
      theses more then a mask
      theres more then a bloodthirsty fiend
      theres a third person inside me
      maybe he is stronger
      should i let him free
      but i don't know who he is
      maybe this is the real Jack
      i don't know what is is capable of
      maybe he is worse then the beast
      thats it I'm taking a chance
      I'm removing the mask of lies
      i will use this new being to stop him
      the mask is cracked
      the mask is broken
      i cant take it off
      i will use the unknown to destroy it
      but I'm afraid of the shards
      what if a part gets stuck in me
      i cannot worry about these things
      its to late theres no turning back
      i have started on a path
      it is a narrow path
      that i cannot stray from
      to stray could be fatal
      is there light at the end
      all i see is darkness
      I'm going to run
      i run not from things but from me
      i run from the savage creatures
      they are my emotions

    • The Beast

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      in my veins runs an animal
      this thing creates me
      wreaking havoc on my body
      tearing it apart from the inside

      i want it out right now
      but how can i remove it
      something flowing through me
      it creates my fearful reality

      i could take a knife
      that would remove the thing
      the thing that clouds my mind
      the thing helping create the lies

      if i use a knife it will seal the case
      all i want is to be rid of this darkness
      this legion of corrupt beasts
      its not the blood its whats in it

      these maleficent creations ruin me
      you get them and call them butterflies
      i get them and call them savage creatures
      they are nothing but emotions

      they kill me on the inside
      every insult
      every look
      every time you turn away

      the pain is taking over
      i cant control it anymore
      i think im going to do something idiotic
      it cant end this way im not ready

      i have the knife in my hand
      could this be the end
      could this be my very last mistake
      will this be the end of my pain

      you shouldnt have turned away
      all i wanted was a friend
      but that i could never get
      and now i sit here with a knife

      no this isnt my end...it yours

    • 1am

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      man 1am i cant sleep i want 2 but i cant well i just spent a bit of mony on trade me buying a game for my mate b4 i didnt want money now i need more oh well i think i will just hve about the right amount if not ill have 2 get $20 off my mum

    • bday

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      yay its my birthday to day was fun... not today was shit the only good thing was seening an old mate but other then that i did nothing

      oh yeah and its the 16th not the 15th well in new zealand it is

    • fun

      14 years ago

      kaineraziel

      me and my mates were just playing halo 2 and in blood gulch we got the tank on top of the base it was so fun i killed them in so many funny ways after that

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  • Comments (14)

    • max16

      13 years ago

      WTF was that..

    • PoKeTuMmY

      13 years ago

      Random comment of the day:

      CHICKEN!!

      Have a good day.

    • Painful_Endz

      13 years ago

      Yeah, remember.....Almost.

    • Painful_Endz

      13 years ago

      Don't get sarcastic with me...

    • Painful_Endz

      13 years ago

      Yeah, words from me...

    • ElAzulArania

      14 years ago

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      I Found & bought it at Radio Shack.It works wonders!

    • ElAzulArania

      14 years ago

      reward.bmp

    • kaineraziel

      14 years ago

      thank you

    • Painful_Endz

      14 years ago

      awwww... You're amazing! You Rock !!

    • kaineraziel

      14 years ago

      i meen as a person if u are not nice or atleast try 2 be nice ur not much of a person

    • Painful_Endz

      14 years ago

      Awwww... don't say that... I'm sure you have a lot of things

    • kaineraziel

      14 years ago

      if im not nice and if i dont try 2 be a good person then i have nothing

    • Painful_Endz

      14 years ago

      Damn computer.. ignore that last comment.. lol... It's sooo cute that you try to be like that, go you!!

    • Painful_Endz

      14 years ago

      Awww.. thats so cute if you are like ththat you try to be like that!! Go you!!

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