kittypann Red Hood
3 years agokittypann
Hello again! So the biweekly thing sort of didn’t work this week, because I was at my girlfriend’s house Friday-Monday and so didn’t get a chance to post my journal. So this is a general, full week recap! I actually have to go to university in like two minutes so if this is a lot less detailed than last week, that’s why!
I had a more relaxed week, but I still got a lot of exercise in there! Here’s a general view of the workout I did:
- Walked approx. 8 miles in total.
- 5 minute abs workout (40 seconds activity, 20 seconds rest: crunches, hand-to-toe crunches, toe dips, Russian twists, plank) on three separate days.
- Daily minute of jumping jacks
- 10 minutes of yoga on four separate days
- 1 minute of jumping jacks with every work out
- Can manage 5-7 push ups on my noodle arms now
- 1 minute of air cycling with every workout
- 10 donkey kicks with every workout
- Also climbed an insane number of stairs because some of the buildings I have seminars in are stupidly old, have no working lifts and think it’s a good idea to put me on the second and third floors. That’s about 40-50 stairs per seminar
My diet has also gone very well! I’ve been actually eating a minimum of three meals per day and I haven’t had any junk food. When I’ve had pasta I’ve added a lot of healthy stuff to it (tuna, red onion, sweetcorn – I sliced my thumb open making this one though). I feel a lot healthier because I’m back to eating more fruit and veg, and less tea, too.
My goals for the next week are to:
-Cut down tea drinking to one cup a day
-Make it to the on-site gym at least once to use the treadmill
-5 fruit/veg every day
And here’s my update picture, in the same outfit as last week but this time not including my head, because it looked dumb.
3 years agokittypann
So! In case some of you don’t follow me on twitter (which is a wise choice because I’m obnoxious), I’ve been keeping a little ‘diary’ throughout the week on how my workouts are going. I decided to post it up over here. You know, for attention or something.
I was planning on walking the dog around the village today, but then the rain was really bad. I couldn’t walk around in it and my dog didn’t want to. That sucked. Instead, I focused on strengthening my trapezius and working on my abs. I worked through all the stretches my physiotherapist had given me in the past (making use of my handy dandy strip of elastic) and made an effort to try to hold my shoulder in the correct position. I also worked through an abs workout I’d used in the past including sets of: crunches, hand-to-toe crunches, toe dips, Russian twists and plank. Then I threw in some sit ups and push ups for the hell of it. I have really noodly arms so push ups need work, but I’m willing to keep at it and hopefully see improvements!
I did pick up on some problems during my workout, though: I’ve lost a lot of movement in my left shoulder. I hadn’t even realised until I noticed I couldn’t really get the same movement out of it that I can my right, and when I push it to match it strains my bicep. I’m a little worried about how this could potentially affect my exercise in the future, but there’s not really anything I can do as of yet other than try to correct the muscles using the techniques given. I’m just going to play it safe and not push it if anything is painful. It could just be that it’s tense since I stopped working out.
My diet sucked today. I slept late, so I didn’t have breakfast until around 12 and that was just a bowl of cereal. I didn’t eat again until about 5 when I had chicken and potato curry with rice. At about 9:30 I had some ham and cheese on crackers. I only drank tea today, too, which is something I’m aware I’m going to have to cut down/out completely but let me just use up the teabags I have left, alright? I swear I’ll give it up soon.
On my twitter I’ve posted a post-workout selfie, but as it’s nearly identical to my reference photos I’ve decided to just include a weekly photo at the end of this journal.
So! I had a lazier day today because I actually had things to do (which I did, yay!). I did a basic workout involving crunches, twists and plank, and then did my nightly trapezius stretches, too. My bicep and shoulder are still feeling pretty tight but I’m confident that this is going to help and hopefully give me better posture, too. It was still pretty early when I finished, so I decided to do some yoga. I love yoga! I was first introduced to it when I was in primary school, maybe 10-11 years old? And I fell in love. My yoga instructor was friends with my parents so she gave me some cool books on different positions and stretches and I used to do them all the time. Lately I’ve fallen out of the habit so it was nice and relaxing to just run through a quick session. I had fun and feel refreshed!
Diet was better today. I woke up somewhat early (and by “woke up” I mean my dog literally tapped me again and again with his paw until I got out of bed). I had a wheat cereal for breakfast (yo, why don’t my family have any nice cereals? I had a choice of bran flakes and malt wheaties. What the heck? Criminal.) and then this evening we had a roast dinner so I got four out of my five a day, carbs and protein. For supper I had crackers with cheese and tomato – hopefully the cheese will help give me something I can tone.
Terrible today! My diet was okay, but aside from running up and down the stairs a few times helping my parents get ready for a funeral, I was pretty goddamn lazy. I’ll make up for it tomorrow. A day off isn’t the end of the world!
Worked on my biceps today because I found where my parents’ weights had been moved to! I used those in my workout, did some push ups and then a few sit ups. Did my regular trapezius stretches.
I’ve been making a conscious effort to pull my shoulder back into place. It’s awkward because when I relax it rolls forward, but I’m trying to train myself to hold it correctly and hopefully the muscles around it will adjust.
My diet started off pretty well! I even made a nice healthy one pot pasta for dinner with a lot of spinach. Unfortunately, I kind of pigged out on Lovehearts and Flying Saucers, because I’m a sucker for sherberty sweets.
After a terrible sleep last night and having to get up super early to get to university from my mother’s house, I am exhausted today. Still, I got some exercise in. In total I did about 3 miles walking today (though I did almost blow away more than once – seriously, guys, I can’t fight the wind). I’ve done my nightly trapezius workout, and I managed 30 seconds of plank before I gave in. Considering the RTUK Buff Buddies weekly challenge this week is 3 minutes of plank, I think I’m going to need to work on that!
My diet today wasn’t great. I met up with some friends off my course for lunch and we went to a burger and shakes place that just opened recently in town. I had a big chicken deluxe burger, which I’m sure was very bad for me but tasted amazing, and a berry attack smoothie, which I want to believe is healthy but I’ve honestly got no clue. By the time I got home I was exhausted so I slept for just over two hours and then had crumpets for dinner.
So, I’ve decided I’m going to be posting a journal every half a week, likely on Wednesdays and Sundays from this point on. I’m sure that’s going to be a lot of fun for you guys.
From a workout standpoint I feel mostly good. I need to work on actually setting a time to workout and doing a workout of a pre-determined length instead of just winging it, but I’m not finding it too difficult to actually do the exercise. My diet, though, obviously needs work. My sleep schedule was totally fucked up by the RTExtraLife stream and that’s sort of thrown my diet – I wake up later so I skip breakfast, or I eat breakfast and sleep through lunch, etc. I need to make the effort to go and actually buy a lot of healthy food at the start of the week, so I think what I’m going to do for next week is decide on 7 meals I want to eat, go and buy everything for them, and then make sure I eat them.
And now for my bi-weekly picture! Where not much has changed because it’s only been a matter of days, but I’m in my own flat and wearing different clothes! Please don’t mind the toothpaste on the mirror. I’m a lazy piece of shit and forgot to pick up glass cleaner.
So the next week is going to be a conscious effort to eat a better daily diet, and to actually have some sort of workout schedule.
I hope everything is going well for the rest of you taking part in #BuffBuddies (and the same for those of you who aren’t, to be honest). Link me to your journals if you want; I’d love to read them!
Thanks for sticking with me, guys!
3 years agokittypann
I was intending to make this post before week 1 ended, but life happened and I didn't get online much. CW for weight issues, and apologies because I didn't realise how extensive the few health problems I was going to detail in this journal were until I began to write them out!
So here's some background information for you: I've been the same weight since I was about 14. I'll be 21 next month. Hi, my name is Kitty, I'm 5'5" and weigh 6 stones and 3lb. That's pretty underweight. It's very underweight. Obviously, puberty is an awkward time, so for a while I didn't focus on it much. I was thin, like everyone told me I was supposed to be, so the only thing that really bothered me was that I got more than a few comments about being flatchested. Unfortunately, as time went on and I got a bit taller, my weight... didn't change. People started to make comments. People accused me of having eating disorders. I got quite depressed.
I went to a doctor about it, and they weighed me and calculated my BMI and told me what I already knew: that I was seriously underweight. Then they asked me to leave the room and gave my mum a talk about eating disorders. I got mad. In the end, I ended up being referred to a dietician, whom I saw for about four years every two months. They'd weigh me, we'd go over everything I ate on a weekly basis, they'd give me suggestions for bulking up. My diet was fine - I've always been a healthy eater - so our sessions usually boiled down to "why don't you put some cheese on that?"
When I first saw the dietician they noted that I was still growing so that was good, because it meant what I was eating was being used by my body. Then I stopped growing, and they just sort of threw their hands up and shrugged and told me to, again, eat more cheese. I got sick of going eventually, because the anxiety I'd feel beforehand, knowing I was going to be weighed and judged, and the guilt I'd feel when I hadn't gained any weight were too much. I went back to the doctor. Since then, I've had various medical procedures carried out to try and figure out what's going on with my body. I've had cameras down my throat, I've drank two pints of vile thick liquid in preparation for an MRI on my bowels, daily medically-prescribed protein shakes... and so far, they've not got a clue. My body just seems to refuse to put on weight. Hello, body image issues.
So I decided to work on attempting to gain muscle. Buff Buddies seemed like the perfect thing to inspire me. I'd done a good job of working out over summer but had gotten lazy since being back at uni. I joined the RTUK Buff Buddies group on facebook and I was super excited about it! And then I went to Waterstones to buy a book for my sister and my back gave out on me! Did I mention I had back problems? WELL NOW YOU KNOW.
I should probably just state it now: my body is a craptastic piece of shit. My joints are atrocious. My back has two ways of "going": it goes at the bottom, usually when I've been stood up for two long, or sometimes it 'pinches' and the pain shoots down my leg, or it goes across the middle. That's the worst one. When it goes across the middle, I can't think for the pain and I can't breathe because it hurts too much to expand my chest. The Waterstones Incident was one of these incidents. I couldn't even call anyone, I could barely walk, I was close to passing out from the pain by the time I'd hobbled back to my flat. Obviously, I was going to have to rethink the way I was going to work out. I called my parents about it and my dad is concerned that I may have inherited his scoliosis, so a doctor's appointment has been arranged. Strong pain killers are keeping me going for now. It probably didn't help that two days later I had a concert to go to where I was stood up from about 6:30 to 12.
There's one more important health issue I want to explain before I get into how I'm planning on altering my workouts. You know the trapezius muscle in your back? It's this one:
It's pretty important in moving your shoulders. It's kind of a big deal. Mine is so underdeveloped that, to quote my physiotherapist, "it's basically not even there." I'm sure you can understand that this has caused me years of issues and pain. It's worst with my left shoulder, which doesn't sit in the socket. It's rolled out and forward and rests like that, which means my arm is crooked for one and I have serious, serious issues with moving my shoulder.
Pretty much, I don't remember the last time I wasn't in some kind of pain. It makes exercise difficult at best and dangerous at worst.
So let's recap, shall we:
Height: 5'5" (165cm)
Weight: 6st3lb (39.5kg, 87lb)
Health issues that may affect ability to exercise: low BMI, shitty back, shitty shoulder, severe anaemia
So how am I going to get around that? Well, I've got some ideas, but whether they work or not, we'll see.
I eat pretty well most of the time, but I'm going to be making a more conscious effort to eat at regular times each day. I'm supposed to eat smaller meals less often, so, as close to regular as I can around university, every day I'm going to aim to eat a small breakfast, a couple of small meals throughout the day rather than one lunch, and then dinner. Maybe supper. I'm a student, man, I can't afford to eat that much. I'm going to try to eat more than just pasta when I'm in my flat and to make sure I'm eating more fruit every day. I used to eat it all the time but I've been slacking.
I walk to and back from university every Monday, Wednesday and Thursday. It takes me 25-30 minutes, is mostly uphill on the way there and is about a 1.2mile walk. Not including walking around university (or the stupid amount of stairs I have to climb to get to my seminar rooms), I think that's a decent amount of walking to start with. On Tuesdays, Fridays and Saturdays I'm going to make an effort to go to my on-site gym at my flat (probably early in the morning) and walk/run a mile or two on the treadmill.
Every other day I'm going to work through an abs workout that I was using in the past. It's got a few different exercises (crunches, toe dips, toe touches, russian twists, plank, etc) and do some sit ups as well. I can do these in the small space I have in my bedroom so they're ideal.
I can use a set of weights I have in my parents house (last time I checked my on-site gym wasn't fully stocked with all the equipment they'd ordered) and I'm probably going to get some more in the coming month so I can keep those at my flat.
As for problems with my trapezius, I actually have a set of exercises/stretches given to me specifically for my body to try to strengthen that muscle. I need to get back into the habit of working through them every night before bed and, when I've built it up a little, in the mornings, too.
I stopped weighing myself regularly when my depression got really serious. I couldn't handle it. I'm going to try to get back into the habit of weighing myself at the end of every week. As long as I'm not losing weight, I'm happy. Ideally I'd like to trigger something in my body that will allow me to put on some, but we've got to start somewhere. I'd like to at least hit 7stone in the next couple of years - it's unlikely, and still a bit underweight but better than nothing, and a gal can dream.
I decided that I should buck up and take some reference pictures so at least that why I have something to compare my progress against. The lighting sucks, but here they are:
So yeah, hopefully we can get some muscle on here. Maybe some sick, washboard abs. Then I can stop fighting the wind and fight my enemies (and also be more comfortable in cosplay, haha).
If you made it to the end of the journal then thanks for sticking through my boring health shit. I love you. You rock. Go treat yourself to somethin' pretty.
3 years agokittypann
I’ve debating writing this journal for about a week now, but if I’m being honest I’ve been thinking about it all summer. I decided that maybe if I’m thinking about it so much, it’s worth saying. TW for depression, anxiety, mentions of death. Also, spoilers for the RvB13 finale.
I go back to university in just over two weeks. I’m studying a subject I love, I’ve made friends I adore, and I’m excited, if a little anxious. A lot anxious, actually, but I keep thinking about where I was a year ago. A year ago, I was at the worst place I’ve ever been. I was alone and lonely, I was terrified, I couldn’t think more than a day ahead without wishing I wouldn’t have to. I didn’t want to be here. Every day was a bad day. I used to sit on the bus and wish it would crash just so I wouldn’t have to do this anymore. It was really, really awful.
I ended up breaking down. A lot of my hair fell out. I couldn’t eat. I kept it quiet for a long time until one day my sister found out and told my mum, and then mum asked and I confessed everything and she took me to the doctors. Honestly? The doctors didn’t really help me. They gave me pills which didn’t really make me feel any different and I had to go to university on my own and sit in lectures for a subject I couldn’t bear to study any longer. I was very close to dropping out of university but I was lucky enough to be allowed to change my course of degree. It’s better now.
I’m not writing this journal just to recount all that, because writing that was actually really, really hard. I’m writing this journal because as bad as I feel today, I can look back to a year ago and see such a monumental difference, and I didn’t do that alone. There were people who stepped forward and supported me: my mum, my girlfriend. But I think one of the biggest reasons I was able to power through it was Rooster Teeth. It feels really silly to say it: a group of nerds on a comedy website saved my life, but I think I really need to say it. Not just the company, though, the community, too.
There are people I’ve met through this community who have supported me every step of the way. There are people who message me every now and again just to see how I’m doing. There are people who made me feel welcome and loved, there are friends who supported me through the death of my pet, there are people who encourage me with every new thing I tell them I’m going to try.
I’ve made friends because of this community that always have my back. I’ve made friends who never let me feel alone. You’ve all done so much for me, and without you supporting me I know I wouldn’t be able to stand where I do today.
The company as well, though, has been a huge influence in my life. The cast and crew have inspired me, given me things to aspire to, made me laugh when I felt lower than ever. Rooster Teeth is a place where I can always muster a smile, and I’m so very grateful for that (even if I’m tearing up while I write all this because I’m a huge lame baby).
A year ago, I fell in love with RWBY. It’s such a comfort for me, which is probably why I’ve watched it, no joke, about 28 times start to finish. Not only is it something I love but it’s something that’s inspired me to create. It’s something I’ve written dozens of pieces about and for. It’s something I can talk about for hours. I cosplayed it to my first convention and met so many wonderful people who made me feel so amazing. I don’t think I’ll ever be able to express my gratitude for @monty and all I’ve learnt, accomplished and received because of him. Whenever I feel like I can’t move any more, like I’m not even sure what the point in trying is any more, I remind myself that Monty wouldn’t have wanted me to stop. I need to move forward, and if I can only manage one step at a time I’m still a step ahead of where I was yesterday. I’m going to be grateful for Monty, and RWBY, and Rooster Teeth forever.
I watched the season Finale of RvB13 this weekend while I was visiting my friends, and I cried so much. I was a mess, I must have cried for about an hour and then sobbed every time I thought about it. See, it’s probably a really stupid thing to take away from that episode, but I keep thinking about Epsilon. I keep thinking about how by breaking down he was able to be better, more useful, even though it was painful. To me, that wasn’t just a dramatic end to a season of a sci-fi show. What I took from the finale is that falling apart doesn’t have to be a bad thing. That if I fall apart again, if I break down again, it doesn’t mean I’m weak. It gives me a chance to improve. I can make changes, I can run better in future. I can learn what’s too much for me and I can stand stronger when I move past that. For that, I want to thank @Miles so much, because even though falling apart is a bitch – it isn’t the end.
I guess I’m writing this journal to say thank you. Thanks for helping me keep going. Thanks to all of my friends, thanks to @burnie and @Miles and @monty and @Barbara and @everyone. Thank you for the support, thank you for the inspiration, thank you for the smiles and the friends I’ve made.
I don’t know what to expect from the next year, but I’m a little more hopeful than I was last year, and I’m going to be grateful for the chance to see that hope for the rest of my life.
I love you all.
3 years agokittypann
First of all, I want to thank everybody for being super sweet about the pictures of my Blake Belladonna cosplay I posted in my last journal entry!
Secondly, I've got a handful more RT cosplays planned for upcoming conventions, and I spent yesterday completing one piece (it took a lot longer than I was expecting! Needed quite a few coats of paint before I was happy with the colour) so I wanted to give a sneak peek. This one is probably the cosplay that's going to take the least amount of work, so you can probably expect full photos soon! Unfortunately I've lost the wig I was planning on re-working to use, so I'll have to get another one yet, but nevermind.
I took the picture at 1:20am last night so it's shitty lighting, but I'm too lazy to go take another. I'm sure you can all guess who it is!
3 years agokittypann
Real life has taken my attention but I wanted to stop by to share a couple of the photos I got of my Blake cosplay at Kitacon at the start of the month. Everyone was super awesome and I'm excited to see how the rest of them turn out.
I'm just going to show off a couple because it might be a bit annoying to see loads of similar photos so! First up we have my favourite of the photos taken by in2thereview! Who were super lovely and patient with us when we felt out of our depth (we've never done a shoot before).
And then we also got some great photos taken by a talented photographer and friend-of-a-friend, Eid Photography. This is my favourite:
The Weiss in the photos is my beautiful girlfriend and I am very happy she decided to put on the cosplay in the end because she looked wonderful.
Also, bonus Monochrome coffees. This was our breakfast.
4 years agokittypann
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