i now have 10 wholeass friends and i love u all with my whole heart.
i am not good at writing journal entries because i'm a mess at all times. i miss austin so much and i can't wait to be back there in just about 2 weeks. i still kind of can't believe it because i spent so much time thinking i wouldn't be back until rtx. it's just what i need right now though since my birthday is coming up and it's giving me anxiety after seeing so many people i know have really fantastic birthdays and i'm dreading turning 30. i'm worried that everyone i know will forget, or not know, or care, and part of me isn't sure if that's entirely a bad thing. thinking about vacation instead has been a very lovely distraction from my anxiety.
anyway that's all i have for right now because i'm boring, so goodbye dear friends