Haha! Friend sent me this link, best answers to tell an annoying religious freak XD
Apology, if anyone is offended by this, but it made me laughed bad
10 years agolink9026
Life isn't fair. That's a fact that everyone grows to learn. Some people say they have it harder, and that might be true, but there's no way to prove it. We all need to face something sooner or later, and while some say that one's problem is simple, it never is for the whomever is having the problem.
Thing is a problem is never as complicated as it seems to us, but never as simple as others around us believe.
These problems are obstacles you will eventually need to face in your life if you want happiness. If you don't, then they may eventually ruin your life. That doesn't always seem easy, trust me I know. I've been walking around my obstacle hoping to find some sort of passage through it for years now. Guess what? I have. I found a side path and decided to back out. Because taking that passage will forfeit my happiness.
I've got something good going for me for once, and fuck I don't want to screw it up. But this obstacle I've never dealt with for some many years could fuck everything up... So I've decided it's about time I face this problem.
This problem can seem so simple, even to me now as I type this. Thing is, I'm gay.
I've known for I don't know how many years now... Is it 6? 8? Hell I might have known it since I was a kid.
I mean it wasn't that hard was it? Two words? Yet it took me at least 6 years to say them. I'm gay and proud. Would I shout it on the roofs? No, I don't need to.
Then maybe I'm still ashamed? Nah that's not it either. When I first noticed, yes I was. I wasn't right! TV said so! Movies, church, the rest of society! Hell, I lied so much that I was straight that I believed it for a while. I truly did, and I thought I was normal.. but I learned better. "A lie is a lie, and the truth is always better..." Now, I've been fine with it for over a year. I know I'm not wrong, weird or strange, I'm just different, a minority. But I am in no way weird or wrong!
What's kept me from saying it for the past year isn't shame, but fear. The fear of what came afterward.
There is absolutely no way of knowing how people will react, your schoolmate, your friends and most importantly your family.
Coming out can mean to some nothing, and to others the destruction of your life and the construction of a new one.
To other people I know not, it doesn't matter what they think.
To my friends, if your opinion of me changes due to my sexual preference then I guess you've never been as good of a friend as I've believed.
As for family, that's where fear/stress comes most. If your parents turn their back to you when you come out, you lost the only thing you've had since you were born, the only people who were suppose to always be there for you.
It's a scary thought. I now know that I wouldn't lose my family, my parents have mentioned in the past that our, me and my sisters', sexual preference would never matter, that we were still their children and that if that made us happy, then they wouldn't complain.
Yet even after this, I couldn't tell them, the fear is still there. I know I will eventually tell them and everything will be fine, I don't worry anymore at least, but that will have to wait until I feel ready.
The second thing I fear about coming out is the labeling. Humans believe stereotypes too easily. I don't want people referring to me as the gay guy. There's more to me then being gay.
I do NOT speak with a lips
I do NOT wear tight clothes
I do NOT have a limp wrist
I do NOT hump every next guy
and last of all...
I'M STILL ME!
I haven't change. The only difference? You and I don't live in a lie anymore.
I'd like that all of you who know me in real life stay quiet about this until I have finished coming out to everyone I care about.
I also wish to apologize to slayerhsv who has been a close friend of mine for years now, and to whom I have been lying to for... well as long as we know each other. Harrison, truly I'm sorry, you have told me many things about yourself, and yet I have never summed up the courage of telling you this, when you deserved to know above many others.
I also want to thank everyone that will accept me for whom I am, and well... if for those that won't... I have nothing left to say to you, but I'm sorry that you would destroy an entire friendship over a personal preference that affects you in no way.
PS: I would also like to link to this article from the movie 'Get Real'.
10 years agolink9026
Hahah, I just noticed I have a karma level of 29.
I've never really noticed it going up but it always does here and there :) Not sure whether I get karma mods from people, or if the site just loves me :D
On this note I've got to go take my bus before I miss it. >.>
When I come back, you'll be getting a detailed whine about how sucky my next few weeks will be! Hahaha!
Well that sucks! Mods are gay now :( /Anarchy lololol
So yeah, there's only three weeks left to the end of my school yeah, and it's starting to show! ><
Soon enough I'll be buried under a pile of drawings and coding due to my final projects :(
For Art class I need to created 2 characters, have a front and back view of both (It used to be sides as well, except we complained... haha)
Then we need to create an action scene between the two. We also need a cover art as if it was a game, and finally we need a weapon/equipment page, showing in detail your characters' weaponry.
Next! For photoshop we need to create everything about the board game we created in another class... Including the art for the board itself, the box art, front, sides and back. All your cards if you have some, your rule pamphlet. All needs to be in color, and this a 4 man project... which sucks cause we can't all draw or color the same! Which means we'll be stuck with me drawing or coloring and my friend doing the other one ><
Finally just got my programming project, which is the creation of a small one screen game... that would be cool except I always feel at loss on these projects... the teacher gives us last minute code, not always explained, and a rough copy to start off from, and I always end up feeling like I'm missing a whole lot. I mean.. without the teacher there at the moment to tell us how to do half of this shit... I don't think most of us, including me, could ever do this project, and that freaks the fuck out of me for when this is suppose to be my job! ><
Anywayz... so this is what I'll be doing for the next three weeks :( Sort of sucky... I've got to go draw some concept art for my gameboard now =/
Don't mean to be rude but I dislike my team for that :( Our leader isn't really leader-ish... our writer hates writing... and our artist.. well let's just say that most people looked at me puzzled when I told them I wasn't the artist of the group...
But they're friends so meh :( At least we're getting all the stuff done =/
Off to cut his wrists! XD
10 years agolink9026
I'm finally starting today. 1st college day, w00t...
I'm actually not that excited but w/e..
Today I have Game Development I and Communication I. In other words programming and English.
I dislike big social stuff so college will irritate me for a while probably =/ Oh wellz -.-
I'll talk about it more sometime this week.
11 years agolink9026
Personality Disorder Test:
Crap -.- also just got Red ring of death... RIP 360 =(
I'll try getting it switch as soon as my parents make it back... crud -.-
11 years agolink9026
So yeah. Prom is done it was better then expected. I enjoyed myself there, it was nice, and my outfit was awesome. I'll post a pic if I get a good one.
Graduation itself was gay. Long really xD
But yeah to my main point of story. I also got my WoW account hacked today =D So what a happy grad present uh? All my tank and healing gear are deleted all my munies gone.... everything really =/
Trying to get it back... can only hope now =/
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