One year and one hair change later, I return.
At the beginning of last year, the belief that simply making a promise to myself to work hard would motivate me to pursue such ventures was all that was keeping me going. Yet on the inside, I was falling apart, because unfortunately life is just not that simple. While I didn't think any of it would be easy in the slightest, I hit an all time low, and my confidence and drive seemed nowhere to be found.
Shall we review the tasks that I had given myself last year?
1. Graduate uni - This has been delayed by a year, I'm returning to studies in August to attempt this again. I was fortunate enough that my circumstances and the University proved that I was not at fault for the errors that came up last year, and they have allowed me the opportunity to repeat my final year without penalty.
2. Write at least two articles a week for The Bulb Games - Creative differences and clashing timetables meant that my brother and I have struggled to create the content we desired to release on to the internet. As such, my involvement with The Bulb Games has come to an end - whether indefinitely or not is still up for debate - and I am starting to look into starting my own site from scratch. It was a difficult decision to come to as I did enjoy working with my brother, but these things happen sometimes. I shall still be editing his content on occasion, and you never know, I may return to the site in the future.
3. Start recording personal vlogs for my own YouTube channel - While I did start recording and editing content, I never got round to finishing an edit, and now all of the backlog content I have is either severely outdated or is a little scrappy. I may release them under a test bracket to get some feedback before recording some new content.
4. Reach out for more voice acting roles - Lacking the required recording equipment prevented this as I never felt my performance would stand up over a shitty iPad recording. However, I still intend to do this now that I have returned.
5. Lose some weight - This one I actually did stick to! I have almost lost a stone from the last time I was on the site, and I feel significantly better and stronger for it.
The strange thing is, this started as a "everything sucks and I'm back at square one" sort of post, but now that I'm writing it and have gone through those goals I set, I realise they aren't that unrealistic after all. I was simply looking at the end goal of where I wanted to be in a year, instead of setting the every day goals that would get me there. And that's the plan for 2017. Plan one day at a time.
If that means simply planning what I'm going to wear the night before, then that's something. If it's planning a meeting before going to my waitressing/bartending job in the evening, it'll push me forward. If it's designating a specific day when I absolutely have to do some writing, that's what I've got to do. One step at a time.
So here's 2017's spot goals, because now I'm in the mood to do some:
1. Begin studying in preparation for returning to uni.
2. Set a designated writing day for any kind of writing - prose, script, song, whatever.
3. Learn how to edit on my new MacBook Pro.
4. Make new contacts through the site and through attending conventions near me.
I suppose that'll do for now. I'll come up with more each day, but I won't clog up your feeds by sharing them every day. I'm just happy that I've come out of writing this feeling better than I thought I would.
So hello again everyone. Hope to see you all around.