lrnbnn

Female
from Hayling Island | Leeds, UK

  • Activity

    • Twitch Streaming & Confidence.

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      Are you all ready to be a tiny bit shocked?

      As most of you guys know thanks to my previous journal, I have very horrible social/anxiety. If there's one thing I cannot do it is present myself to people whilst having all of the attention on me in any shape or form, whether it be by speaking/presenting/or even just my voice being projected. However,

      I have given myself the final push in trying to get myself out of my comfort zone and it gives me great happiness to let you all know I'm going to start streaming! Streaming is something I've wanted to do for a long time as it interests me greatly but I've never had the means to do so or the confidence. However I have a wonderful boyfriend, (shamless plug he streams every Sunday JimityJamity) who will be streaming with me until I build up the will to be able to go it alone.

      I'm so hugely excited for this, I'm starting a list of all possible games/series to stream so if you have any suggestions please let me know, and I hope I enjoy it as much as I am wanting to and that you guys do too :)

      So please, give me a follow on Twitch/YouTube and any other social media you'd like as I will be positing the ins and outs before each stream. First stream will be Saturday 2nd May (9PM BST/3PM CT) and I hope to see you there smiley12.gif
      My Twitch
      My YouTube

      - Lauren x
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    • Me? Lrnbnn a featured user? Featured user Lrnbnn?

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      Thank you to everyone for congratulating me :)

      Yesterday my lovely boyfriend @isaywhat was FU and now it's fallen to me! Really this is just a kick in the butt to start posting more, I miss all you guys and being part of a community.

      Expect to see more of me (ha ha gutted), I hope you're all well smiley12.gif
      - Lauren x
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    • 4 years ago

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    • Five Facts. Six Sacts. Frick Fracks.

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      (I know aside from a few images here and then I haven't posted on here in a long time, but I'm planning on getting better at that I promise! I have a few journals already thought up smiley1.gif )

      My lovely @isaywhat tagged me for the five facts making its way round so let's have at it.

      1) I no longer know what I want to do with my life, but that isn't as negative as it sounds! Whilst I've been putting off looking into things recently, I know that I no longer want to work in the software development industry or follow the university route but all that means is I can be more open to finding that career path I really want.

      2) I broke my nose and gained a deviated septum when I was 13/14 whilst playing rounders at school and didn't have it fixed until I was 17. I rolled off, rolled not fell you heard me, a bouncy castle when I was 9 and fractured my elbow. My right knee ballooned with fluid when I fell off the sofa arm when trying to avoid waking the sleeping dog at my feet. I injure myself in the most mundane and pathetic ways.

      3) Slowly but surely over the last year I have become enamored with Japan. Through watching so many vlogs and reading about JET, I easily fell in love with the culture and the scenery. Falling in love with all the cute sweets and packaging and toys helped too. If I could visit anywhere in the world it would be Japan and I'm determined to make that happen one day.

      4) I have always lived in a big city, Leeds and Manchester, and I used to tell myself that no way in hell would I ever want to live in the country/by the sea (except when I'm an old lady living in Brighton) but boy can your ideals change. I want to live by the sea, sunset beach walks and living in your own holiday destination come summer sounds like bliss to me.

      5) I'm happy smiley12.gif

      Anyone I would have tagged I'm pretty sure has already done this so to anyone who reads this, go ahead and do one too!
      And now to end with my favourite gif.
      - Lauren x
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    • 4 years ago

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    • Merry Crimblebob round up.

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      Hey! Hi! Hello!
      Merry Christmas guys smiley0.gif

      There's just something about sitting in a cosy living room whilst thinking about all the roast potatoes you'll get to eat tomorrow that makes you want to write a journal about the last year. I couldn't be any happier at this moment in time and I thought right now would be a perfect time to do said round up. You guys have all gone on a little bit of an up and down journey with me this year and I am so so appreciative of that. One of my many 2015 aims is to definitely try and show that appreciation in any way that I can, I love being here in this community I really do.

      A Negative Nelly
      I don't really know how or why Gloomy Gertrude, proud of myself on that one, turned up this year but she has definitely not taken enough of a hold on my year to realise just how wonderful it's really been.

      smiley9.gif My year started off with a trip to the HP Studio Tour and whilst I had/have a job it's only casual hours so I don't really get to take many trips as it would be at my familys expense but I'm hoping to go back there maybe in the new year. I just love the idea of getting to do little trips with the people I care about and I hope to make many more memories like it.
      smiley9.gif I turned 18! What an I can finally drink all the alcohol I never touch milestone. It sounds silly to say but I honestly think I changed once I hit eighteen. It seemed like all my teenage stroppiness and crappy aspects of my personality just disappeared and I couldn't be happier about that.
      smiley9.gif Italy was a massive turning point in helping me be that little bit more confident on my own. I know that it hardly worked out as I've left university but I definitely wouldn't have managed for the whole three months if it wasn't for that experience. It's a wonderful place and whenever I hopefully get to travel one day I know that's a place going straight on my to visit list.
      smiley9.gif Uni is kind of an "eh" period that you all know about by now so I'm just gonna gloss over that, though I am happy it's something I can say for now that I tried.
      smiley9.gif Oh and my favourite thing that happened which even thinking about makes me smile, is having the wonderful @isaywhat come into my life. It's funny how you can look back at something horrible whilst actually being glad it happened. James came into my life at my absolute worst point only a couple of months ago but every single day since he has just made me happier and happier. I could not feel any luckier nor happier that I get to call him mine and whilst we have only known each other for that short time I'm really excited to start and continue my 2015 with him smiley12.gif

      I really really do love each and every one of you on here and I hope that in someway I can begin to show you all that in the new year.
      Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year to you all.
      - Lauren x
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    • Study the past if you would define the future.

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      I'm currently surrounded by boxes whilst I (not with much effort) pack my life back up and I realised I've left it too long without writing here again!

      It's funny just how much your life can change in a few short months and since September I have had the most up and down time. Thinking that this time in September I was so excited to come to Uni and now I'm getting ready to leave and maybe not come back is beyond how I thought my time here would go.

      I couldn't be happier with my decision don't get me wrong, I know it's the right thing for me to do, but now I feel like I'm in a state of not knowing the direction my life will go and that makes the organiser in me really anxious. Though in all honesty I'm not really allowing myself to think of things like that till Christmas is over! Life is 2015 Lauren's problem.

      One way in which I definitely didn't expect to finish my year was to have fallen for someone but oh boy I have and I couldn't be happier. This site really does have a knack for creating relationships, so thanks RT for helping me find a butt I love to touch.

      Productivity is apparently a thing but I (pinky) promise I'll be back more often. God knows I'll need an outlet for the masses of free time I have now.
      I hope all of you lovelies are well and happy. Chow smiley12.gif
      - Lauren x
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    • Putting yourself first is always okay.

      4 years ago

      lrnbnn

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      So you could say this is a pretty heavy life update.

      First and foremost I would just like to say a huge thank you to all of you who have been so supportive and lovely on my university/mental health journey. Whenever I've felt pretty low over the past couple months I found myself reading the comments on all of my journals and it just gives me an overwhelming feeling of comfort. So this is a genuine thank you to everyone here.

      However on a different note, I'm around 99% certain on leaving uni. I know I've only been here for a couple of months but the rate at which my mental health has deteriorated since being here has made me realise that I can't do it any longer. I adore Manchester and there is absolutely nothing wrong with my course, but trying to look after myself on my own whilst also being solely responsible for my education and living arrangement isn't something I'm doing all too well at.

      This coming Wednesday I'm speaking with a support advisor to decide how and what I'm going to do with my life to put it shortly. The plan for next week is also to see a doctor as I've found myself going downhill once more and I hope that this leads to me having a "fix". I am in no way done with university but I just feel like for now I need to focus on getting myself better before I try again.

      There is so much more I could add to this journal but you guys probably know by now that I have a tendency to ramble! I'm once again going to try and be more of a presence on here as it is genuinely one of my favourite places to be.Of course there will be an obligatory Christmas journal next month but I may write some smaller and less intense ones before then. Don't forget that any of you are free to talk to me about any issues you may have or you could even just be super nosey and ask me a billion questions about my life!

      Thank you all again and I hope you're well smiley12.gif
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  • Comments (45)

    • AfRoSaUcE Mage of Hope

      4 years ago

      Happy Featured User!

    • orangeking98 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold dream crusher

      4 years ago

      congrats on fu

    • AshleyBren

      4 years ago

      Congratulations!!! Enjoy your awesome day! smiley13.gif

    • topham FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DHYB

      4 years ago

      Oh! Happy FU day! Hope it's everything you'd imagine it to be.

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Thank youuuu it feels lovely :)

    • The_Hybrid FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      Hey Lauren. FU smiley12.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Well fuck you too Dan don't talk to me like that!
        I er, I mean thank you :-) smiley12.gif

    • Thom

      4 years ago

      Happy Featured User Day! Hope you're well.

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Thank ya!
        I am well, hope you are too :)

    • indiart28 RTX 2017 Guardian

      4 years ago

      Congratulations on earning the Achievement: "Featured User!"

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        I'll wear my badge with pride.

    • EliteIzzy FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Sass Master

      4 years ago

      I swear they are just going through RT couples... HAPPY FEATURED USER DAY!!! :D

      First @AshleyBren and @Woodlehh, now this. 0-0

      Hope you enjoy your special FU day! smiley7.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Someone at RT is feeling very romantic!
        Thank you Izzy :)

    • Caszie

      4 years ago

      YAY! FU!!! :D

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Thank ya lady :)

    • Dylan FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Davesexual

      4 years ago

      Way better featured user than yesterday's(@ISayWhat). Enjoy your FU day!

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Nah he's a good 'un :)
        Thank you.

    • IdkBlue Praise Newbs

      4 years ago

      merry featured user day

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Merry me-day thank you :)

    • Ishmalite

      4 years ago

      happy F U day! smiley0.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Thank ya :)

    • MrVash

      4 years ago

      Congrats on being Featured User!

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Thank you!! :)

    • AshleyBren

      4 years ago

      Why have I not added you yet?! :p

      Hope all is well with you and yes, I did just send a request. xD

    • Thom

      4 years ago

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      Happy Warm Fuzzies Day, Lauren. Hope you're being as swell as you usually are.

      • Thom

        4 years ago

        You're welcome. And absolutely! Whenever you're free, just send me a message. smiley1.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Hey I'm sorry for this reply being late!

        Thank you lovely :) I hope you're doing well yourself, we'll need a little life natter sometime soon smiley12.gif

    • topham FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DHYB

      4 years ago

      Rawr! Stay excellent! Glad to see you around from time to time! Have a wonderful day! <3

      • topham FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DHYB

        4 years ago

        Thank you!

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Hey thank you!

        I hope you had a wonderful day yourself. I like seeing you around on here, you're a lovely fella smiley12.gif

    • StryfeRyder

      4 years ago

      Just wanted to drop in and say you are awesome and wish you an early happy Warm and Fuzzies day.

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      • StryfeRyder

        4 years ago

        No worries! and you're very welcome. I managed to have a good day once I got out of work. hope all has been going well for you too. Have any adventures as of late? smiley13.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        (This is super duper late oh man I'm sorry.)

        Thank you! You're awesome too and I hopr you had a good day smiley12.gif

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      Hey, thanks for the add! smiley13.gif

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        Fair enough! The beard thanks you too in that case! smiley6.gif

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Sum me and my failings up in one sentence why don't you! :)
        I watched for the beard, friended for the beard.

      • Raf Raf

        4 years ago

        Hahaha, no worries! It happens! I've had situations where I've watched and interacted with someone for a while before I realized we weren't friends.

      • lrnbnn

        4 years ago

        Is a now week old apology for not noticing this still valid. Sorry about that buddy.

        No problem man! I started watching you a long time ago, not sure why I hadn't added you before now :)

    • Jewvion

      5 years ago

      AAAAahhhhhh!!!

      That brick just hit me...

      I'm gonna go and cry now *snif*

      • Jewvion

        5 years ago

        Ouch!!

        What, do you expect me to thank you?

        It hurts, I have a booboo now because of you.

      • lrnbnn

        5 years ago

        Hey man, it was a welcome brick! (you're welcome).

    • Giddawid

      5 years ago

      Hey! I'm new here too as of today (but watched for a couple of years) so if we could look out for each other so we're not trolled to death, that would be fantastic.

      FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIISH :)

      Gid

      • Giddawid

        5 years ago

        Haha I shall try to avoid your trolling methods...if I can :P

      • lrnbnn

        5 years ago

        Woah now, what makes you think I won't troll you?!
        Just pullin yer leg, nice to meet you mate :)

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