m3l

Female
from AZ

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    • Hello its me

      9 years ago

      m3l

      So I haven't been online much in the past month. Part of that is due to my computer not being at my desposal in the past like 2 weeks. Mostly however, I have had so much going on that I just have not been able to log on.

      This is, in brief form, whats gone on in my life.

      I've been having serious issues with my mother. Explaining that would take a day, but yeah. I've been so upset at home that I try to spend as little time as I can here.

      In the begining of the month I got sick and my puppy mia got sick. Mia got so sick she vomited 2 or 3 days in a row, then didnt eat for 3 days. My dad took her to the vet n was told she had parvo. I had to force feed her meds for like 2 weeks, but shes all better now n so am I.

      I got a very bad call from the ppl from GCU, telling me I had to make an 800$ payment on my balance within 24 hrs or they were going to send my 3,519.10$ balance to collections. With the help of many friends I am very greatful for I gathered 370$. They didn't send me to collections, but 2 weeks later they did and then they pulled my balence out of collections cos they saw that I had made an other payment.

      I got a new phone and switched services from verizon to sprint, because I needed a cheaper plan due to my balance with GCU. No worries, my number is still the same.

      I've been finding out a lot about my self, the depths of how far my troubles reach in to my heart. I'm on a long hard journey to healing. God has been in my life the entire time through, and to be quite honest I'm not entirely sure where I stand with Him. Not that He hasn't been amazing and completely there for me in these hard times, its just. . . I know He is there, He has proven that He is there with me for every step, yet He seems like a ghost, there but not. I think it has to do with me growing up, not wanting milk any more and wanting solid food. I need more of God than before, not just signs, not just glimpses of Him, I need His very real, in my face, presence.

      Last sat I went to the best Hockey game ever!!!!! ^_^ Coyotes vs. Blackhawks! Man we won 5-4 n we went into over time and then to a shoot out!!! so awesome! 2nd time I get to be at a game with overtime n a shoot out!! I LOVE HOCKEY! :D n my Baby #14 Taylor Pyatt, wasn't doing so well at the beginning of the game, but he really stepped it up at the end and made me proud ^_^.

      SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST

      to the really important news.
      For those of you who don't know, I don't know who my biological father is, that is I have never met him. In fact I didn't know that I didn't know about my biological father until I was 13. Huge issues with that and with my mom not telling me, n my struggles with my mom cos of her not wanting to tell me for 6 years n finally telling me this past year.
      Like I said I can talk for a day about it.
      Well I've been struggling with looking for my bio-dad, and I finally decided to go about it. So yesterday (3/24/10) I went with a friend to the lead in which I have for finding my bio-dad. I didn't get to meet him or get information on where to find him, but I met 2 men that know my bio-dad and know him well. The two men told me that they hadn't seen my dad, that he might be either in jail for being illegal, or deported n in mexico for being illegal. They told me that his wife is sick and either in cali, or shes at their home on dobson street (about half an hour away from where I live). I didn't even ask for him as my father I asked for him as a previous owner and yet they automatically new I was looking for my bio-dad, because they told me that I look just like him and I also look a lot like one of my brothers (one of his sons). They told me he has 4 daughters and 3 sons! :D I've always wanted to have a sister!!! N wow 3 more brothers! this means that I have a total of 9 half sibblings! I am blown away, I even got a few of their names. I left the guys my number because they said that the daughters n sons show up from time to time and if they see them they would contact me, so I'm really praying that I get a call from them. I want to find my dad because its a huge part of my life thats such a mistery n is the root of so many issues in my heart. I just need answers. Today I got one question answered and that has made me so happy. I pray that with time more and more questions get answered, who knows maybe someday I'll be able to actually meet my bio-dad and his family.

      P.S. I use the term bio-dad, because in my heart my step father will always be my daddy. He has been there all my life and I know he will continue to be there for the rest of my life, he will always be my daddy.

      P.S.S. my bio-dad didn't abandon me, my mother removed him from my life and hers for selfish and resentfull reasons, big part of my issues with her. Today however, I see that I can be greatful for her doing that, had she stayed with my bio-dad, I wouldn't have my 2 half brothers I have always had, and now that I know, I wouldn't have had the other 7 half sibblings that I have. Its a small part of a large wound that is healing :)

    • Need a new journal

      10 years ago

      m3l

      OK so its been a while since I wrote one of these.......

      Time to write a new one ^_^!
      My summer is almost over and thus I have lots to write about. However I'ld much rather you ask me personally how things have been. To entice you toward such a conversation I'll give you a lil something to think about.

      All of this summer I've done a number of things. One of the things I've done most is watch movies. First I would like you too guess how many movies I've watched. My father has guessed that more than a hundred to give you an idea (I dont think its that much....but maybe). Here's an other clue, my summer started early may and will end on the 30th of this month. (I would guess that I've watched one movie a day....at least.... lol). on the 30th I'll write an other journal listing every movie I watched leaving my own comment/rating on the movie. ^_^ I'm excited on hearing your comments on that journal.

      P.S. I'm also including tv series that I've watched.

    • A wonderful year

      10 years ago

      m3l

      Te amo tanto <3 *kisses passionately*
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    • scratch :(

      10 years ago

      m3l

      Yep I scratched my moms car today :(

      I'll have pictures up at a later time. </3

    • I have been...

      10 years ago

      m3l

      called
      for
      jury
      duty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

      Court day is July 29th ^_^ I'm excited! Its my first time ^_^ (believe it or not I like trials and law, I am just not willing to study it enough for an interesting career choice).

      I'll give you an up date on the day of :)

    • Not scary, but scary

      10 years ago

      m3l

      It deffinetely got my heart racing!
      It was not cool! It was not cool, not cool at all!

      So this is wat happened.

      I was driving. I was at a red light, and one of my fav songs was playing. I had it on loud but not terribly loud.
      Its a rock song, so I'm in a good mood kinda ballzy mood, right.
      Well the light changes(keep in mind that on my side of the street there are 3 lanes, I was in the middle lane) and I hit the gas a lil hard.
      So the guy to my left, with a nicer, newer car, hits the gas a lil hard too. Well then we go neck to neck for a lil while and of course I was feeling a lil dare devilish I sped up. He sped up. I was ahead of him a lil for a while, but then I was like screw it, I have to make a right turn soon so I'm slowing down a lil cos there is a car up ahead on the right lane n I got to get behind him.
      Well just as I slow down the guy next to me goes steady for a few seconds and once I switch to my right lane he starts to slow down, he switched to the turning lane and turned left. I was like ok and then I remembered that I was still a bit away from where I had to make my turn so I get back to the middle lane. I pass the car that was on the right lane and out of no where this red SUV is racing from behind me. He gets on my lane then switches to the left lane and is like going past me. I look at it and theres this red head guy half way out the passenger side window.

      He looks at me with a smile on his face and yells out, "Hey baby! I love you! Yeah!"
      I was like are you serious?! Freak!

      Ok so I was not about to get near this car. The guys keep driving ahead of me and I keep my distance. I see this chance though so I speed up. I thought that I should get ahead of them and keep them stuck behind lots of cars. I dont know why I thought that, looking back it would have been a better idea to keep going as I was or take a turn that they couldnt cos they already passed it. So I got ahead and started weaving in between cars cos as soon as I got ahead they started following me. NOT. COOL. So I start speeding. I probably hit 60 on a 40 zone. They keep following me, not agressivly but they were trying to catch up. I took the opertunities I got and was able to block them behind a row of cars. Having them blocked I took a left turn they couldnt take and lost them.

      Although there wasnt any serious danger, I dont think they had a gun or anything, I hope they didnt get my plates thats for sure (thats an other reason why I shouldnt have driven infront of them), I still had a real bad rush from the experience. IT WAS NOT COOL.

      Its crazy out there ppl. crazy!

      Tomorrow should be better, its my birthday after all ^_^

      Lol so right when I finish this journal I go to msn and find this.

    • A new favorite ^_^

      10 years ago

      m3l

      Ok so many years ago I used to watch this kids tv show named Cyber Chase
      and In the show there was this actress that I alwas loved ^_^
      shes just so sweet!
      I know its strange but I like her! I wish she were my friend :( she seems so cool!!! lol Soo sexy! lmao
      anyway I was so happy for her and excited when I saw this McDonalds commercial!
      McCafe
      Shes doing better n I wish I could be there to cheer her on! lol shes awesome! N my new fav actress (one of the many)

    • So Sexy

      10 years ago

      m3l

      ^_^
      so yesterday was really nice.
      I helped out 3 recent graduates from my church get grounded at the college and university of there choice :)
      afterward we went to eat and went to the mall :)

      at the mall we went into victoria's secret :)
      where I saw this...
      So Sexy

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      I actually used the moose and it was awesome! lol soooo sexy!!! It smells really really great and it is actually a really nice product for your hair ^_^.
      :( I wish I could record myself and put the recording here so you can hear me say it lol I say it funny ^_^
      lol anyway I kept saying so sexy through out the mall, as a funny joke, and after I drove one of the girls home, I got out at the second girls house to say hello to her parents (they are my old pastors).
      They ask me and her boyfriend to stay and then sent us to go buy icecream, lol they had offered it when we sat down but then discovered that it was basicly all gone.
      lol so we stood infront of the freezers at the store, staring at the icecream trying to decide which ones to take back, and they ask me which one do you like? This one looks good :) lol and going on with the sooo sexy, I told them oh that is soo good! lol then they asked me about an other ice cream and I again I said it was soo good lol but they were sooo good!!!!! lol oh it was so much fun ^_^

    • ITS FUNNY WHEN...

      10 years ago

      m3l

      My car insurance company sends me a birthday card every year.
      Its even more funny when they send it 2 weeks in advance! lol

    • Dos

      10 years ago

      m3l

      ^_^ Time for an update;

      I watched the movie "Drag Me to Hell" this past weekend. It was good! It was entertaining! lol and it was funny! I say watch it, but dont spend 14$ watching it. Its good to watch but I wouldnt buy it, maybe rent it.... lol but I dont regret watching it!

      I went to two parties this weekend ^_^ they were good!
      I got typsy for the first time in my life at the one on Sat. ( 5 shots of brandi in an hour is wat I need to get loopy, not bad I dont think). ^_^ sunday was my baby's 1st birthday party (his birthday was the 28th) and it was a bomb pool party!!! lol I had lots of fun fighting with my brother in the water!

      Guess what!?
      I got a kitty on Thursday!!! lol I named her Dos! (thats 2 in spanish)
      Shes stuffed but shes very cute!!! shes a grey tabby^_^

      also I made a quiz on facebook, ^_^ how well do you know me?
      if you are on my facebook take it ^_^ if not, add me!

      hmm cant think of anything else..... :( I'm still looking for a job.

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  • Comments (525)

    • Coleor

      9 years ago

      *kisses back*

      >.> Im not that bad, I dont always walk into things......just when Im not paying attention

    • Coleor

      9 years ago

      yeah and you have yourself, two brothers, two parents and lots of pets and other people coming round. But our situation is a little better because we split the bills 4 ways :p

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      9 years ago

      nephews?

      I have none of those. I do have two nieces. So they are potential candidates. (One of them is married....so her husband is also in the running). The more I think of this.....the more i should be practical and not replace something unless it is broken.

    • m3l

      10 years ago

      huh?

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      Aragorn too? >.>

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      well Im back now, so you can stop missing me :p

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *kisses passionately*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      mmhmmmmmmmmm >.>

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *sigh* I love you <3 (mel)



      are you only saying that because Im pointing a gun at you?

    • MasamuneChad

      10 years ago

      I can be somewhat but after seeing that even someone who isn't can be scard for life.

    • MasamuneChad

      10 years ago

      Do you mean me or the movie itself?

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      yep smiley1.gif happy special day smiley12.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      :o Ive been waiting up for you to come back online :$

      *kisses back*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      boys will be boys


      what do you mean by that?

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      10 years ago

      Thanks for you well wishes last week. I'm feeling better, just about 95% back to normal.

    • jonundead

      10 years ago

      Haha Thank you ^_^

      and you can have a happy belated Birthday too ^_^

    • jonundead

      10 years ago

      I agree with you, I think Coleor is just a tad obsessed with Godzilla =P

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol, I liked the old version....but this one has zombies!!!!! smiley0.gif

      I am not obsessed! .......I just happen to really like Godzilla (which I have mentioned a few times now) and have recently really enjoyed watching these new films!

      Post edited 7/03/09 9:35PM

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol *kisses back*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      well, theres 29 of them....and Ive only seen two: Son of Godzilla (when I was a kid) and Godzilla (1998 American version) I really want to see the others though..... smiley3.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol, ok

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol :$ *kisses passionately* I love you too

    • bendcook

      10 years ago

      ha ha, yes it is doing good is always a lot better than the alternative

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      Happy birthday! smiley12.gif

    • bendcook

      10 years ago

      i'm doin good

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol *kisses again*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      >.>



      *kisses back*

    • bendcook

      10 years ago

      hello, how are you doing

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *rolls eyes*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol, and the best I could ever want at that! smiley8.gif

      oh, and zombies don't have brains because they eat them! smiley7.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *hugs back* you know just how to cheer me up smiley1.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *beeps nose* :p

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol, thats ok *kisses* Im sure we'll have plenty more smiley1.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol *kisses* I can see :p

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      10 years ago

      As far as my "new motto"....I don't think it will go on a shirt....perhaps just a tattoo on my chest. LOL

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *surprise kiss* I miss you smiley2.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol thats ok, I got to talk with you yesterday smiley1.gifsmiley12.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      I found out on friday that our last lectures were on tuesday and after I get these three essays done I wont have any more....apart from those I failed.....

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      *besandote apassionadamente* I love you too

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      yes you are

    • m3l

      10 years ago

      ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahhahahahaha

      XD

      lol xd just makes me think of 8XD
      gosh my head is in the gutter sometimes :$

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      ewwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      the rose is made a solid silver....Ash wouldnt even let me touch it when we took the photo smiley2.gif

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      10 years ago

      I've never ridden a train. I've road on a light rail, but I think thats very different.

      Really....what's "light rail?"

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      HA!

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      I have a lot of "extras" but only three uniforms! I bet you have more shoes! >.>

      lol Happy Special day *besos* smiley12.gif

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol, I thought about night goggles, but a fake pair would cost £200 and a real working pair would cost about £1000, so I decided not to get them.

      I only have 3 uniforms smiley2.gif the black, the green and the grey

    • Raptor_Alpha FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      I saw the Susan Boyle thing on the 11th of April. A facebook friend of mine posted it. I think a few have here as well. I LOVE IT!

      I've watched this about 4 times now....twice on my own, once with Paula and then again yesterday......each time I tear up. It is wonderful to see someone succeed at their dream. Hopefully, she can do what she wants with it.

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol :$ *kisses back*

    • Coleor

      10 years ago

      lol :$ *besandote apassionadamente*

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