Sorry I have not been on, I have been working my ass off, trying hard for a promotion right now, its anywhere from 10-20 thousand more a year, its where I want to be and what I like to do, so yeah its important to me.
I have been doing pretty well with my new job, learning a lot and trying to improve my skills, my free time has been spent doing things at home, heck I hardly even game anymore.
The boys are doing well, Keegan turned 5 in July, started kindergarten last month, Mason will be 4 at the end of the month, so you know another party is coming, and yeah Mace is still in pre-school. Logan turned 2 in June and is in day care all day.
Last month Kat and I went white water rafting, it was loads of fun, the first vacation we have had in a long time, well needed.
Other than that there isnt really much to report, its get up and rush to get the boys dropped off, head to work, rush home for dinner and then repeat. In between that there is a lot of cleaning and laundry too, so as you see I dont have the time to go online to blog it up like I used too. I usually veg out downloading music and videos, I like to get movies and tv shows to watch.
My friends are doing well, a few have had kids, another got married Keegan was the ring bearer, looked great in his tux BTW. We got a new TV, not a big one like I wanted, but it works for Kat and the boys very well, my plan is to move it into the bedroom once we get a big tv.
I have really been rapped up in my work, I feel as if I dont make enough money, not for the toys but for a comfortable living, then again daycare sucks a lot of the money up, so I feel I am not on par and where I need to be, renting is a pain, I want to own a house.
I do really enjoy my job, I am picking up a lot of odd responsibilities and getting more training. I enjoy what I do, but sometimes feel my hours are a burden to my wife and family, 10-7 kinda makes things a bit tough for us, I am usually very early to work cause Kat starts at 8:30, but its good cause I get to work with the admins and learn more, but it really makes my days long so by the time I am done running 5-9 miles a day I dont have much energy when I get home. I feel its screwing things up in some regards, but on the bright side, I do enjoy my job, that is usually a hard thing for people to say.
I am way behind on all of my studies and home projects, I need to kick them into high gear. I am constantly kicking myself over that, I need to study and learn more, rapidly too. I want that promotion, but I am setting my expectations low I know will get there its just a matter of when.
The economy has me freaked out. Gas has been a constant pain and we live 4.8 miles from work. X-mas is coming and I am struggling to make more OT so the holiday doesnt come out of pocket.
But enough about me, tell me about you. Whats new and whats different?
10 years agomarsman0013
11 years agomarsman0013
I have kicked much ass at work, so much in fact the are hiring me on a month early. Thats right I am kicking so much ass they are buying out the last month of my contract to bring me on full time now. And buying my contract is not cheap, I have been working 50+ hours a week so they are paying out the regular 160 hours PLUS 40 hours of overtime to bring me in full time early. I think that really says something awesome about me, and hell yeah that is going on my resume along with some special training I will be getting next week. Oh and I am going to be on the safety team at work, I will get CRP, AED and other training, I know it doesnt come with a raise, but come review time it will assist in an awesome performance review and show that I am a serious team player. I really love my job.
As for now, the house is a bomb shell, I have been working at it slowly all week, but nothing is really improving. I get up in the morning and get ready for work, head out the door by 7:45 or 8:45 and do not get back home until 8pm. I leave work at 7pm, pick up the boys, come home, cook dinner, clean up, wash laundry, give the boys baths, put them to bed then I have a few minutes of alone time before Kat gets home, the dew minutes consist of switching over laundry and putting the dirty pjs and clothes in the washer, by 10pm I am ready to pass out.
Tomorrow is Saturday, one of two of my days off, I get the day with the boys, but I also have to get the house clean cause its Easter sunday and I have to hide the eggs and candy all over, but right now the house is in no shape to do this in, so another Saturday wasted on cleaning the house. I never get to relax or do anything I need to on my days off. Crap I dont even get any alone time to gel or wind down. This is about as close as I can get to it right now. waking up two hours after falling asleep and trying to find something to do.
I need time to work on my laptop, get the garage clean so I can work on my projects. I need to get something done and going for myself.
11 years agomarsman0013
I keep my mouth shut at work, I listen to to everyone, I walk around with a smile and do my job, cause I love my job. But I hear some of my co-workers problems and feel bad for them, they get treated poorly by their loved ones, rather than giving advice I just listen though.
With what Kat is going through I hope it all works out, I am trying to stay out of the way, if I get involved it will get ugly with several law suits and me probably kickin many peoples asses. Its very hard to stay out of her way, but I know I need too. I am trying to stay out of her way a lot lately, trying to listen more. I dont know what else to do.
Its been a rough transition the past few months, working a crappy job to working a crappy job and a dream job, then working my dream job to the max with OT. I havent been home much. Its been a rough transition from spending all day with the boys to not seeing them at all.
Things are again changing, after work I am picking the boys up from my mom's while Kat is at work til 9pm or later. So now I have more time with the boys, but like I wanted to last night, the dinner and re-runs with laundry didnt happen, I passed out. I have been so exhausted and working myself so hard I couldn't even get that done. And tonight when I got home, I passed out again, for only a few hours to wake and find everyone asleep. My life feels like its passing me by right now.
I havent had dinner, dunno if any one did at all. I know I need to get back to sleep but I have too much on my mind, there is too much drama going around this house right now and I dont even know the half of it, or rather maybe I am not supposed too. It kinda sucks and its wearing thin on me right now. Its been a rough time, it was hard to get through the holidays and making this job switch and everything. I havent had time to enjoy anything at all.
Monday was my one month a versary at my new job, It feels like I have been there a year already, everyone says its amazing how fast I have joined in and adapted to everything, I think that is a compliment.
I am looking forwards to tomorrow night, I should have the energy to get laundry done, that way Saturday I can focus on the stuff I need and want to do, the garage and making space to for my work, my tools and some personal space. I plan on spending a lot more time there on my weekends, that way I can be right there with the boys, they can play in the driveway and I will be right there with them while remaining productive and doing what I need to for myself.
I read more about that show I posted in my last journal, that whore is still with her husband, I am glad she didnt win, I hate people like her, fucking lying cheaters, people who hide shit, I hope her life falls apart, her husband leaves her, her family treats her like shit and she gets stuck alone in the mess she created. As for the piece of shit who chases her, I hope he gets gang raped then run over by a cement truck or a steam roller cause that would be slow and painful, thats what a piece of shit like him deserves for chasing a married woman. Those two dipshits deserve each other to screw each other over and to die alone.
He stole my life, what the fuck, he treats me badly, gimme a break, there are two sides to each story, one is blind to the other, but to cheat c'mon that is the lowest of the fucking low. To hide all the other crap from your partner is despicable as well. People are so engulfed with getting even and they are too self centered to work on anything thinking they cannot be the problem they just keep shooting themselves in the foot.
I am growing more and more cynical and apathetic to all of this, to a lot really.
Well its getting late and I should get some sleep, I know I will need my energy to get the rest of the house work done to free up my Saturday to do what I want and need to do. Its gonna be the last Satuday I am gonna have off for a while too I think, I am gonna need to start finding more ways to make some extra cash to start paying off people I had to borrow money from over the past two weeks cause my truck died and the day care startup costs. I am hoping to not have to dip into my paycheck for that, so extra work is the easiest way, especially since I am trying to start my own side business too.
11 years agomarsman0013
Yeah 4 hours seems to be poping up all over for me. Strangeness I tell you. ;)
I need to get my haircut, the boys need it too, its pretty bad really. So this weekend, haircuts all around, yeah hair will roll bitches. Roll I say. Fuck you. And the horse you rode in on. You loose sluts. ;) Sick bastards fucking horses.
Well its 8:45, time to get the boys into PJ's, Kat wont be home for while, and me I just ate dinner, its been a looong day. I will fold some laundry while watching re-runs of how I met your mother.
11 years agomarsman0013
Fuck reading right now. Cannot muster up the brain power to read. Luckily for me typing is as easy as breathing, a thoughtless process.
Sadly I dont have anything new to say right now.
I love my job, though its tiring working 10+ hours a day.
The house is slowly getting cleaner, I keep working on a few things here and there and keep caught up on the daily stuff and its not too bad.
I am sick of using my days off to clean and do house work, I never have time to work on my projects or to be lazy and relax. SO this week I am gonna get all the dishes done daily and get the laundry done so Saturday I can work on the garage and make space for my tools and to set up my bench again.
I need space to work on my stuff, I dont have any stress outlets right now. I am going numb not having anything to work on for myself right now. I need to get going on a project, our house doesnt have any space for me so I am going to make some in the garage, my workbench is also going to be my tech bench and a place for me to study for upcoming tests and work related software.
The more I am at work working with the admins, the more I know I need to learn, this Friday I am working with out resident CCIE on a big project. I am excited and nervous, this guys is cool and loves to teach, but he is a freaking genius and has HIGH expectations of me seeing how fast I adapted to my current role and took lead on a few major projects.
Sadly my home projects are changing, I am focusing more on studies and learning, I want to get into networking, but the server ops guys are tempting me to work for them, I could go server ops rather easily, the pay is great too 25K raise, but I really want to get into networking, As for now I am going to stay in my role and excel, keep doing what I do.
Like I said I dont have much interesting to day, my days are all work anymore. Once the OT runs out it will change a little bit. I was already asked to cut back on my OT.
11 years agomarsman0013
Yesterday I woke at 5 :30, showered, got the boys ready for school, dropped em off, got to work at 8:00 and I left work at 9pm. Got the boys from my mom, Logan had a head to toe rash, so my mom kept Keegan and Logan and I took Logan to the ER.
They immediately put him in quarantine, they thought it might be some deadly thing going around, two hours later, they determined it was not that, not measles or anything else, but just a simple reaction to the amoxicilin he was taking for his ear infection. Gave him some benedryl and sent us home, I went and got Keegan and Mason and got them into bed at 1:30am
Somehow I woke up at 8am and they boys did too, we read some books, played with the hot wheels and then watched a movie, they are all asleep right now. I am gonna take a shower and relax. I am beat tired.
I worked 55 hours this week, yeah, 55.
After my shower the boys should be up, then I am hoping we can clean the house, go to target and relax the rest of the night. Kat is gone til tomorrow, my friends are all working or out of town, so I dont have anything to do. I didnt even do anything for my b-day.
For Kat's b-day we went to the Elephant bar for dinner that was awesome.
Right now if I dont take a shower I am gonna pass out, so I gotta go.
11 years agomarsman0013
After working two jobs for so long I forgot what this feels like to be a normal person with a normal job, with normal hours, its fucking nice. Too bad I don't wanna be home; these guys are all sick, Kat's at work sick too, and I wanna run away to not catch the virus' and disease's that are floating in the air here. This place is TOXIC and I cannot afford to get sick, I am on three month probation/contract and I wanna impress EVERYONE.
I have opened all the windows, sprayed lysol on everything and I am washing all the blankets and clothes that I can to cleans this beast of a house. If I could I would cleans it all with FIRE!
Seriously, its fucking nice having my weekends off again, working an awesome job and making better money.
Let me explain how much I like my new job.
I get up at 6am, shower make lunch get boys ready etc and I am at work by 7am and I do not leave until 7pm, thats right I am working 12 hour days. AND I still come home with a smile.
I had Monday presidents day off, and still managed to work 45 hours this week.
Yeah my job is that freaking awesome.
The pay makes it even more awesome, $26 an hour, over time being $39, so yeah; while OT is open, I am making good use of it. Gotta pay off some CC's and Buy a car and a new TV too. There is much to procure.
So I am sure Kat told you about my truck pooping out on her, its costing me a fortune too, the Fuel pump died, so while he was there I opted for a tune up, found out I needed new brakes, 4 new shocks, my oil changes, transmission serviced, differential serviced and new tires too, so all said and done I am forking out 1500+. OH and my water pump was leaking too, so a new water pump too. SO I guess it was good it made it in when it did, cause otherwise I woulda waited on a lot of that and it would have only gotten worse.
Well on the bright side, all my 100,000 servicing is done EARLY at 85,000 miles.
The part that sucks the most of that is the money out, I wanted to register my business name, site name and print business cards so I could start doing a lot more side work, I am trying to make some extra cash on the side on top of what I am doing for work.
Alright the laundry needs to be switched over and I still need to do dishes, catch you bitches another day.
Oh tomorrow is my b-day I will be 31, Tuesday is Kat's she will be 21. COOL Huh!
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