momo_san

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    • Life... it throws chainsaws at you

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      Yeah, that's kind of how my life has been since around Christmas.

      Well I'm 17 now, so that should at least mean something.

      Things get tough you know? You realize you're not really living for yourself and you panic and just can't quite keep your cool. It gets better though. Or at least, that's what I'd like to think.

      I'm not going to abandon this place, but I can't guarantee I'll come back to check on it on a regular basis. I still miss you though. So please don't give up on me.

      ~Chikura/Momo/Chelsea

    • While Watching Buffy...

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      Thoughts that go through my mind:

      -"Poor babe."
      -"He may be one sick-minded individual but he sure is cute and cuddly~"
      -"Really? is sex all you think about?"
      -"OH SNAP! She just went there!"
      -"This is depressing... and utterly unsatisfying"

      At least, that's a fairly good representation of it anyway.

      So I really don't have a lot else to say. Tomorrow I see Hair live. If i rip or almost rip any more pairs of jeans when dancing, it will be more than what I can even count on my fingers. You think I'd learn a lesson by now.

      Also, there's this song by Porcelain (aka Porcelain and the Tramps... if you've hung around my journal long enough, you've heard of her). And I realized that it kinda... well just read the lyrics.

      "I wanna boy that taste's like whiskey and cigarettes
      So who's it gonna be, who's gonna be next?
      He strokes my kitty cat just like its his pet
      That's how i get the boys, I get 'em obsessed,
      So who's next?"

      Terrible lyrics, but oh so delicious content. Hey, you'd do her too if you saw her.

      Please excuse my crazy ramblings,
      <3momo-baby

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    • Is it really so wrong?

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      I'm all for opinions and religious beliefs. Really, its a good thing.

      However, its only good until those beliefs and opinions are there only to breed hatred, violence, and ignorance.

      The particular issue in question here is homosexuality. Each and every one of you is entitled to your own opinion, and I will listen to it until you start talking about them all going to hell and speeding up the process for them. Trust me, I've heard it before. I'm bisexual, and not just "kissing girls at parties" bisexual--I was so serious, I was about to elope with the girl I loved. So I want to know:

      What do you think about it? Quite personally, there are examples of homosexuals, bisexuals, even transgenders in societies all over the world. While the main function of a relationship was obviously to procreate, I can't help but wonder why this has existed for so long in so many places. I don't know if its something you're born into or if its a cause of some traumatic event, or how you were raised... it could be a combination, or it could vary... no one really knows. All I know is that the feelings these people hold are very real. Respect them; they're not hurting you are they? They're looking for their place, finding their identity, beautiful just like you are. Open your eyes.

      And just so you know, I am Christian. I believe in the Bible, and though my other beliefs and practices don't tend to go over well with fundamentalists, my faith is firm. Ask anyone that knows me and has truly talked to me recently; they'll affirm that I take my religion seriously and it motivates my life. Now, I know I'm far from perfect. Some of you may even wonder, if you're truly bisexual, how can you be a true Christian? I know there is plenty of evidence in the Bible that marks this part of me as completely wicked and bathed in sin, my rotten core.

      Do you think I don't struggle with this conflict? There are plenty of people out there in a similar situation as me, believing in God and yet trying to figure out what is wrong with them, trying to figure out why they can't seem to change themselves no matter what they know or think is right. Do you think that for some of us this is a walk in the park, that this kind of love doesn't actually plague us and hurt us every day? Do you think it is possible to stop these things? In some cases it is (there are plenty of cases where someone who thought they were gay turned out to only be confused) but don't think that's possible for everyone. So many people in the LGBT community are Christians (and Jews... so far I haven't met a Muslim that this applies to, but I'm sure there are some out there). And I know that ALL of them struggle or have struggled with their conflicting identity and beliefs, mostly because a lot of churches won't even accept them into their doors and they don't have a way to connect with accepting members of their religion.

      Somewhere along the line, I coped with it by just saying "Fuck it." I don't really care what people say or think about me, that others will scream at me that I'll go to Hell. I still pray every night to a God I know will love me even if I do sin (Jesus died for a reason you know). He still knows my struggles, and it is only up to him to judge me. I still wait for the right man or woman that will complete my life. And still no one knows how my life will turn out.

      Part of the reason I write this is from looking at comments on Youtube videos that say very nasty things that make me want to cry. They show that there are people in this world who don't understand the ideal of peace and what love for one an all truly means. They show that this world has a long way to go, and that widespread tolerance is a far off goal. The other reason is that my school is doing a play called The Laramie Project this weekend and next weekend. The play is about reactions to the 1998 murder of Matthew Shepherd, a gay student of the University of Wyoming. It's a controversial play, the kind of thing my school likes doing. I thought before I saw it next weekend, I should delve into my own beliefs and get down into the core of them. It actually feels nice to refresh these feelings. They sometimes need galvanizing every once in a while.

      Whatever you do, respect each other, no matter religion, sexual orientation, socio-economic status, gender, race, or age. You ARE entitled to your own belief, but hate and violence aren't and should not be tolerated. Love is it, guys--all good things stem from it.

      Thanks for listening,
      ~momo-baby

      QOTD: What are your beliefs on homosexuality, bisexuality, etc.? What religion do you follow or philosophy or do you not believe in anything? How do your beliefs in both of these areas affect your life, your relationships, etc.?

    • PRAY FOR THESE KITTENS

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      My mother and I have seen these kittens before when they were younger during the summer months behind a Dairy Queen in a parking lot next to some dumpsters. When it was warm we assumed they were fine (they weren't too terribly young) and someone would probably find them.

      The thing is, we saw them this evening, and its November. They're probably about 7 or 8 months old. And tonight the temperature is dropping below freezing.

      I've thought about them for awhile now, and i can't shrug it off. I asked Mom about what to do. Since she lives down the street, she said she can't come and get them now, but that we'll get them in the morning and set on finding them a new home.

      But in the meantime they're in the cold. I can't get to them - I can't drive. So please PLEASE pray for these kittens.

      I know I should have grabbed them the first time I saw them. But I guess that's why my conscience is kicking my ass.

      Thanks guys,
      ~momo-love

    • Good news (a day late)

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      So, I wasn't able to get online yesterday because I was at my father's most of the time and then when I did finally get home I was hungry and tired. I didn't even go out on Halloween-- with church early in the morning and a viewing right after, my father sorta sucked me dry if you pardon the pun.

      However, much to your happiness (I hope), the first two chapters of the book are finished! If you want to read them, just send me a message with your email. They are a bit too big to put on a journal you know.

      Aside from all this, not a whole lot is going on. 4 day weekend; back to school on Wednesday. Making a kickass censer in ceramics, angel of grief and all. But really guys, that's about it.

      Buu,
      ~momo-baby

      QOTD: What did you do for Halloween?

    • Runs like Ink

      8 years ago

      momo_san

      So this is a journal then mostly about my book that I'm still writing (named I Bid You Farewell), over and over again, but this time I've stayed satisfied with the same rewrite since June. I may be taking it 10x slower, but I'm making up for slow work on meticulous detail, instead paying more much needed attention to pacing, mood, setting, all those great components that make a story great and memorable.

      That being said, if you want to read the first 3 chapters, you might have to wait. Some of you may remember a journal talking about me sending this out awhile ago, but I decided not to since the chapters still needed to be "filled out" (they were too short and needed some plot fixins). I should be ready with them by the end of the month though. I will write at least a paragraph a day (school work doesn't permit much) if it means that I'll finish writing these chapters by October 31st.

      And whaddya know, that's my Halloween present to ya'll: a story about demons, vampires and witches (not werewolves though it may appear to include them). I know, sounds a lot like EVERYTHING else being put out right now but I assure you-I began writing this book in EARLY 2005 (months before the publication of twilight, and years before its boom). This is NOTHING like the rest of what is out there... so much that I think you'll be surprised about the humanity of these characters, BELIEVABLE flaws and all.

      Plot? Eh I'll leave it up as a surprise. The only things I can say is that it's about a fire demon named Blade (real name Brena, pronounced Brenya) who has a tough time at home. She's a teenager in the human world, and wants to escape her father's hold, but doesn't want to leave her mother behind. Eventually, people come along and they tell her stuff. And then awesome ensues.

      So now what? I'll tell you what. Prologues smiley0.gif




      The frigid November rain slowed the blood flow, but it oozed down the driveway like a war-saturated stream. Her breathing was shallow'”countless bones including her ribs were broken'”but she called out, even if only a whisper, for help. She did not realize she was crying, with the rain and the pain. She was blinded by her tears and death, which was now coaxing her soul out of her mangled body.

      "Brena! Brena, wake up, goddammit!'

      Instead of laughing as she intended, she sobbed at the sound of the familiar man's voice. I am up, she thought, now show yourself. Cassidy. Dyy?

      A warm tongue licked her cheek, erupting in her heart a strange combination of despair, agony and comfort. She whimpered into the wolf-man's fur as he laid his head on hers.

      Dyy... How did I get here?



      And also If you're interested, here's a brief look at the "soundtrack" I'm writing to.
      Evanescence - Missing
      Avril Lavigne - Nobody's Home
      Chevelle - Forfeit
      Orgy - Opticon (oooh yeah, I went there)
      Celldweller - Switchback (Razorblade Remix by Neuroticfish)
      DJ Kambo - Reyhan (this was one of the songs used for the MIrrormask trailer if you remember it)
      t.A.T.u. - Perfect Enemy


      And that's about all I'm up to at the moment.

      So I'll tell you when I'm done, but can you guys give me a heads up as to who would like to read it? Just curious.

      Thanks and love,
      ~momo-baby

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  • Comments (1526)

    • GGaaylo53

      7 years ago

      I LOVE YOUR VAGINA

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      Happy Birthday! I doubt you'll ever sign in here again!

    • dreamcast717

      8 years ago

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    • dreamcast717

      8 years ago

      Wweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

    • monopoly_j

      8 years ago

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    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      msn?

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZwM3GvaTRM

      got linked to this on tvtropes, thought of you.

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZwM3GvaTRM

      got linked to this on tvtropes, thought of you.

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZwM3GvaTRM

      got linked to this on tvtropes, thought of you.

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      In reply to momo_san:

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      I got convinced by my friend's to go and see the state championship game that my team was in. we lost sad.png

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      In reply to momo_san:

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    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      In reply to momo_san:

      i miss you too. and good to see you're feeling better

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      Hey, remember me? I miss you emoticon-0101-sadsmile.gif

      Hope you're feeling better.

    • MissJackie

      8 years ago

      smiley1.gif indeed it is!! and its leopard printed! I love that bow!!

      Thanks doll smiley12.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I bet it works!

      If I tried it though, I'm sure it would be more funny than a good hard workout! It'd definitely be a good laugh for anyone watching!! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Non-stop dancing sounds like the best work-out to me! smiley0.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I'm good! Feeling better, working hard, and enjoying some sunshine for a change! smiley0.gif

      How's life with you??

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Hello there!! Good to see you. smiley1.gif

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

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    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      you hate me? sad.png

    • discopete019

      8 years ago

      i don't know.... i make a pretty good Lumberjack myself.

    • Batpez FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      8 years ago

      hey chels! sorry!! I actually made it home by 10 a couple days this week but you were offline already smiley2.gif

    • MissJackie

      8 years ago

      smiley1.gif aw tis not random at all!!
      Hello!

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      It might be fun for a while!

      But I get that - I'm OK being away from my family, but my family's not as close as others. I'm sure you can find somewhere else just as amazing to live, that's a bit closer to home. smiley1.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Hell? I'm sorry he doesn't like it.

      It's an expensive place to live, mainly due to all the mining in Western Australia. But it's not that busy, compared to Sydney or Melbourne, it's really well set out and easy to get around. I think so, anyway.

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Maybe you could! smiley1.gif

      Perth's a great place - not too big, but it's a lovely city, with lots of great beaches. And it gets hot in the summer - real hot!! I think it'd be a great place to live. smiley0.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      They are pretty amazing. I love beaches in general, but when I went to Western Australia a couple of years ago, it was amazing to spend every night by the water watching the sun disappear over the ocean. Especially when it was warm ALL the time - I smiley12.gif it.

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Oh no - you NEED beaches with that sort of weather!!

      So where are you going to move to??

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Yeah - that is pretty chilly!! In winter here I can still survive in a t-shirt sometimes - but not there! BRRR!!!

      It doesn't get that warm here in the summer - most days are around 25 degrees. Then again, it was fantastic over New Years Eve last year - 37 degrees the day before, then 34 degrees on NYE, then 30 degrees on New Year's Day! I loved it!

      I must admit, I don't know fahrenheit very well - but I guess I don't need to! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      You're not helping!!! It's REALLY sunny and warm out there! I could try studying in the sun . . . but I might just enjoy it TOO much! smiley6.gif

      It gets pretty cold here too - usually it's around 10 degrees during the day here over winter, but this winter has been pretty mild, so most days have been around 15 degrees, which isn't too bad at all.

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Winter's tough. When you're covered in layers, or stuck inside, because it's dark and chilly all the time! It's a little depressing.

      I love the heat - it's fantastic outside today! The sky is clear, and it's so warm, it's hard to try and start studying today!! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I know it's good for me! I just find it hard, when I'm working and studying at the same time. But when my exam's over after Thursday, I plan to join a gym and get into it! I need to get buff, especially now that good weather is on its' way!!

      It's obviously great for you! smiley0.gif It's great you love it so much too!!

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Yeah, i can deal with some pain, but it wouldn't be much fun at the time.

      I've always thought about getting something on a bicep (don't know what though), but I'd have to work on my guns first, otherwise it'd be one small tattoo!! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Opps! Sorry! smiley6.gif

      Still, I'd rather find something that was stretch-resistant, although that might be a bit hard.

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Oh yeah, I get it! It's just working out what to get, when you take all that on board. It's not easy! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      That's the hard thing - trying to find something that I'd never regret, or that would lose its' meaning, or that I would get bored with.

      I'll have to think hard about that!

      Old and fat people with tats aren't really a good look - but I guess they don't really care by that age! I'll just have to stop myself from getting fat (or fatter smiley6.gif ) - thanks for the tip! smiley8.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      That always looks like it'd hurt a LOT. But I do like it!

      You might be getting a heap of cute tattoos! I'm jealous - if you come up with any ideas for me to help me out, please let me know! smiley0.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      That does make it a bit hard. You could show it off when you want to if it was there, I guess!!

      And that does sound very cute. smiley1.gif

      How many nicknames do you have? How many tattoos are you going to get?? smiley6.gif

    • Cityxofx3vil

      8 years ago

      Haha I'll keep that in mind.

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I've always liked the idea of a tattoo, but I've got no idea what I'd get. Or where!!

      I haven't donated blood before either - I've been a little nervous, but I'm getting over that now. I've just gotta find the time when they're open!

      Giving people needles is fine for me - but having them put in me isn't so much fun! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Well you're allowed to be! 'case I'm a boy, I've gotta be tough though!

      It wasn't that bad really - nothing hurt, except for the stitches!!

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Sleep is pretty important - I smiley12.gif plenty of it myself!

      And don't feel ignorant!! I just didn't know how to tell everybody what happened! I'm OK - no real harm done, except to my mirror and wall!! smiley6.gif

    • Cityxofx3vil

      8 years ago

      Well when I told that my name is Max, Jackie randomly called me Maxi pad hahahah! Thanks for the welcome :)

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I'm making myself study - I have to do it!

      Your life sounds much more exciting than mine at the moment anyway. smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I sure have - trying to get a lot of study done for my exam on Thursday.

      It's hard to sit down for hours on end to study though!! There are SO many distractions around!!

      I don't really need to study too much at least, but I'd like to make sure it all stays in my brain for when I need it! smiley6.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Oh I agree - I can't wait for some relaxation time myself! smiley0.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      I don't know how you keep up with all that!

      A busy life is usually a fun life, but it's exhausting at the same time! It's not really fun if you don't have the energy to enjoy life as well!! smiley2.gif

    • i_like_me

      8 years ago

      Hey there! I hope you're well! smiley0.gif

    • RosaSpinaque

      8 years ago

      I just saw your image comment, it made my day! :) So you've seen You're Beautiful?

    • Nicolai

      8 years ago

      psh i started that club

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