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    • I May Not Know You, But I Love You

      4 years ago

      nikkatsu

      I just wanted to say a few words.

      I may not be active much on here anymore, but my love for the Rooster Teeth community will always be strong. In times of hardship, such as now, we pull together and become much more. We really are more than a community. We are a family. Many of you may not know me. That is okay. We all have one thing in common though. It's the love and support for the people who provide entertainment for our enjoyment and bring us together to enjoy laughter and awe in a world that can be very ugly.

      We did lose a shining star. I am sad to say, I never had the chance to meet Monty. Never had the chance to speak to him. But his work and talent spoke to me in ways that made me respect him and his strong dedication to bring to life concepts that many only dream. My heart hurts for the loss that we all have just had to experience. But in all of what has transpired, there is one thing I wanted to share with all of you, regardless if you are my friend or not. I love you all. Each one of you have talents and abilities that make this community work. It has been shown time and again. In light of the recent tragedy of losing Monty, remember to love one another and support each other. It only takes a moment for a great light to go out.

    • To Sum Up

      7 years ago

      nikkatsu

      Long story short.

      Car is gone.

      I miss my friend as we just hit 6 months since he passed away. His 29th birthday is tomorrow.

      Mom's chemo treatment yesterday didn't happen because her fluids and electrolytes were low and her kidneys would have shut down if they did treatment.

      The bank didn't get back to me on loan approval for a newer vehicle.

      And I'm even more depressed than I was when I thought I hit the lowest point in times past.

      I've gone from a very happy person to someone many people wouldn't want to be around. Even I don't want to be around me.

    • 7 years ago

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    • Looking for a Bullet to Load the Chamber

      7 years ago

      nikkatsu

      This last week I have discovered a few things about some of the friends I am usually around on a somewhat consistent basis and have known for a number of years. 1 is a dick who likes to throw tantrums and gives excuses as to why no one listens to him or answers him regarding anything, 1 is in the middle of having an almost mid-life crisis about who he is and dealing with a tsunami of repressed emotions set on from his parents at early childhood and 1 who has proved how invaluable she is in by giving me a different view point of zombies going after people that we both think are being complete asshats. Guess who's helped me out the most.

      Since Matt's passing I have been isolating myself 90% of the time from what's happening because so much drama, lies and rumors started popping up. It was ridiculous. With his passing also came the realization of how much he kept things balanced in our group of friends. The dickhead doesn't know how to handle simple things anymore and, as a result, placed a lot of unnecessary responsibilities of a guild master for those nerdy things called "renaissance faires" on me because he finally went stupid and childish. The one who is having a crisis? He is pretty much throwing his insults everywhere and no longer caring who gets hit. And when you try to reason with him, his intellectual side kicks into full force and makes you feel like a classified retard when you try to discuss how he's hurt you with the bashing he's doing without comprehending what is happening. Awesome, right?

      To my surprise, I'm handling things a little better than most would, but still struggling. But I'm also about to put a bullet to my head with the amount of bullshit being thrown my way because people I considered friends have forgotten how to function. I have enough problems I'm dealing with. From my own personal problems in just knowing how to live without someone important in my life, to stress from work, to the bullshit drama taking place in belly dance, to my mother's failing health with her cancer. Believe me when I say, I'm almost at the end of my rope with people wanting to dump on me for whatever personal reasons they have because they are to cowardly to deal with the issues themselves. They dump on people because they are to scared and lazy to find their own solutions to problems.

      If you have ever wanted to see what happens when someone is under pressure from other sources who shouldn't be doing that to someone, you now get front row seats. Enjoy the show because it's starting to get ugly. I'm just now looking for a proper gun.

    • Maybe RTX 2012?

      7 years ago

      nikkatsu

      Looking into possibly going to RTX2012 this summer. Anyone thinking about going or will be going to help cut down on hotel costs? I haven't gone to group events for about....yeesh, 4-5 years now roughly. Last time was for the Drawn By Pain screenings in NY in 2007 and 2008. I'm currently trying to figure out my financial status before I can say for sure on if I will be heading out or not. Please let me know if any of you are heading out. It would be awesome to reconnect with those I had the chance of hanging out with in NY and those who I have yet to meet!

    • 7 years ago

      nikkatsu
    • Survival Mode

      7 years ago

      nikkatsu

      Well, I am making a slow come back. It's been a rough 3 and a half months. It's hard to find a way to start a new chapter of life without your best friend, one you loved with all your heart and it be the person who you would not hesitate to sacrifice yourself for, be part of your life. As much as I will miss him, I know he would not want me to stay in the shadows with no true attempt to keep moving forward.

      So here I am trying to get back in the swing of things and hoping to be more active here like I use to be before things went haywire.

      Recently I have begun listening to the podcasts. I attempted to start listening to them when they were first introduced back in 2009, but due to other things going on, I got distracted and never fully got into them. So the last few weeks I have been playing catch up and have enjoyed them fully. Especially since they were helping me get through work. These podcasts have also helped me take a break from everything that has been eating at me as well. From losing a friend to coping with my mother's cancer. It's somewhat old news.....about a year and a half old. But the cancer was fully removed and recently found again. We won't know if has begun going in remission again until Monday. So needless to say things have been crazy. But I do owe it to my friends and those here on RoosterTeeth (including the staff for the laughs) for the breaks from my life to make me smile.

      So from the bottom of my heart, thank you RoosterTeeth and those here who I have had the pleasure of knowing. smiley12.gif

    • 7 years ago

      nikkatsu
    • Sad News

      7 years ago

      nikkatsu

      For those that haven't seen the posts or watch me on Facebook, I lost a very close friend 2 weeks ago in a car accident. This person has been with me through the worst and great times and he was an awesome person that everyone liked within minutes because all he had to do was make them laugh.

      So for people who have been wondering where I have been, yes I have been on Facebook milling around, but for the most part I have been grieving and trying to figure out my life from this point on without my support, my rock to be with me.

      I continue to remain in the shadows supporting Rooster Teeth as I have always done, but I won't be on much until I know where I am going. At this point I am so lost right now that not even a GPS can help me.

      To all my friends, I love you all. We may not talk much like we use to, but you are all in my thoughts.

  • Comments (675)

    • Enforcer2005

      7 years ago

      Jen! <3

      • nikkatsu FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        7 years ago

        AARON!!! <3 <3 <3

    • Pimpminja

      9 years ago

      Yes, hello!
      I'm commenting about the Torture for Hire ad!

      HA! I love Cyanide and Happiness.

    • notthefbi

      10 years ago

      The worst one I have seen is this guy on the Sex Talk infomercial for that Extenze crap. He is the reason I wrote that journal.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      I wait in the shadows. There will be a next time. Bwa-ha-ha-

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      I get bored easily.

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      Well, shucks. Oh well. Some other time then. Probably for the best, anyway as stopping on the way back means me getting into Reno at two or three in the morning.

    • Woo_HA27

      10 years ago

      your title makes me laugh

    • llcoolbean

      10 years ago

      Journey isn't really a group I can constantly listen to, I don't know all the lyrics to the song


      blasphemy! lol

    • llcoolbean

      10 years ago

      Journey isn't really a group I can constantly listen to, I don't know all the lyrics to the song[\quote]

      blasphemy! lol
    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      *hugs*

      it wouldn't let me post a comment on your last journal, but it sounds like you could use that.

      *hugs* and one more for good measure

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Forgive me for the moment. I can't watch the video at the moment due to the fact that I am at work. But I will. I am going off the edit you did, so bare with me.

      As to the government. The actions of 9-11 are most likely still under investigation, this the records are not open to the public. Sadly, this means a lot of people will have unanswered questions for a while. The FBI and NSA probably have the info locked up so the enemy doesn't discover the full amount that they know. This gives them a better chance to achive justice. Once the matter's are resolved, and a certain time has passed, we will have the full record. But, if you recall the JFK assination, the governemt does have the right to classify records involving any government action for 50 years. At which point the info is released into the national arcives, and becomes public.

    • notthefbi

      10 years ago

      yeah, i need to upload some more

    • notthefbi

      10 years ago

      Well, his eyes are this awesome grey color right now so they might be starting to change but I also really hope they stay that color but I wouldn't trade him for anything. Except a baby that cries less lol.

    • notthefbi

      10 years ago

      Hopefully his eyes will turn brown soon like both of his parents. They said it could take up to six months for them to change so I am sure it will take every bit of that lol.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Round 2 has bugun.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Caring about someone is tough. They do things at will annoy the living crap out of ya. Keep the faith and keep up the good work.

      It looks like you got it under control. Let me know if ya need the "male" perspective.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      I see your point. Sadly, your case does seem vaild. Trust is an issue that must be in relationships to survivie things like long distance. Holding stuff in is bad and leads to "blow ups" that tend to leave someone feeling hurt. Giving him space is alright, but don't let him be idel. The more time a person dwells on crap, the more crap they seem to find. Facing your issues and dealing with them is really the way to go. I would let him know that how much you care about his well being and that you want him to trust you as much as you trust him.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      LOL Cat Contest. Go HERE and pick a winner.

    • MichyGeary FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Red vs. Blue Forum Moder

      10 years ago

      Eh, crazy busy. And I just spent all night making 15 different animated templates for this awards community. smiley4.gif My mom is going to be here in less than seven hours to pick me up! Eek! Must sleep now. smiley7.gif

    • MichyGeary FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Red vs. Blue Forum Moder

      10 years ago

      You're cool.

    • Enforcer2005

      10 years ago

      smiley12.gif

    • Alex

      10 years ago

      Reason for adding you: You seem cool! I like cool and funny people! smiley0.gif

      Post edited 2/11/09 11:12PM

    • notthefbi

      10 years ago

      I have some up on Facebook but I suppose I should put some on here.

    • JeffSon

      10 years ago

      The old life is still a part of me.

      It's just that memories should be taken out and pondered over from time to time. They aren't supposed to pop up every time you buy a jug of milk...

    • lukemckay FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Webcomic Maker

      10 years ago

      nikkatsu.jpg

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      The goat is pregnant!? Man, she said she was on the pill! I demand a DNA test before I pay a cent cause that goat...well, she's been around if you know what I mean.

    • FEAR_Major

      10 years ago

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    • FEAR_Major

      10 years ago

      i got a link

      browseinside.harpercollinschildrens.com/index.aspx?isbn13=9780380807345

      Post edited 1/23/09 4:59PM

    • FEAR_Major

      10 years ago


      its pretty good book.

    • FEAR_Major

      10 years ago

      Not much just reading coraline for the 12th time.

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      Fair enough.

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      i like cookies...

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Like you even had to ask me to volunteer!

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Yes.........I saw it.

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      Yah, I did it, and I'm glad! Glad, ya hear!?

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Rest is the best medicine.

      I was just violated by a group of dancing R2-D2's

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      Sure. Here's the source. I'm trusting you know how to crop a picture.

    • ABYSS_GK

      10 years ago

      oh, I thought you meant your whole city had banned youtube... COMMIE!!

    • ABYSS_GK

      10 years ago

      already have the lfg trailer and the new snippet out.... and what do you mean city ban?

    • Anomalous

      10 years ago

      Shweet. I'll have to check it out sometime.

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      I'm sure I could figure out something to take sorrow away... cookies, rum, chocolate, massages... not necessarily all at once...

      the flavor would be terrible



    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      suppose i can understand that.

      if you decide you need me you just holler, ok?

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Ick. No pay for two days and sick for New Years?

      I hope you feel better soon sweetie!
      smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      thanks, hon.

      how was yours?

    • MDosik FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      Thank you for the very nice card. :)

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      ah well...perhaps the next batch will work out a bit better.

      now go put on pajamas, grab a drink and a book, and curl your sexy butt into a blanket. stay there 'til it all goes away.

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      she's trying to teach me the temperature stages of candy...apparently there are a lot of them and you should only go by temperature to get the consistney you want.

      seems very complex...

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      were you trying to make hard candies?

      and april is wondering if you have a candy thermometer...

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      I am shamed.

    • grif_tastic FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      How'd the candy making go?

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