nrthstar

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from Harrisonburg, VA

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    • My job's alright except...

      7 years ago

      nrthstar

      I have a no fraternization policy that goes along with my job, which before, was just irritating, but now it's starting to get to me. Before I lucked out, and the same coworker I wanted to take out actually quit so we went out, no big deal.

      But my current coworker, I have a great chemistry with, and last night we "randomly" met at a club downtown. After a night of drinking, dancing and telling each other some really personal info, the night came to an abrupt stop when we remembered we can't be seen that close to each other, so I went home a little frustrated.

      Why can't my dating life be easy. Guy likes girl, Girl likes guy, no complications.

    • 7 years ago

      nrthstar

      Next Year Pax and RTX, next year. Both of them will be my primary vacation destinations, I just don't have the cash to throw together for them this year. I still haven't been to any convention sadly. Oh well, 3 day weekend and family time.

    • Bans

      7 years ago

      nrthstar

      So years ago, I think 6 years in fact, I stupidly posted a link to a blogspot that shared music files in the music forum, and I'm still banned. I have no idea who to even get to remove the ban, I tried the original mod, but with no response.

      Doh

    • 7 years ago

      nrthstar

      I really do under utilize this, well, I have ever since it backfired on me way back when with my ex. She wasn't the stalkerish type, buuuut I vented some feelings about her on here, perhaps a bit rudely (although the comments weren't rude in nature) and I forgot she was one of the few people that knew of this account.

      I really have no venting place/person now that I've moved. I refuse to vent my real feelings on facebook, that's not the place for it, and my two friends that I can really talk to are now miles away thanks to the move for my promotion. Ironically, you folks get to here more truth from me than most. Not that I lie to them, except by omission.

      Oh yeah, I got promoted. Same job, but a lot more responsibility and a paycheck to match. I feel like I do less core work tied to my position, but really my job has switched to a more interesting internal investigation and auditing. That's a relative assessment, I really don't find my job interesting. Let's be honest. Stressful, busy, but really, in the end, not rewarding in the least. Except the paycheck, which I'm not enjoying since I'm still paying for two apartments, and a new/used car (oh yeah, I got a new car, more later).

      The stress started to get to me, had a chest pain inducing panic attack. I'm really good at hiding emotions, especially around people, so my body reacts in the only way it can, it causes me pain. Thankfully I have an office that no one messes with, so I just went in, locked the door and laid down for a bit. Need to refill my Xanax. Killed my energy in the gym for a day or two, thankfully it came back.

      Down from a size 40 to a 36. Almost into a 34. I've made it a mission to rebuild myself physically. The mental part is coming soon. First semester back in classes in the fall.

      My happy place is with a girl that I absolutely dig, buuut we're on "hold." I think we make each other quite happy, but she's on an internship for the rest of this year to become a PA, so right at the start of any sort of relationship, instead we put a bookmark on that spot, and we just talk, lightly, but regularly. Neither of us can feel right about really burdening the other with too much, but we let it spill here and there.

      Hm... Too many words. Summing up, bought a 05 Passat TDI. Gonna drive it down to Sowo in Georgia in May. I love my Vdub.

      G'night.

    • New computer

      7 years ago

      nrthstar

      My new Asus laptop is already blowing me away. i7 vs an athlon x2... no comparison.

    • My life

      7 years ago

      nrthstar

      Is 100% chaos. It's been that way since day 1 of this new year.

      Let's briefly recap:

      New Years Eve/Day spent with a former coworker. We weren't allowed to date while working together, but she quit, and then when I wussed out on asking her out, she called me and asked me out. This girl gets my heart pounding in seconds. But then she disappeared for a bit. Now we're going out again tomorrow. I know the details about what happened, but I'll spare you.

      In the time she disappeared though, a friend of mine and I went from friendly to the direct line of dating. This came to a screeching halt though with the fact that her whole life is dominated by her PA internship, so we just talk.

      This kind of makes me sound like a dick when I write it out, but just keep in mind, I'm a one woman kind of guy, not a cheating scumbag, but as both just put me into a casual place while they figure out their lives and if I fit in, and I feel strongly for both, I hope and pray that doesn't make me a dick.

      Moving on...

      This time of the year, my current employer seems to go out of business, or layoff everyone in my position. It's happened 4 times now. This year instead, I was promoted to a nearby city, same job, more staff, more money. I'm not a city person, but hey, the pay increase is enough for me to go back to school.

      This of course has led to me struggling to find a cheap place to live, in the meantime, I traded out my truck for a VW TDI so I could commute. That is until this week when Chance let me know he had an open room in his apartment down there, for a little less than what I pay in my old apartment. (Chance being the dude in my profile picture... I really need to update that thing).

      I've down to 220 out of 260. I can run a mile again. This is an achievement for a guy who has asthma. Speaking of which, a lot of my asthma is caused by my chinchilla, so sadly, I'm trying to find him a new home.

      So basically:

      Confusing females in my life
      New car
      new apartment in a new city
      New Job
      Ooo, added bonus, new laptop will be delivered tomorrow. Thanks tax return.

      And every day I wake up to this www.youtube.com/watch?annotation_id=annotation_534954&src_vid=B9tNGEt6rmE&feature=iv&v=IxPbgnO81sQ

      Seriously. Madeon Dance Video by Nathan Barnatt. Just pure positive energy. (Edit- added stuff) Which is good because I think my brain has remembered how to deal with so much new stress just last month, so I'm just taking every new random thing in stride.

      Oh and my old band actually had a meeting with a rep from interscope. We're having a reunion show, and then the new members have some announcement to make.

    • Conan is.... well, Conan

      in Forums > Conan is.... well, Conan | Follow this topic

      nrthstar

      I just got out and honestly, I went in expecting the worst, but instead got the best that a Conan movie could be. As a D&D guy, there were moments that felt like an awesome encounter. The still shots of scenery in 3d were great, the action scenes made me feel ill smiley4.gif . 3d is still a work in progress as far as I'm concerned.

      It wasn't a deep thinking, but it was great that they mentioned some of the real Conan stories (we counted 3) in the movie.

      Others thoughts?

      Oh, and the Ghost Rider preview, I'm a huge GR fan, first movie made me want to set my own head on fire, the new preview made me hopeful that this will be as dark as the Rider deserves.

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    • For almost 3 years

      8 years ago

      nrthstar

      I've looked in the mirror and didn't know who I was even looking at. It's been a problem ever since Kerri came into my life, and smashed it apart. Ever since I was laid off for the first time, and then three more times across three years so I kept falling farther and farther behind. Since I gave up on my health and gained more and more weight. Ever since I lost all ability to finish school, and I had no personal hopes or dreams.

      I spent the last three years ignoring all emotion, and focused only on work. I took a job that had great pay, but literally made me resent the human race. I got off work, I went home, drank some whiskey and beer, played video games, repeat.

      Now though, I have a job that pays enough for me to get by, get back into school, buy my favorite nerdy things and I don't hate it (it has it's moments though). I'm down 30 lbs, I can feel my strength coming back, which has helped rebuild my confidence and my balance. Life has gotten better, and on the last couple of dates (no real connection unfortunately) I felt like myself, I had fun and I'm ready for more.

    • Lot's of happenings

      8 years ago

      nrthstar

      Let's sum up:

      I got promoted to loss prevention manager. Not my choice of jobs, but I'm back to making survivable money again.

      I've lost 30 lbs. Now that I can afford the gym again, I'll be going back to lose the other 30 lbs.

      My female chinchilla (Moira) gave birth to two kits. Moira died as did one of the kits. I hand fed the surviving male (Mal ie Malcom Reynolds) however after a few days of feeding him every two hours, including the nights, he died. I cried a bit, as I am a hardcore animal lover, but then I gave them a burial, and life moved on. Murph is still alive and well (my male) although he's definitely a bit lonely now.

      I'm going to make another attempt at being sociable on here. I unfortunately just lose focus, and as my phone can't run this site for crap, I struggle getting on and updating/reading others updates.

      -Matt

    • 8 years ago

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  • Comments (123)

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Awesome! I'm glad to hear that you're able to enjoy life ^_^
      I'm doing well smiley0.gif My dad is looking for a job too.. He worked or the IT side of CC so my family felt the layoff's too :/
      I'm on randomly so if you're online & available just shoot me an invite & I'll most likely either be able to join you or shoot you an invite to join me.

      So, r u doing anything special for Easter?
      I think mine will be spent at the Braves game, lol

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Hello, hello!
      How have you been? It's been a while

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      It's ok ^_^
      I figured as much. Hey if you're up for it then maybe we could play some thursday night around 7p?
      I'm looking to get the last few achievements I need for L4D.
      Most are in the Verses mode But I still need Man vs. Tank too.
      Anyway, let me know & we can work from there smiley8.gif
      I like the new profile pic btw

    • letoreborn

      10 years ago

      Garithos!

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Anytime.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      Round 2 has bugun.

    • atlus0016

      10 years ago

      LOL Showdown. Pick you cat Here

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      I know right!!
      I want to play Dead Air as infected!!
      There'd be no winning, lol!

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Hey, thanks for comin out & playing yesterday! That was pretty fun!
      Lol, I hope your roommate wasn't too upset about the tank thing.
      It was just too easy smiley0.gif

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      I'd say yes but I'd be setting you up with a horrible team mate.. She's "too proud of a hunter" to play as a survivor. -_-'

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Thanks for adding me! smiley0.gif
      We can play l4d together now ^_^

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Haha! Nice ^_^
      I just found out what Verses play is all about yesterday!
      *drool*
      I freakin LOVE being the Hunter!!
      It's so fun being evil smiley8.gif

      It's puzzle 15, I think..
      Where the room is separated in three places & the middle section holds this moving platform that will take you to the exit but you have to get the ball to the catchy thing to make it work.
      I can get to the middle easy, I just can't figure out how too make the ball go to the right place..

      >_o ?

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Nice XD

      I got it a week or two ago & played it a little each night week before last but left town for a week & haven't even turned on the xbox since I've been home.

      I like it though smiley0.gif
      I'm stuck in one place at the moment. Lol, I think I have a new hypothesis to attempt but who knows if it'll work ^_^

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Hell yeah! That'd be awesome ^_^
      I'm normally on every other if not every night. 5-8 est
      Killing zombies helps me relax smiley8.gif

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Seeing as how education is a must, I'd have to make them sit down and play Midnight Rescue until they learn their times tables AND save the school.

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Even still, games that used real actors. Having to wait 5+ minutes for the game to load up on the PC. ........ DOS!!

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      *shame*

      I already have found myself saying things like "When I was your age" & like comments...

      I'm gonna end up being the old lady the kids are obligated to hang around because their parents make them & I'll be saying stuff like,

      "Back in my day, we were lucky to have EIGHT pixels! And we had to WALK our busted 360's back to Microsoft BOTH ways!!! In the Snow! And uphill too! Now you kids need to go look up the NES on Wiki & learn some respect!"

      It's gonna be AWESOME!!!

      Post edited 1/28/09 12:49PM

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Nice. I can definitely relate to that kind of nostalgia ^_^
      Sleeping late, working afternoons & video games all night!
      It all got traded for waking before dawn, working all day & maybe fitting games in somewhere between dinner & bed if there's no more work. :P

      Oh well, life goes on.. I can get that life back.... I just need to win the lottery!

    • mrspetrelli

      10 years ago

      heyy Thanks : )
      && you have pretty good music taste too : )

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      Unfortunately no... smiley2.gif I learned that the hard way when we had a slumber party at my place... smiley4.gif

      Thanks for the comment! smiley12.gif

    • Frostitute

      10 years ago

      There is a zero tolerance policy in regards to file sharing on this site.
      You're banned from the music forum until further notice.
      You're getting off lightly compared to some people.

    • saygoodnight

      10 years ago

      lol, yeah it does!

    • Canadianeh_1

      12 years ago

      welcome to the site. If you need any help on the site then feel free to message me.

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