penguin03303

Female
from Danville, VT

  • Activity

    • oh wow...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      I havent been on in a while, for reasons that most people dont know, but im not gonna explain. This will probably be my last time on here, at least for a while. On the upside, good things have happened...I have a new b/f, my grandpa is 95, it is Christmas Eve, and my family is all comming up tomorrow. I have found out who i really am, and realized that all the stupid people that ry to tell me that im not being myself are what i jsut said: stupid. I care about people, but i have mood swings just like everybody else. I am dating a guy that most people will say is a bad influence, but i like him alot, and he respects me, and my past, as i respect his. If people have a problem with him, they are more then welcome to tell me, but I have to follow my heart. Its worked in the past. As for my friends who have had a sucky pre-xmas, im sorry, and i hope things get better! im here to talk anytime u need me...u either have my phone number, or my email address, because my email is at the bottem of this VERY long post. im sorry for the length, but i want people to know whats going on. If they want to that is. So yeah, i guess thats it....for those of u, any of u, that want to reach me, my email is dawgluver@gmail.com. i check it as often as i can, which is almost every night. ok, im done with this now....i hope peoples lives are good...and i hope u all have a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!! ^_^
      love to all my friends,
      -amanda

    • yeah...this is me...open and honest

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      What makes me who I am:

      All of the hard times,
      All the love,
      All the trips to the hospital for my family,
      All of the lies from friends and loved ones,
      All of the lies that I have told,
      All of my friends and family,
      And, of course, my unforgettable heartbreak.

      The three things I have learned in my life:
      1)That everything has made me a better and stonger person.
      2)To give a person a chance after a heartbreak.
      3)To love unconditionally.
      In other words,
      Live, Learn, Love

    • yeah...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      well, i had an interesting day yesterday...i found out that one of my close friends might be moving, i went to another friends house for the first time, i ran into my ex and his new g/f, and i went to see the movie "open season" with a couple friends....it was interesting
      i take my PSAT's this week...wish me luck, cause i'll sure need it! Lol
      a friend i havent seen in a long time wants to hang out tomorrow, so that might be fun...i hope i can go...
      my life is going a little better...well, kind of. im still hurting, but i have lots of people who are trying(and almost succeding) in getting my mind off of the past...but i still hate my life, and i honestly wish that i could die...but im not suicidal...

    • well...!

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      im kinda excited about next weekend...me and some friends (none of which are on here) are going to the movies...im helping a friend get up the nerve to ask out her long-time crush...so yeah...and im going with a guy who is a good friend so it wont be as awkward as it could be, for her and for me! we are gonna try to see "the grudge 2" if it is playing...so yeah...things should go well...i hope...lol...so...im happy! ^_^

      btw....have any of you guys seen the movie "a few good men"?

    • yeah...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      yeah...im tired...my weekend consists of sleeping until 11 every day, and staying up til 3 every night...*yawn*...so much fun!!!! lol...no seriously, im looking foward to it!

    • well...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      well, im not sure what to do. i wanna be friends with chris(nofxmn1) still, but he is being distant. he has moved on so fast...and he has a new g/f now. i need support, i need...him, but i cant have him. i want him back, i want him back so damn much! i do...and i would do anything...but he has moved on, past me, and he is a friend and that is it. it hurts...alot. i wish this was all just a dream, and i wish i could die. i wish that i could wake up from this nightmare, and i would be in his arms, but no matter how hard i pinch myself, i cant wake up. y cant life come with an undo button? i know, to learn from our mistakes. i learned...i did...and now im ready to either wake up again, or fall asleep forever.

    • so sad, and so lonely

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      I took Lyrics from a song:

      I wait for the postman to bring me a letter.
      And I wait for the good Lord to make me feel better.
      And I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders.
      Family in crisis that only grows older.Why'd you have to go?
      Why'd you have to go?
      Why'd you have to go?
      I am broken, but I am hoping.
      I am crying, a part of me's dying.
      But these are, these are confessions of a broken heart!
      I dream of another you, one who would never
      Never, leave me alone to pick up the pieces.I need you to hold me, that's what I needed.
      So,why'd you have to go?
      Why'd you have to go?
      Why'd you have to go?
      I know I left you, but I dint want to,
      Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
      'Cause these are, these are the confessions of a broken heart!
      Of a broken heart!

      I love you.
      I love you.
      I love you.

    • chorus to a great song...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      "Now I lay me down to sleep...
      I pray the lord my soul to keep...
      If I die before I wake...Feed Jake...
      He's been a good dog...
      My best friend, right through it all...
      If I die before I wake...Feed Jake."

      so true...only u put my dong's name in there...but i love that song!

      I dont know what i am feeling...hurt, sad...lonely...and very very sick....but...i guess that is love isnt it...what is the expression? Oh yeah...LOVE HURTS. so true...so fucking true.

    • i dont know...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      my ex got an email that i had written my friend a few days ago, and it said i had somehting to tell her, that she couldnt tell my ex. then i said i was happy, and all that stuff, but in the next email, i said that i still needed to tell her that secret, and she didnt respond. the secret was that i missed him, and didnt know wha to do, cause i thought he had blown me off, and hated me (it says that in an earlier email), but he took it as what i need to tell her was that i was happy now. PLEASE HELP ME! i need advice, because i only told 3 people how i really felt, and he doesnt believe me. what do i do?

    • ...can't breath...

      12 years ago

      penguin03303

      chris and i broke up about 2 weeks ago...and im so sad right now, because i hurt him, and i love him, and i wanted to be in a relationship with him, but he misunderstood, and he cant accept it. some friends told me that someone asked him out, and he didnt know what to say, and now i just cant stop crying. i dont want him to be with anybody else, but i cant be with him. i want him to be happy. i miss him, but everytime i say that, people say we should gett back together, but i cant do that. i need advice. please, anybody....please. i dont want my pic to come true....

  • About Me

  • Comments (795)

    • blairbtch666

      11 years ago

      I hope you never log on to this site again
      I hate you :D

    • Misanagi

      11 years ago

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    • nofxmn1

      12 years ago

      i dont like you

    • stupidcupid

      12 years ago

      *points* LOOK WHO I FOUND!!!

    • DSOTM

      12 years ago

      hey, will you comment on my latest journal so I know which poems I should slam on Friday? Please?!?!

      How are you?

    • DSOTM

      12 years ago

      That pic you asked about is from a show called Sliders. The main character is also in Crossing Jordan, and several movies, including Kangaroo Jack... so that could be why it looked familiar

    • DSOTM

      12 years ago

      Doug my broithers old friend?!?!? ok.. I wonmder why she said that you did... hey, how did you get deleted from my friends list?

    • DSOTM

      12 years ago

      who's your new b/f? do I know him? Danielle said that you hated me. Roy broke up with me.....

    • James23

      12 years ago

      I can't be nice? Is that so wrong. Also, tell me these on our message. Ok? Thanks!

    • James23

      12 years ago

      Anytime.

    • James23

      12 years ago

      You didn't sound lame. It's ok to ask qustions.

    • James23

      12 years ago

      I don't have a myspace. I never wanted one either. Thanks for asking though

    • hardrocker63

      12 years ago

      The teacher was warren, who else?

    • James23

      12 years ago

      Happy Holidays! YA!

    • Orighackerz

      12 years ago

      Happy Holidays!

    • nisha_night

      12 years ago

      ¢¾I promise you my heart¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you my life¢¾
      ¢¾I promise we'll never be apart¢¾
      ¢¾I promise not to hurt you¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to never make you cry¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to always trust you¢¾
      ¢¾I promise not to lie¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you forever¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you tonight¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you my respect¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to do things right¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to always be there¢¾
      ¢¾I promise until the end¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to always love you¢¾
      ¢¾I promise to be your best friend¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you my love¢¾
      ¢¾I promise you my life¢¾
      ¢¾I promise this forever¢¾
      ¢¾I promise our friendship is my life¢¾
      ¢¾your the PEANUT to my BUTTER ,¢¾
      ¢¾your the STAR to my BURST,¢¾
      ¢¾your the M to my M,¢¾
      ¢¾your the POP to my TART,¢¾
      ¢¾your the MILKY to my WAY,¢¾
      ¢¾your the FRUIT to my LOOP,¢¾
      ¢¾your the MILK to my DUDS,¢¾
      ¢¾your the LUCKY to my CHARMS,¢¾
      ¢¾your the ICE to my CREAM,¢¾
      but mostly....
      ¢¾your the BEST to my FRIEND¢¾

      ¢¾SEND THIS TO 13 OF YOUR closes FRIENDS (INCLUDING ME) IF YOU GET IT BACK
      1-U HAVE BAD FRIENDSHIPS
      2-U STILL SUCK
      3-U R A GOOD FRIEND
      4-U HAVE REALLY GOOD FRIENDSHIPS
      5-UR 1 OF THE BEST PEOPLE IN DA world

    • DSOTM

      12 years ago

      Heared from Danielle you're pissed at me...

    • Mazing

      12 years ago

      IF U WERE KILLED TOMORROW, I WOULDNT GO 2 UR FUNERAL CUZ ID B N JAIL 4 KILLIN THE MOTHA FUCKER THAT KILLED U!

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      WE TRUE HOMIES
      WE RIDE TOGETHER
      WE DIE TOGETHER
      send this GUN to everyone you care about including me if you care. C how many times you get this, if you get a 10 your A TRUE HOMIE....


      meh...im bored...so yeah im helpin spread this around....lol

    • nisha_night

      12 years ago

      IF U WERE KILLED TOMORROW, I WOULDNT GO 2 UR FUNERAL CUZ ID B N JAIL 4 KILLIN THE MOTHA ER THAT KILLED U!


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      WE TRUE HOMIES
      WE RIDE TOGETHER
      WE DIE TOGETHER
      send this GUN to everyone you care about including me if you care. C how many times you get this, if you get a 10 your A TRUE HOMIE....

    • hardrocker63

      12 years ago

      I'll have a haloween journal up in a few minutes.

    • KrIsTiN07

      12 years ago

      huh? whats that?

    • Mazing

      12 years ago

      you arent a "gangsta" are you? I hate ppl like that...but they make me laugh...

    • Mazing

      12 years ago

      well im not sure what to make of your latest journal but...happy halloween! lol trick or treatin isnt really my thing but go have fun tradin candy :-p

    • KrIsTiN07

      12 years ago

      hes 18 and i'm 17

    • Misanagi

      12 years ago

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    • Mazing

      12 years ago

      watsup...im one of the random FR's you got, ummm yeah idk just seein how many friends i can make

    • KrIsTiN07

      12 years ago

      yeah sure just ask and i'll try my best to help

    • blairbtch666

      12 years ago

      ok like i said.. im glad i got to talk to you [even if i dident sound it i just woke up] so yeah i hope every thing is cool cuz the fighting online is getting old
      and im sorry about the bitchness it will stop
      :]

      -Haley

    • blairbtch666

      12 years ago

      i think its funny that you gave me -21 on somthing that i dont even care about yeah i hope you know that i could do the same if i felt the need but i dont

      i dont feel the need to do dumb shit to you to make myself feel better because unlike you, i dont think you have anything that i want

      im sorry that chris picked me over you and it may not be your falt but its not mine or his.
      you can give me all the -mod ponts you want i dont care and it is pointless its not going to make him or anyone els think that your cooler than a whinny bitch how cant exsept the fact that the person she "loves" is happier with out her
      dont say you have because if you did you wouldent be doing retarded shit like this

      so i was just letting you know that i dont care about mod points so you going to have to try harder than that :]
      also letting you know that you will still fail so its not even worth trying

      kthnxbye

    • nisha_night

      12 years ago

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      send this heart to everyone you care about including me if you care. C how many times you get this, if you get a dozen your loved.........i love you more though

    • 0400842

      12 years ago

      I am sure you do, and I wish I could make it so that could get what you want, but it is time to look to having a good life. Look forward my dear, it will get better I promise. ^_^ good luck.

    • Mazing

      12 years ago

      I'll try not to be a random friend lol.....but hey, you ask ppl who seem like you could get along with right?

    • lever

      12 years ago

      oh really? you need to talk or anything, but im glad your getting better

    • lever

      12 years ago

      nuthin really just checkin in to see how your holding up and how your doing?

    • lever

      12 years ago

      Hey amanda long time no see

    • hardrocker63

      12 years ago

      Yeah. That was in response to your journal comment.

    • hardrocker63

      12 years ago

      Your friend

    • suicidal_sal

      12 years ago

      I put you on watch, becasue you have such great pics!

    • James23

      12 years ago

      I don't know anymore. I might as well run away and never come back. It'll make alot of people happier. I don't know. It seems like a good option. It might work. If I run I lose what's left of me and become the thing I fear, a monster... I just need help, and alot of it.

    • James23

      12 years ago

      Thought you should know the truth. My friend Tim is right. September is a sad month. My dog died 9/11. My girlfriend broke up with me on 9/18. Now I feel like an ass trying to figuer out what the hell I did wrong!

    • James23

      12 years ago

      Just as a joke. I love you... On a more serious note, I'm a hopeless wreck on the brink of insanity looking for someone to love.

    • nofxmn1

      12 years ago

      ypur not the reason

    • nofxmn1

      12 years ago

      no

    • nofxmn1

      12 years ago

      "i love you chris!!! (nofxmn1) ^_^"
      do u?

    • nofxmn1

      12 years ago

      Relly wish you were on more! smiley2.gif
      Love You Tho!!

    • nofxmn1

      13 years ago

      wish you'd be on

      love you tho.

    • nofxmn1

      13 years ago

      msn is faster tho

    • nofxmn1

      13 years ago

      Hé ! Qu'en haut ? Je VOUS AIME SI BEAUCOUP ! smiley12.gif Vous wanna le discours sur MSN ? smiley0.gif

    • nofxmn1

      13 years ago

      yay!
      and im fine
      miss you
      but love you

    • nofxmn1

      13 years ago

      hey beautiful!!
      I love you too smiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

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