pennypanda

27 years old
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from Madison, WI

  • Activity

    • Come Watch a Movie With Me!

      3 years ago

      pennypanda

      As most people who know me have come to realize, I am a huge cinephile, like to the point of being annoying at times (sorry) and so last December I discovered this magical thing that was happening at a theatre near me. The thing is called Secret Cinema. When I started going, for the first and third Thursday of every month, I would sit in a big comfy chair surrounded by other movie-loving people, and not know what the film was until the title screen came up. And I have never been disappointed at what I saw.

      And then a few months ago they added a new program called Secret Cinema: Audience Choice where an audience member emails the theatre with their choice for Secret Cinema, and if they like your choice, you get added in a queue to present, and guess what? IT'S MY TURN!

      (I apologize in advanced for the caps, but I'm so fracking excited!)


      I GET TO PRESENT A MOVIE IN A MOVIE THEATRE!!!!!!!!!!


      And trust me, it's a good one!

      And no, I'm not telling, the first word of the title is "secret" after all.

      But.....


      If you just so happen to live in Michigan and want to come out to the Maple Theatre on January 14th and hear me geek out and ramble about a movie (seriously, I have to present in front of people, I might die a little) then please come!

      I am very excited to present this and would love to share it with people.


      The show will be on Thursday, January 14th at 7:30 PM at the Maple Theatre in Bloomfield Township


      Here is a link to the theatre's page for anyone interested.


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      GET PUMPED

    • 3 years ago

      pennypanda
    • Nic Cage is Attractive

      3 years ago

      pennypanda

      I can't believe I'm actually saying it, like never thought I would think of him that way,

      but I just saw Moonstruck

      and holy crap, man.

      Like seriously.

      What the hell just happened?



      Also, Moonstruck is fucking amazing.


    • Lazer Team!

      in Forums > Lazer Team! | Follow this topic

      pennypanda

      so I'm sure anyone who was a backer saw that there has been an email regarding theatres that are showing Lazer Team in January, and there are three in Michigan! (Dearborn, Livonia, and Sterling Heights) and I just personally thought it would be awesome for us to all go see it together. The time they have listed for all of the current showings is January 27th at 7 PM. Anyone else interested in going that day and time? (I know it's a Wednesday, but I'm willing to be tired at work the next day for this!)

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    • Official Stance on Men with Long Hair

      3 years ago

      pennypanda

      Over the past few hours, with a little help, I have formulated an official stance on men with long hair, and the only time I deem it acceptable. The list is as follows:


      1. It must be able to pull back into a nice half-up ponytail
      2. Hair must be lighter in color
      3. Man must be able to do a compelling Stanley Kowalski impression
      4. Man must have a dangerous Robin Hood complex
      5. Man must be Sir Ben Kingsley



      In completely unrelated news, I finally watched Sneakers (only about 4 years after a friend recommended I saw it) and absolutely loved it.

      I will now go to sleep and dream sweet dreams of Dan Aykroyd in a winnebago

    • In Explanation of Yesterday

      3 years ago

      pennypanda

      Just as a disclaimer before I begin: I had a long internal debate over whether or not to write this because on the one hand I felt that some type of explanation was owed regarding my behavior yesterday, but on the other hand this topic is a direct segue into a few topics that I have deliberately avoided discussing in such an open forum as a journal. So just as a forewarning, if there are sections of this that don't necessarily make sense or questions that seem to be unanswered, that's because this isn't the whole story. I'm not quite ready to talk about the whole story yet.

      Okay, and onto the juicy part. I sometimes get these panic attacks (maybe anxiety attack is the better word? I never really knew what to call them, but I think that gives a general idea). It's the type of thing that's been happening on and off for probably about 6 or 7 years at this point, some are more serious than others (but that's generally because they coincide with other things happening at the time) but for the most part they are just this thing that happens to me. Nothing really triggers them as far as I can tell (or if something does, it's not something I'm aware of) and they come on rather quickly. One minute I will be fine, and then a few seconds later I start feeling panicky and neurotic, like I can't breathe or move or think rationally, like my head is completely empty yet screaming at me at the same time (you know, the fun things), and like that I just want to scream and explode and curl up in a ball and weep. My brain turns into this never-ending panic loop that doesn't think rationally and doesn't know how to stop. It brings out a part of me that I can't stand but I can't get rid of or ignore. And then after it all passes (sometimes in a few minutes sometimes in a few hours) I'm fine again.

      Now, normally when this happens, I'm by myself, sometimes I'm at work, occasionally it happens around family, but circumstances that I can steal away and take the time to let it pass. Scenarios where people generally don't notice or care when I steal away to the bathroom for an extended amount of time. But every once in a while it happens in unfortunate circumstances, like in the middle of an RT Michigan event, when I'm surrounded by people that notice if I disappear (which baffles me, but that's a whole different topic of conversation) and then it starts a whole additional vicious cycle. I know there are people out there who cry or act dramatic to get attention, who run away because they want someone to chase after them. I am not that person. I run away because I don't want people to see me cry, I don't want anyone to think of me as being over-dramatic or fishing for attention, and I don't want people thinking I'm unhinged or unstable. I hide in the bathroom because I'm embarrassed, which then increases the longer that I'm in the bathroom, because I'm an "adult" who can't control her emotions enough in public and has to hide away like a child in order to calm the fuck down.

      I got off on a bit of a tangent there, basically what I'm saying is even though it might not make sense or might not sound like the truth, really and honestly, there was nothing wrong yesterday. And I think that's the saddest part.

    • The Martian - Book Review

      4 years ago

      pennypanda

      It has been a long time that I have found a book so engrossing that I finished it in one day simply due to the fact that I couldn't put it down. It's a feeling that I had missed.

      Though I did exactly that yesterday with Andy Weir's The Martian. It helped that I was a passenger in a car for most of the day so I had plenty of time to do nothing but read, but regardless, that is one of the best sci-fi books I have read in a long time.

      I won't get into anything specific because while I personally don't care about spoilers, I know that other people do, but I will simply say that I highly recommend this book to anyone, especially if you love science fiction. The manner of storytelling just engulfs you and the narrative itself is incredibly compelling. There are a few minor things that I personally didn't like, but they are minor details in an overall exquisite novel.

      And now I am very curious about the movie. Going back and watching the trailer there are a couple things I am worried about that are obvious they changed (one I can understand simply due to the difference of storytelling in a visual medium versus a written one) and how that will effect the overall outcome, but still, if people stop making Matt Damon/Insterstellar jokes, I think it will be a great film.

      And now my favorite line from the trailer:

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    • Quantifying the Relationships

      4 years ago

      pennypanda

      Whenever I find myself at the end of a relationship I tend to reflect heavily on it as well as previous relationships, if there were similarities, what happened, is there a pattern, the normal analytical aspects of my overactive mind. And since I seem to have found myself in this position again, I have decided to quantify my relationship history, a mixture of cynicism and curiosity, just to see if there is anything worth nothing.

      Please note: this is merely an analytical measure of the whole scope. I am going to try and hold personal opinions on specific relationships to a minimum (of course a few will make it through, but that's not why I'm doing this) and also these relationships have nothing to do with more intimate aspects of relationships or relationships that were solely based on that, this is about people who I "dated" in one respect or another.

      So here we go, fueled by peppermint schnapps and nutella, let's see if I actually get anything accomplished with this:

      5: number of defined relationships I have had (i.e. defined as boyfriend/girlfriend)

      4: number of those defined relationships that were terminated over the phone

      1: number of said relationships terminated by phone that I can actually justify why it occurred that way

      0: number of times I have been the instigator in terminating a romantic relationship

      2.6: average length of defined relationships (given in months)

      1: number of exes who now identify as the opposite gender

      3: number of romantic relationships that were not defined (i.e. as boyfriend/girlfriend) for unspecified resasons

      2: number of non-defined romantic relationships that ended due to severe lack of communications (i.e. no communications - one of which was incredibly impressive that he was able to accomplish that given we worked in the same place...)

      2: number of casual flings

      2: number of people that I had casual flings with who I still consider very close friends

      10: number of men that I have only gone on dates with (averaging one date) that never progressed to anything further

      2: number of times I have been sworn at because I expressed disinterest in future dates (I always informed in the politest ways, thanking them for the date and apologizing for lack of future dates - one called me a bitch and the other told me to go fuck myself, though he is expanded upon in the next quantity)

      1: number of stalkers (which resulted in severe anxiety issues at the time)

      unquantifiable: number of tears shed over the termination of various relationships


      And I think that's about it, of course there are more numbers and figures that could be expanded upon, and whole aspects of relationships that I would rather not revisit. But as far as bare bones go, that is my romantic history summed up into just a few figures.

      That was actually a lot more fun to actually type out that I thought it would be.

      Overall the thing I have definitely noticed going forward is that with each passing relationship my cynicism has grown stronger, and that the times I spend mourning what was lost is spent angry rather than sad. I have wept over the lost opportunities more than the lost relationship.

      But we keep moving on.

      To leave you with a song.


    • 4 years ago

      pennypanda
    • Fitness Update #3: Trying Something New and Thoughts on Body Image

      4 years ago

      pennypanda

      I'm sure similar to other people, I've been avoiding posting on the RT site lately, or even browsing it for that matter, because I recognize that there are kinks being worked out and I'll just get super frustrated if I spend too much time here at the moment, but I figured it has been 3 months since I posted a fitness update, and it was about time I said some more things. (Also, sorry in advance if the thoughts in the second half of this journal are things I've said before, I just realized I couldn't search through my own journals anymore which is how I used to figure out whether or not I was repeating myself, but anyway...)

      I have still been working out. Amazing, right? Well, at least it is to me. Honestly coming back from Vegas a few months ago, I was trying to adjust my routine to better fit my goals (which now includes running a 5k in November) and I had some issues arise. I found it difficult to keep up my motivation, especially since I was not seeing any fucking results., which can be very discouraging. And I know that it takes a while to notice any changes, but after 5 or so months of being active, it would be nice to see a little something. And so just over a week ago I decided to make an even greater change. I'm (theoretically) leaving for a trip to Madison next week and I decided until then I would do everything in my power to work out every day. And for the most part I have, since last Sunday (8 days ago) I have worked out 7 of them (Saturday night I found myself very sick, but it was a temporary bug and I was better the next morning) and I actually feel really good about it. I am leaving for the gym in about 15 minutes and I recognize that it is going to be a very difficult workout due to numerous blisters on my feet at the moment, but I'm still going to do it and try and push myself, because I have have to push myself right now to make anything happen. So that's my current gym update: slowly becoming a gym rat. gymaholic? whatever you want to call it.

      The other thing I really wanted to talk about kind of links to the first part of this, in that I have never, in my life, been comfortable with my body. In theory, I love the concept of the "love your body" campaigns you see all the time, but they've never really effected me in the way that I think they are meant to. I always look at those images and think "wow, those girls are really pretty, I wonder if I could ever look like that" no matter what body type they are displaying or message they are trying to get across, I don't think I will ever look that good. (and just for the record, this is not one of those "woe is me, I'm just fishing for compliments, please tell me I'm pretty" I'm really just trying to express my perception on societal images and on myself) because even in those campaigns, the women are still very proportional and have the sleek hourglass figure, even if it is with some more curves in it, it always conforms into the greater lens of societal beauty. And even if it didn't, even if there was one mannequin out there that looked like me or one woman in an advertisement who had an apple body-type similar to mine, I don't think it would matter. I'll always see them as what I want to be. And I'm not just referring to images in media, which I know can and usually are photoshopped or altered in some way, these are the same thoughts I have regarding women on the street, at my job, at the supermarket, anywhere and everywhere. Because a "love your body" campaign won't work for me, even after I go to the gym for a year or 5, even after I drop those pesky 30 pounds or dye my hair a different color. I will never truly love my body until I love myself, and that's a whole different can of worms.

      Okay, that ended up in a significantly different place than I meant it to, but it's the thought process that goes through my head anytime there is a "love your body" campaign or when someone mentions how stupid it is for people to compare themselves to the images they see, because I do. Always have and probably always will.

      tl;dr: A long overdue brain dump from a person just trying to take life one day at a time.

  • Comments (290)

    • LillyBugLove

      5 years ago

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    • LillyBugLove

      5 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        awwwww. the most adorable.

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

      LOOK AT HOW IT PANICS AND SHOVES ALL THE FOOD IN ITS MOUTH!

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      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        I was laughing way too hard at this. Glad it helped! smiley0.gif

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        So after having a particularly crap-tastic day, this is absolutely perfect.

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

      tumblr_m9ptoggl3H1re3wmmo1_250.gif these cat gifs right now are making my night

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        Cat gifs are always welcome :)

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

      a little cruel, yet amazing

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    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        Cats are always the best! So cute!!! smiley12.gif

    • LillyBugLove

      5 years ago

      Suddenly, everything thats old is new... @raf
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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        That is just so much awesome

      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        I love it! The Top Gun one is amazing

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      It's been too long! Hope you're doing well! smiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley13.gif

      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        YAY! smiley13.gifsmiley0.gif

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        You have no idea how much this made my day!
        Sorry for the lack of gifs lately, I haven't had time to rebuild my arsenal, but...

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    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        so much cute. I can't handle it

    • LillyBugLove

      5 years ago

      MEOW POW!

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    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        smiley13.gifsmiley13.gifsmiley0.gif happy to help!

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        That is one of the most adorable things I have ever seen.
        Perfect thing to see on a crappy day like mine. Thanks smiley0.gif

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      5 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        cats in socks are the best

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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      Ever feel super adventurous and then immediately regret it?

      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        I turtle-sat my friends Russian Tortoise last year, he was pretty bad ass. He would stick his head out and watch me play Xbox lol

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        Herbert.
        One of these days I will post a journal about him.
        Russian tortoise, will most likely outlive me (they live 75+ years, and he's only about 13)

      • Raf Raf

        5 years ago

        Aww. What's his name?

      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        All the time. Also I have a tortoise, so that makes me kind of sad.. because he's definitely gotten close to doing that, if not actually done that when I wasn't looking

    • Kiwi OCC Time Lord

      5 years ago

      We interrupt your regularly-scheduled gif-ing to bring you this jpeg.

      Seriously, saw this picture and thought "Holy Crap, she looks like Penny!"

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        I WANT THAT HAIR COLOR! smiley13.gif

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

      Just having one of these days

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        Those days happen to me quite often

    • Raf Raf

      5 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      We've been doing this for 6 months, so I rocked out with GIfs!

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      • pennypanda

        5 years ago

        I kind of like the dog on the side who's just like "what the fuck is going on?"

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      PENNY! I feel like I've neglected your page! Im sorry and wanted to say

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      I'M BACK!

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        Bananas are incredibly scary

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      tumblr_mlp79greay1ql2603o1_400.gif?w=400 I just want to do this for the rest of the summer.

    • krysspy

      6 years ago

      Thanks for accepting my request!
      I enjoy your daily journals - keep it up!
      Hope the result for your GRE is good - I don't know what it is but... Yeah!

      - Krysspy

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      Me bored at work

      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        I definitely had this in my arsenal of gifs.
        Yay chive

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      Thuglife

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      Help is on the way!

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH NAH , you cant get me lol

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      tumblr_mopk8cpFR61qa5rnho1_400.gif Thanks to @Tara for this lol

      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        that is possibly the cutest thing

    • Clint

      6 years ago

      I just went to your profile page after reading a journal of yours, and your Breakfast Club dancing GIF just matched perfectly with the music I was listening to! It really made me stop and watch the GIF for a bit, so thanks fr having great GIFs I guess!

    • Kiwi OCC Time Lord

      6 years ago

      So, uh... We're Featured Group again. smiley12.gif I didn't think that would come twice in a row, but Congratulations fellow Admin?!?!?

      BTW, I figured out the recording thing, you should be able to watch the Girl Talk any time!

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      this summer heat makes me want to do this

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      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        that looks so refreshing

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      you cant has!

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      Not animals, but i think it deserves a spot here

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        damn, now I want watermelon.

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      I dont remember if ive posted this before, but here it is anyway

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      BOOP!

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      Rocking out!

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      I love this so much

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      OH AND HELLLO!

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      • Raf Raf

        6 years ago

        No problem. Cheers to a relaxing night!

      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        Coming home to this after a crappy day definitely makes it much better. Thanks smiley1.gif

    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

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      6 years ago

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      6 years ago

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      6 years ago

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    • Raf Raf

      6 years ago

      h5D16A3AC Ive neglected your wall for two weeks! I feel horrible, Im gonna bomb it with GIFs on Suinday and a little bit tonight as well! smiley8.gifsmiley13.gif

      • pennypanda

        6 years ago

        No need to feel bad! And I may have watched this for longer than I'd like to admit...

    • LaurenHewett

      6 years ago

      Thanks for accepting my friend request :D x

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