ringmaster15

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from mentor, OH

    • ringmaster15

      I'm back!

      2 years ago

      Wow it's been ages since iv logged on here! Looking over my profile is pretty pathetic >_< will update later tonight!

    • ringmaster15

      is it really true?

      4 years ago

      Why do I write these if no one reads them? lol I guess it feels good to vent and get some things out of your mind. Well things have really just stopped going in anyway, shape or form of something good in my future. Such a long and sad story, it hurts so much but I still feel if there is any chance at all, even if its the smallest possibility I must remain positive, calm and strong. Once again though, you were taken from me, it took what seemed like a century just to talk with you again and to find out that we both still are deeply in love with one another, all that is needed is time. Which of course still sucks because every minute away from you feels like a day, I miss everything about you and even your family. It pains me to think that this might be truly over, it hurts even more not to know for sure what is to happen. I love everything about you, so much you know already and more that you have yet to know. There is so much more that I want to show and experience with you, so much happiness that I long to enjoy with you by my side. But once more a wrench was tossed into our love. I respect you so much, but feel your path is one that will leave you deeply hurt, I hope I can stop you before that comes to pass, or at least help you mend yourself back to the maggie I so deeply love. So many worry about you and miss you, but not as much as I do. Your my world and I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't know what our future holds for us, but I hope we can one day act on our promises, oh how I long to have a little you running around and biting the other kids on the playground thinking shes a dinosaur. But I dont know, those are just dreams I hope to make a reality, the way things are going though, Im not sure Ill be able to stand much longer. I dont want to think that after all we have been through, since the beginning, that its over. It almost seems impossible. I hope to hear from you one day...please be careful, I no longer have the right to protect you, I will do all I can but for now please know Ill always be in your heart....I moose you.....no I love you.
      with love,
      mikeh-kun

    • ringmaster15

      Life

      4 years ago

      So this is the only place I feel that I can vent without anyone close to me being able to poke at me. These past months have been the hardest path my life has turned to. I honestly am fighting for dear life let alone my own sanity. Too many issues I have worked hard on fixing are getting battered with life's sick sense of humor. I fight to remain strong and positive, for myself and one other person I hold dear to my heart. But it seems that when something good happens bad follows shortly after, its draining me to a very low level of self-respect and I can honestly say I am crying more then I should be. I dont care what people think but I feel so weak now that I fear I cant defend myself for much longer and am slowly losing my grip on what I hold so close. Your everything to me, I know you know this and thats why it hurts so much to be stuck on the side for now, though now I fear its gone for good. I cant understand why so many bad things keep breaking into my life pushing me farther from you, Im giving it everything I have to remain in a good state of mind but its so hard. I just wish I knew what was going on...i miss you so much and sorry if this is really the end

    • ringmaster15

      To the one I love

      5 years ago

      I don't know if you will even see this, but with these limitations this is all I have left. You mean the world to me and I want to promise the world, the moon, and all the stars to you. Your the best thing that has ever happened to me, from the very first day we met, to this very day as well. You know how much I love you and how much I care, so I wont waste your time with that here, even though I want to pour every thought out to you. I have become a better person, but I guess it was too late. Im sorry for everything that has taken place, I honestly dont know what has happened but there is nothing I can do. All I seem to be doing is pushing you away, I wish I knew what to do, but its as if the only thing I know is nothing. This time away from you has been killing me in every way, but I used that to better myself so that if I got another chance I could prove to us both that it would be the time of a lifetime. I still love you so much and want to be with you, as the new me not the old. I was so happy when we met up and confessed, it was such a relief and the excitement got to me but now it appears to have gone into a dark place. Im sorry that I havent an answer for what to do about this, Im sorry that I dont know how to fix this...I wish I just waited a bit longer...but now the only thing I think best is for me to vanish...I dont want to but Im only making you hate me more by being here. Ill always love you hun, please believe that....and maybe one day things will bring us back together but there is no knowing this. I love you so much....I hope this isnt really goodbye.
      i moose you
      Mikeh-kun

    • ringmaster15

      Update

      5 years ago

      So I wrote out an insanely long post to update you all and forgot the title so it deleted everything I wrote...lame. Anywho Just was talking about a couple anime conventions I attended, pretty fun just need more active friends. Im taking both Jujutsu and taekwando classes, awesome, yellow belt in tae and advancing to orange faster then we thought. And finally bought the legendary version of reach because I can, i might be giving away the elite armor code if anyone wants because I rarely play as them

    • ringmaster15

      Woot

      6 years ago

      UPDATE!!!!! OMG WOOT!

      Well its been far too long since I have done much of anything on here, where to start...College is a bitch yet fun, I can't wait to get into my art classes, as of now im taking psychology which is awesome and math which is not...Work is awesome, I'm moving up my way in management at Hot Topic which is always a good thing, gotta love my work!. Currently Im about to be on break from college so I can get my gameage on, playing Gears2,CoD5,FFXI,WOW...yeah im a loser. So um yeah people need to talk to me so I can have some fun conversations so hit me up

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  • Comments (351)

    • geekygrl

      geekygrl

      6 years ago

      Hey there

    • Kawaii_Hime1

      Kawaii_Hime1

      6 years ago

      Lovely, to meet you. <3
      I am, Sekio, and you are? =)

    • Kawaii_Hime1

      Kawaii_Hime1

      6 years ago

      Konnichiwa! Thank you, for friend add. :3

    • Lady_Abyss

      Lady_Abyss

      6 years ago

      -snuggles-

    • Lady_Abyss

      Lady_Abyss

      6 years ago

      -tackles-

    • hajima

      hajima

      7 years ago

      hello

    • dustergirl

      dustergirl

      7 years ago

      hey i am a friend of hazer1992

    • Lady_Abyss

      Lady_Abyss

      7 years ago

      Konichiwa Mikeh-kun!!! ^_^

    • Lady_Abyss

      Lady_Abyss

      7 years ago

      HIYA MIKEH-KUN!

    • Snowsaber

      Snowsaber

      7 years ago

      haha kneecap rogue, that's great