sNooVa

Female
from Philadelphia, PA

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    • Anyone like AFI or Blaqk Audio?

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      sNooVa

      I, personally thought DU was a bit lacking in some areas, but CexCells made up for it. I never thought electronica could sound that good.

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    • Well this is amusing so far.

      12 years ago

      sNooVa

      I spent my day today looking at MySpace and watching downloads of old Nickelodeon shows that used to air (back when Spongebob didn't play 19 times a week). But anyway, this one girl, Heather captured my attention. She seems like such an interesting person to me for some reason. Kind of outrageous looking, but in a beautiful way. I stumbled onto her profile through a search of my high school. I was bored. But anyway, people kept saying shit about her, and it pissed me off. I'm sick of hearing about everyone's depictions of beauty being perfect body, perfect hair, perfect face. What about personality, individuality, ...character? People piss me off.

    • So yeah...

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      My life isn't completely great right now but it's not bad either. School starts tomorrow, or today rather since it's 12 AM. I'm not looking forward to it, I despise many people there, well not just there I despise many people in general too. But hey I've always felt that way.

      Wow this site sucks, I don't even know why I'm writing a journal on it. Well mostly cause Todd said I should. Other than that though, I really don't care to share anything with any of you so I'm gonna end it here.

      Oh but one more thing. AFI is god, just remember that and you're good :D

    • :O

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      SQUEEZE CHEESE!!!!!!!!!!!

    • I love

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      Todd's penis.

      ......................what?

      Where you expecting something else?

      That was my whole journal.

      No seriously, it was.

      STOP LOOKING AT ME LIKE THAT, DAMN IT! Haven't you ever wanted to express your love for someone's penis before?!

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      Alright fine, I'm also slightly obsessed with "Miss Murder" to the point that I've had that song on repeat for hours now.

      :D

      AFI rocks, nigga.

    • So

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      today I realized what it's like to get far into a game and then have it start all the way from the effing beginning :(

      But on a brighter note, today is 1 year since Todd and I have been together. I love you!!!!!! <3

    • ..But I'm not a slave

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      to a god that doesn't exist,
      And I'm not a slave
      To a world that doesn't give a shit

      -MM

    • So

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      Todd wants to fuck a bag of sand.

      ...it's true.

    • Even harder than not being together...

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      is being together for a week and then having to make the decision of whether to leave or stay. I don't have to make it, but it stresses me out just as much because my love does. We've had so much fun this past week, and I knew he'd have to leave, I just didn't think it would be so hard to let him go.

      I've never had anyone to sleep beside me before and it was amazing to wake up and see his face every morning, but then I kept thinking of how when he leaves I'll be looking at an empty bed again. Looking at that TV and imagining him playing his wrestling game that he's obsessed with (sorry baby but you are), and then I'll be wishing like hell I could see him do it again. I'll close my eyes and think "Please be there when I open them. Please.". Right now, he is, so I smile. But when he leaves, and I open my eyes back up, it won't do much good.

      I love the way he touches my hair, I love how he looks into my eyes, I love how he tells me he loves me. If he left, I'd miss all that more than anything. And also how he wakes me up every morning. It usually involves either licking my hand or my breast, or sometimes we wake up together and I'm like shit... I don't get to be licked now :( .. jk. But what I'd miss the most is those beautiful eyes. They tell all without him having to say a word. I love his eyes. I really do.

      And who can forget, "With what, a towel?"
      Or, "Hey baby, did you just change your name?" "Uh, no baby, go back to sleep"

      I always knew that the bad times would make me laugh when I looked back on them, and when I think about some of our arguements and how small and meaningless they were I laugh as my baby is in my arms and I see his beautiful smile. But I also never knew that looking back on those good times like the towel or how he talks in his sleep I'd miss so much that it would make me cry.

      All I can say is though, I'd miss you to death if you left, and I hope you don't cause we'd love to have you here, but it's still up to you. Whatever decision you make like I said, the person who doesn't get what they want, will survive. Don't try to make everyone happy, just go with what you want the most. The complications that follow with that decision will all subside in the end.

    • I love you, Tee.

      13 years ago

      sNooVa

      I can't believe I'm finally seeing you <3 I'm scared as shit though. Definitely not going to get any sleep tonight.

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      I can't believe all that I have
      foreseen is finally happening.
      I cannot for a single second stand the way I feel.
      I always knew. I always saw it coming.
      Enveloped now, encased by my worst fear.
      I've never felt the nausea of longing to feel nothing,
      I never wanted to cease to
      exist, just disappear. Fear memories are all that lie ahead.
      Never have I felt so lost. Memories dull my senses.
      Fear tragedy is all that lies ahead.
      Never have I felt so dead.
      Once felt so warm, now I'm fucking freezing.
      I am the once embraced abandoned one.
      I raised my eyes up to the light in hopes of finding healing;
      no relief was mine, I was burned, by the sun.

  • About Me

  • Comments (241)

    • Ascendance

      10 years ago

      ... way to fuck it again dude... I'd have done anything for you as long as you hadn't asked that shit. Fucking tell me you love me right before the baby is fucking born, way to be brilliant. Sadly I don't know what to tell you anymore, you took it way to far and frankly, everyone I know thinks you deserve Aletta tearing you a new asshole worse than you ever tried to tear one for brittany. She didn't even deserve it as bad as you do, because your a year to late, had boyfriends before I moved on, and frankly what's the point I mean ack? Huh? What the hell Taye, I loved you, in a way I do still love you, but I won't be with you and frankly I shouldn't anyways.

      You controlled my life, you fucked me the fuck up beyond recognition, but in all honesty it's to late now. You should have realized that way before now but you didn't. I don't know why, frankly I don't care why It's just to much. I told Anna that she fucked up and now I'm telling you, that number wasn't for you especially if you're going to call me like that not even confront me face to face or even on the phone. It's to fucking late, I don't know how to say it strongly enough that it's way to fucking late, hell last november was to fucking late. I've moved on, and you've accused me of changing just because I started smoking doing drugs, having fun with my life and exploring the world around me.

      I enjoy where my life has gone for the most part. It is what it is anymore Taye, you were mine and in a way you still are, but frankly damn man I don't know what you think you were doing this time.

    • Ascendance

      11 years ago

      I loved you to death tis truely a shame shit diddn't work out between us. I sent you an email though, you said you would check from time to time. I know it's hard and all but still I'll have always loved you Tanya and I want to be friends still.

    • Ascendance

      12 years ago

      I love you too :(

    • itscrazyman

      12 years ago

      no complaints here except for school, that's it, dude that sucks I'm sorry to hear that feel better.

    • itscrazyman

      13 years ago

      HEY TANYA LONG TIME NO CHATSKEE WHAT'S UP HOW ARE THINGS? I don't know why I typed that in all caps I was bored I guess

    • funnybunny

      13 years ago

      HI TANYA!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I GTG TO WORK SOON :( FLUFFY IS GOOD THOUGH I'M GOING TO REFILL HER WATER AND CALL HER GOOD

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I MISS MY LOVE!!!!!!!!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      YOU'RE THE BEST

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      aww I missed you too

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I LOVE YOU BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I love you too and can't wait :)

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I LIKE MICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and yeah I will be there tommorow <3
      I love you alot babes.

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      pain

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      no I forgot to, and I don't know either :( it sucks though at least i'm finally getting some food in me right now.

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      ~hopes he is feeling better soon~

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      12 dollars for unlimited rides and stuff?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      well we don't have money to go to it anyways?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      ? what carnival?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      ~pauses 30 minutes~ yeah I think you do for a pimp like me :D, I went pee :( it hurt to get up and I collapsed back in bed.

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I LOVE YOU ALOT MY DARLING!!!!!!!!!! You're like the best man, the uber best :)

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      My crazy Tard

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      well I Guess i'll see you at 2:35

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      :( I'm sorry I love you too

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      not really now i get to show how far i can get in life without any formal training or graduation since middle school

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      you're not stupid and big deal i didn't graduate

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I'm sowwy and you can still learn your own way even if you fail you know how to do it and that's what matters.

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      Pressure probably, Cause clay is not your tool of choice, cause math takes time to learn and you might just have to study it on your own

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      Trust me you're not stupid

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      aww it's all going to be ok my love <3

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      aww it's ok baby ~wraps his arms around you~ it's no big deal

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      aww no big deal babez we all have problems from time to time and mess up what we thought we knew, and it doesn't matter if you "Suck" at building I think anything you make would be cool even if it's just a ball

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      what can't you do?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      Graduation means nothing and you know I'll help you my love

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      sure what's wrong?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      I can be there in about a half hour?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      lol see you soon love

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      alright darling I love you tooo <3

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      lol haha I am not to blame!!!!!!!!!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      SIDE!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU TOOOOOOOO

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      water's ready i'll be back in a couple of minutes

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      BACK!!!!!!!!!! i'm just boiling some water for now and i'm going to make some ramen and take a shower and brush my teeth here

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      :O EXPLODING WRESTLING RINGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRB

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      awesome I can't wait to see it :)

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW MUCH IS DONE?

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      maybe.... I LOVE YOU THREEEEEEEE SEE YOU SOOON

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      i'm not dropping hints I just want to say I love you!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      yeah i know well I'm a eat it here once you have to go :*:X I LOVE YOU DARLING!!!!!!!

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      no i'm just sick of that type of ramen

    • Ascendance

      13 years ago

      um yeah ramen yay

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