In a sense. It might be lots of me being vague to be honest.
What can I say? I haven't really been active in the RT community, though it'll always have a special place in my heart. I guess I've just been floating to other outlets since those are starting to inspire me more now. I used to make tons of RT gifs and edits but so many other talented people have come in that I just don't feel necessary anymore, let alone not having ideas for like 2 years now. But w/e. Just knowing I can always come back is nice.
School's fine, my head's above water for now, but future me is going to hate past me pretty soon.
And life...well, my friends are great, I have a cat, and I'm finally making decent pay so money won't be an issue anytime soon.
My relationship is iffy, sometimes it's great, sometimes it's a piece of shit and I don't quite know what to do. It's the little things stacking up over time and so often I wonder if I'm the problem. I say what's on my mind (a.k.a what's bothering me) and then I'm shot down like I shouldn't be so selfish, that I should see his side of things. I like to think I'm very open-minded, the cool, relaxed girlfriend, but maybe I'm not. Maybe I'm just fooling myself. I very well might whine and complain all the time like the drama queen I am (actual words used by him).
Of course, if a person has hurt you, they don't get to decide whether they did or not, right?
Idk, I'm hoping to get my own place this summer since living together doesn't seem to be working out anymore. It's come to the point where I can't even tell him if I'm anything other than happy because my feelings are immediately invalidated. Bleah, I need to find myself a nice girl. Actually, I have but she's straight (I think) and one of my best friends so hooray for unrequited love...
This next thing is off topic and super heavy so don't read any further if you're already worn out...
Three people I went to school with are dead now. I wasn't even that close to them and two of them I hadn't seen since second grade. It's really affecting me though and I don't know why. I've been close to breaking down in tears over practical strangers. Maybe I hate how they went, how they were so young, had so much ahead of them and now are just gone. Their profiles won't change, so much of their lives will remain stagnant...it's just an uncomfortable feeling.
I hope you're all surrounded by loving, caring people who respect you for you. I think you guys are great, even if I haven't talked to any of you lately/at all. Wish you all the best too.