screenaholic

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    • 6 years ago

      screenaholic

      So last night I was playing with my dog Haddy. We were having a good time, but something was bothering me. I thought she had died a long time ago. Then I woke up and remembered that she did...That was saddening.

    • 6 years ago

      screenaholic

      Wanted cereal, no clean bowls, didn't want to clean dishes, eating cereal out of tea cup.

    • Lady Malukah

      6 years ago

      screenaholic

      For those of you who haven't heard of Malukah, go check her out now.
      www.youtube.com/user/malufenix
      She has the most beautiful voice I have ever heard, and a face to match. She is the closest thing to a celebrity crush I have ever had. I have even taken to calling her Lady Malukah as a term of respect.

    • 6 years ago

      screenaholic

      So I've never vomited from alcohol before, but when I get a little gag just from reaching for my shot I have a feeling I should stop...fuck it, I already poured it. One more won't hurt. OYA!

    • Ramblings of a Drunk Man

      6 years ago

      screenaholic

      I hate falling asleep alone. Sleeping with some (literally, not as in sex) is great. I never thought I would like it, but now I miss it so much. Holding someone you care about as you fall asleep, and having them right there when you wake up, it's just great. Skittles soaked in vodka does not taste good, and skittle vodka isn't that much better. I prefer it straight up, with a good chaser. Fresh air is wonderful. I'm supposed to keep my window shut in my apartment, but fuck that. MY bed is right next to my window, and I keep it open plenty, including now. I hate my room getting stuffy, Lord knows I get stuffy enough myself. Do you think I could survive a three story fall? I kinda want to jump out my window. And don't worry, I'm not going to, I'm not THAT drunk, I just think it'll be fun...until I hit the ground at least. I have to say, I think I type rather well for a drunk man. I feel like I have a certain flow to me while drunk, of course that could just be because I'm drunk. If any of you ever find a Red 40 CD, BUY IT. I will purchase it from you. Seriously, I have to find this CD at some point in my life, I promised. I'm so tired of normal life, I crave adventure. And I don't mean hiking or some stupid shit like that that people call adventure, I mean adventure! An epic journey, through perilous challenges, and battles to the death, all towards the acquirement of some great goal. I don't even care what that goal is. Fame, fortune, glory, power, I don't care about any of these, I just want the thrill of adventure!!!! Life is so god damn boring! Fiction is so much better. That's why I've spent my life in shows books and games, because that's the only adventure I can get, even if it's by proxy. I often think of walking. I don't mean a walk around the block. I mean choosing a direction, start walking in it, and keep walking until I end up somewhere. Just traveling, with nothing but what I can carry. Meeting people, seeing great sights, surviving off my own wit, probably the closest thing I can possibly get to actual adventure in this boring existence. But I don't want to do it alone, I want someone by my side. I have a knight in shining armor complex, at least that's what I've always called it. I want to save someone, a damsel in distress. I want to care for them, and make them free of worry. I'm not thinking any of this because I'm drunk, I'm only saying it because I'm drunk. What is this, my third journal tonight? I want to open a geek bar. Better yet, I want to become a youtube star, and support myself by making stupid videos for the internet. Better yet, I want to be a space cowboy. Get a ship, get a crew, keep flying. Take whatever jobs I can. I pray for the day aliens come and let us join their interstellar society, only chance I have of ever obtaining my true dream job. No way human society will develop advance enough space travel in our life time. I need to watch what I eat better, I know I take in to much sugar and salt. But everything cheap that's good uses a bunch of sugar and/or salt. I like salt. Sometimes I'll just eat straight salt, or sugar. Not a lot mind you, but some. I'm a little worried I'm gonna get diebeties. You get diebeties from eating to much sugar right? I like just writing down my stream of consciousnesses. I used to do it occasionally in my notebook, but typing it is much faster, and a lot easier to keep up with my mind. I've wrote a lot in that notebook, a lot that I hope never sees the light of day. Luckily I wrote it in aurebesh, so most people won't even be able to read it. Fuck it, I don't really care if people see what's in there or not. I've always loved Sam, but for a while there I did have a crush on another girl. I didn't love her, I've only ever truly loved Sam, it was just a crush. Abbi. Cute little girl, good friend of mine back in Georgia. I miss her...I never told anyone that, might regret posting that in the morning, but for now I don't care...Wait a minute, now that I think about it I might have sent her a text a couple weeks ago while I was drunk telling her that. Not sure though...Did any of you actually read all of this? I probably would have lost interest long ago. Don't mind me, just writing what I'm thinkin'. Don't much care if anyone ever reads this. This place is great. I can honestly say I wouldn't be where I am today if it wasn't for this website. I love you guys, and I want to hang out with all of you in person. We should meet up sometime, share a drink maybe. First rounds on me.
      TL/DR: I'm drunk, you didn't miss anything.

    • 6 years ago

      screenaholic

      Alright, so I think I want to cut my hair and dye it white. Combined with my trench coat and fedora, it'll look bad ass...Oh yeah, also I decided school isn't for me. I'm dropping out of college. Not really sure what I want to do with my life anymore. For now I'm just gonna get a job and think things through...I guess that's important too.

    • If You Read This

      6 years ago

      screenaholic

      Remember the promises I made you.
      I will never forget you.
      I will always care for you.
      If you ever tell me you wish I was dead, I will hand you a knife and let you stab into my heart.
      No matter what happens, and no matter how much time passes, if you ever are in need of help just come find me. I will help however I can.
      I keep my promises, especially those made to you.
      If you still watch my journals then on some level you must still care what I have to say. And if you don't care...then I guess you won't be reading this anyway.

    • God Mother Fucking Damn It!

      6 years ago

      screenaholic

      Why the fuck can't I stop loving Sam?! I really thought I had, but the other day I was returning the last two things she had given me (I forgot about them before), and it was so hard. Knowing that I was giving up the last things I had of her ripped my fucking heart out. For fuck's sake I spent about a week seriously considering taking a blood oath (and by that I mean slashing my hand open to draw blood) to serve and protect her at all costs until the day I die. Not even to make her love me, just because I want to protect her, even if she dates other people. I would have done it to. The only reason I didn't is because she wouldn't have let me go to her to make the oath. I don't want to love her anymore, I really don't, but I can't fucking stop. It's been a month and I still want to be with her. Maybe if I had some sort of closure with her it would help, but she won't even give me that. Every time I'm not occupying my mind with a game, or some stupid online video, I can't stop thinking of her....I really feel like I'm going crazy...

    • 7 years ago

      screenaholic

      ME AND CAMMY ARE DRUNK!

    • 7 years ago

      screenaholic

      Anyone else not sleep one bit last night? No? Just me? Fuck, my sleep schedule is...what am I talking about, I have no fucking sleep schedule...Oh yeah, and me and Cammy are planning on making some Let's Plays today. Upload might be a little slow since my internet is shit, but I'll let you know when I get it up.

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