suicidesmile

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from the place you C when you close your eyes

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    • my good friend the sun

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      :D *wakes up and throws off covers as a happy tune plays*

      Take a peek out my window, its a rainy day!

      I like making songs out things i say :D * takes off clothes to change*

      Gotta keep a' studying for my dirvers test *goes out door*

      =>_<= *runs back in* ooops I almost exposed my breast!

      *all dressed walking down hall*

      :D I just stole this idea from various cartoons- :o ....umm....uhh... <_<...I'm gonna...slap... baboons?*slips down stairs* ah oh oooh! X_X i'm dead oh ahhhh! oooh!



      :o and thats how my morning went. don't you just hate it when I describe my daily events blow completely out of proportion in a script form with little stars to show you whats happening?...well you don't always get what you want. anyway the point is, you might have noticed I've been pretty busy so I really don't hve much time to log on lately- :o.... <:o....o-oh...you didn't?.... <_< well i have been!



    • you might be a loser when...

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      me- :o well you see, I just don't know what to do...I mean shiki is nice and all but Rin..He makes me laugh- we just finish one anothers sentences you know?

      mom-umm....yeah..?

      me- but now that Rin and i have infiltriated the base..I..I fear my bond with him may have endangered us both! but how could I have left him behind? Rin and I have gottne so close! you could even say I love him..... :o but feelings aside i know it would never work- Shiki is last on the list and with Rin at myside all I can worry about is his life! HIS LIFE is IN MY HANDS!-

      ask him to prom :D?

      me- - Rin's not real you fool! hahahahha! XD oh mom! its JUST a video game!



      Silly parents!
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    • The holidays

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      My gosh what is with the news? I know no news is good news but my gosh! everywhere I look its either the assassination, the tiger attack (which...come on, somthign obviously provoked her, shes a WILD animal not a pet) or the thriteen year old who killed herself because three girls were bullying her on myspace.

      thirteen. for gods sake, life is hard enough without people telling you the world would be a better place without you in it. life can be cruel and tough, especially for young girls already. Belive me. I am one.

      i'm not saying it isn't hard being a young guy because i'm sure it is, but honestly girls in the public eye are reveared for just one thing. being pretty, guys can be recognized for being smart, or funny or strong. but not girls.

      if your a girl i gaurentee you one thing, when you get a compliment it will be about your looks. you'll always be told that your cute or pretty ( when you look back right now, be honest aren't those the only compliments you can remember getting?)- you will most likely never be told your nice, or kind, smart, strong or anything else, - you'll never get an award for being the one with the sweetest heart, or the best intellect or understandng.

      you could get a tiarra for having a nice face though. And even then people will tell you to stop aging before you loose that.

      And girls can be mean. I remember somoene once told me "no matter where you work, or where you live, or where you go the world is divided between winners and losers"
      then why do some have to be the losers?

      I hate to stand on a soap box but wake up and smell the coffee people!

      I still remember when i was in grade school, i don't know when exactly...maybe the first grade- it could have even been kindergarden, but I said somthing that made somoene cry and I remember thinking "gosh, I'm capable or hurting someone." and what a horriblel feeling that was to realize that, that's always been me. I can be mean without knowing it- Ever since then I've always made a note to treat people the way I would want to ( as my mom says) I don't use the whole lable hater thing, some people do, I have two friends on the cheer leading squad ( and four in dance) and I have a few who just happen to love video games. - yeah I like hot topic, I wear skirts and tight jeans form the eletric chair, but guess what I got a few great girlfriends who swear by amber crombie. I can be caught saying "like" but you'll also hear me speaking japanese or getting an A+ in english Cp- the point is, I don't think people is divided between winners and losers.

      I think its the ones who judge and the ones who don't.

      Just try to be nice to people. You never know how one little comment could effect them, Don't take yourself to seriously, don't say your the best- don't say your the worst either, just say your you and if you can't laugh at yoruself you have no right to laugh at anyone else. So come on this holiday season dare to be just a little nice, even if its to that one annoying person in your life.

    • OW my rar!

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      ok so only a few will force out a laugh at the title-...a few being Aaron and that's it. XD

      sorry i've been so scarce you guys- between the flu, driving school till 8:30 at night and trying to raise this math grade that's been wieghing me down, the only time I have to myself is when i'm in the bathroom @_@ Christmas is coming up, yeah?

      well during vaction I'm sure I'll be a little more cheery.

      I don't knwo what it is about triple A school, the cold room, the being seated like soldeirs next to people who act like it was that or jail time,but i'm pretty sure its all the time I have to put in that makes me really grumpy to be there.

      Coooool skiiies white clouds clean aa-air! mountain roads are so unfair- the concete is bare.....andevenifyouranwithallyourmighttheresnowayyou'dcatchuptoacar ...doo-da...-.-

      but this is no time for happy melodies! @_@ ugh...i'm not sure what's gonna do me in first disease or exahaustion.

    • cat asses

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      me- *walks into math and slams head down on the desk* -.- this is awful...i can't belive I woke up late again!...o_o...*face suddenly gets pushed against the desk harder as someone pushes their chest against my back in what they would call an endeering embrace* )'_X mufh!....bo bang...

      him- Hi taylor! :D smiley12.gif

      * and there he is again..what was once a crush and is now a constant companion has physically hurt me in an attempt to show affection

      me- bow! )>_X *struggles to lift head as i feel his breath on the back of my neck and his weight on me*

      Him- oooh.... ;o my back huuurts! smiley12.gif I slept on it wrong! *leans on me so far that from far away it would be hard to tell if he was murdering me OR if we were havign sex.*

      * I say "once" because he used to be the gorgeous asian guy I stared at ...then I met him and found out...hes extremely metro, loves to keep me up till the wee hours of the night on the phone chatting, enjoys to crush my ribs and torture me, can be a real snot >_< and is a total himbo! well you get the point..and its really not that I mind. TT_TT my crush on him was just brutally slaughtered. though...I am glad I met him- he may be a snot every now and again but hes...

      me- oh @_@....*recovering*...be gentle with me my right arm is a little sore,

      him- :O this one! *pokes so hard that if my vein had a face if would scream*

      me- O_O YOWWWW!

      him- :o oh no that's your drawing arm.. ;D do you like my jeans!?

      me- ohh! TT_TT... O_O *he sticks his groin right in my face* -.-...their nice

      him- :O do you really like them look!

      me- -.- genes or jeans? yes their very cute n_n..//^

      Him- :D what kind do you think they are? guess! *gets closer*

      n_n//^ just my normal day at school...

      home:

      me: -.- god i'm tired- O_O...... O,O ....*watches in horror as Kenny my cat wipes his butt across the carpet, all the while meowing hapliy in greeting* NOOOOOOO!

      *quickly I grabbed him and usign the sink focet squirt his butt *

      mom- ah! wait till its warm!

      [lmao ew I know]



      but you know cat's asses and all I can't help but think of how thankful I am for the life I lead.



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    • a haha a hoho and a tee hee aswell

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      I've been wanting to make one of these forever and now that i'm home sick I finally can apply myself! There's all sort of people you meet on sites like these but most are the ones you would perfer not too..so I made a list of just a few that are the most common, most annoying, some even may beyou or me, but either way..chances are you've met a few.

      The threat maker-
      Ex. YOU BITCH! YOU BITCH! I'M GONNA KILL YOU! I'm GONNA FIND YOU AND KILL YOU!...where did she say she lived?

      the creepy comlimenter
      Ex.
      user1- hi :)

      user2- hello what's up?

      user1- i bet your GREAT in bed- I like anime too.

      ......

      the akward one
      Ex. my boyfriend likes you :)

      the fact she added a smiley makes it so much weirder....



      the hopelessly lonely one
      the one who sends you a message labeled "hi" and then you come back ten minutes later to find six more and one labeled "are you mad at me?"

      the moderator's pet
      ex. TAKE THAT DOWN! your gonna get banned! TAKE IT DOWN! take it down before you get banned! I'm soooooo telling a mod about this!

      look. you were the kid no one liked in grade school, chances are your the kid no one likes in highschool.

      the socio user
      the one who no matter what subject matter your conversation is about- assumes it involves them...right now they've probably read three of these examples and assumed I was making a shot at them.

      ex. omg! did you SEE pimp1360's journal about girls who have bad taste in clothing?! wtf! why doesn't he just come to my face and try to start somthing!?

      the "ugly" one
      these are mostly girls...
      the ones who put up self pictures with captions putting themselves down so that people will tell her its not true. mostly "i'm fat
      " or "i'm soo ugly"...girls get some back bone please- do you really need some guy in jabuti to think your hot in order to have some pride?

      the "you know you want me"
      also usually girls, who put up pictures of themselves saying things like "ooh you know you want me"
      if you have to say it...no one does.

      the unsuspecting
      ex.hey want to see a picture of me!

      -er..sure I guess what do you look like?

      well i'm blonde and blue eyed and I have big lips!

      - umm ok lets see

      (they forgot to leave out the fact they have horrible acne and and weigh over 400 pounds)

      -O_O oh..your so....umm..- wow is that wrestling your watching on tv?

      The karma monger
      don't take it so seriously guys XD


      the weekly person
      the one who's page you visit and see a banner labeled something like
      "jon and Lisa forever!" and an about page procaliming their love for someone.
      then the next week the names are changed.

      the fictional possessive lover
      ex. NO! SANJI IS MINE! he is my man!

      this is why you can never get a real one- you drive even the fake ones away.


      the wrong writer
      ex. THAT IS NOT HOW DEATH NOTE ENDS! how dare you say they all live happily ever after! the do NOT! I have the website to PROVE it!



      the zen
      they can anser any question with either one word of just one letter.

      the one upper

      ex.
      halolvr123- you guys I have some bad news i'm pretty sick and I don't know if I can log on in awhile...

      sassiecassie2- omg your sick? I have the fluu its soo bad- I might even have to go to the hostpital!

      halolvr123- *next journal* guys..its cancer ..i'm dying

      sassiecassie2- YOUR dying?! i'm already dead!



      the demand maker/ the hinter
      the one who comments on your page saying "i got a new image" or "I got a new journal"
      .....40 times


      the whiner
      ex. So THEN she was like "ok" what the fuck does that mean?! isn't she awful to me?! what do you think?!

      -..well I've never actually met her- but shes a horrible bitch and I hope she dies...happy?

      the whistle blower
      ex>YOU STOLE MY IMAGE!


      ..yes people are that self centered that when you have a picture of zelda they assuem theres was the only one floating in the limited internet space.

      i can understand if you spent many a night physically creating the pic but if you found it on google...don't whine about other people having it.

      the one who took a crap on grammer's head
      ex. tit s aslong ass i kno

      translation: "it is as long as I know"



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      there are many many more but i have better things to do then list them ALL- hey if you can't laugh at yourself you have no right to laugh at anyone else right?

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    • ACCEPTED

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      They accepted me! my first try at appliing and I've been accepted!

      I'm so happy! starting July of this year I'll be a student at the Art institute of the OC O_O this is great! its one of the very best california art schools!


      >_< most people get turned down and have to re-apply but they thought I was "exceptional!" OHOHOHOHOHOH XD I can't belive it *screams into pillow]

      by next year I'll have to hold my own against all those spoiled rich kids!

      I'm so proud....so happy
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    • not the gumdrop button!

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      yes yes...I posted this pn many of your pages ...why you ask? I found it strange...very..and you MUST share things you find strange when your life is as strange as mine.
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      ew kisses. I spake of the ryukX Light kiss of course [If I haven't thrown it in your face yet...your not missing much. unless you like that sort of thing...and if you do well..aren't you special]

      umm..but the real reason for this journal is XD, i was wondering if anyone was interested in buying a "dollfie" from me...O_O I mena i'm not sure yet..but if the price is right.... hes very customized..and envy dollfie- I'd really hate to part with it ..I put a lot of work into him and hes till..not complete [will be soon] but I'll have a pic up soon if your interested

      [ TT_TT oooh! I worked so hard on him but I need any money I can get for college! hes a work of art really and i'd hate to but after all the scholar ships I filled out today what's one other piece of my heart?!]

    • Wtf is shaking?

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      XD ..I had the most random dream..I forgot nearly all of it but it had somthign to do with an Gaming expo and some live action movie [with BAD casting XD] based on an anime where hallie berry was screaming 'THE SHAKIN'! THE SHAKING! I CAN'T BE TAKEN' THE SHAKIN'!"

      I swear don't you wonder where some of those things come from...? I only wish I could remember more so I knew wtf she was talking about XD

    • he, she, me, wombo

      11 years ago

      suicidesmile

      the ever famous anime explanation



      me- -.- *sitting watching berserk*

      mom- that guy looks like a girl

      me- -.-...mom that IS a girl

      mom- wel then she looks like a guy.

      me- a guy that looks like a girl?

      mom- shes a girl who looks like a guy who looks like a girl.

      me- no shes just a girl and shes-

      mom- THAT's a girl.*points to other character*

      me- -.- mom no..we've been through this...remember fruits basket?

      mom- is that a girl or not? *plays with kenny [cat]*

      me- no hes a man! >_<

      mom- hes a man who looks like a girl?

      me- no hes just a man >_<

      mom- so their both men-

      me- O_O NO! shes a woman and hes a man!

      mom- so hes *points*

      me- THATS A WOMAN! O_O *eyes buldging and blood shot*

      mom- you just said she was the guy-

      me- MOM NO! >_< HES A MAN! AND SHES A WOMAN!

      mom- gosh calm down... *stands in door way and watches behind my back*

      me- O_O....*pant pant*..... :o..... :0 :)

      mom-......so that's her son?

      me- O_O......UUURAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH! >_<

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      XY chromosomes!

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      XX chromosomes!

  • About Me

  • Comments (13199)

    • Arietta

      7 years ago

      Queen of the Shit Tier Attention Whores of Rooster Teeth's Past.

    • vince_duos

      8 years ago

      just stopping by for some nostolgia............................................ the feeling has passed

    • boros

      8 years ago

      I miss you tama :l

    • EVApilot_011 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Fanservice

      9 years ago

      *poke*

    • EVApilot_011 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Fanservice

      10 years ago

      *Nudge*

    • bluteam

      10 years ago

      Come back!

    • EVApilot_011 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Fanservice

      10 years ago

      Tamaaaa! Where are you? *tear*

    • Katerater Why Am I Here?

      10 years ago

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      Merry Xmas

    • Datchet

      10 years ago

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    • demoneye01

      10 years ago

      hey remeber me

    • Lorkhan

      10 years ago

      You still need to accept my friend request Tama!!! TT_TT

    • Junkie_XXX

      10 years ago

      You are missed, Tama. Hope everything is going well.

    • inuyasha8794

      10 years ago

      LOL TROLLED OFF THE SITE

    • cherch

      10 years ago

      lets just say shees away cause a power hungry user on here wont stop herasing her.
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    • bluteam

      10 years ago

      Where are you!? T_T

    • laeria

      11 years ago

      Why aren't you ooooonnnn!!! *tear and hopes nothing bad happened* T____T

    • laeria

      11 years ago

      why did you leave us? ='(

      Actually I'm pretty sure you probably told us why... but I've forgotten... tell us again? XD

    • FemWolfLynn

      11 years ago

      wow, there not much left here huh?


      Everyone is gone.

    • demoneye0

      11 years ago

      fair well my friend

    • Kya17

      11 years ago

      this is taylor?

    • dante09

      11 years ago

      hay what up!

    • HaloCYRUS117

      11 years ago

      tama not going to sign on for a while
      she has things to do
      but she says she loves u all

    • Kaze_Sakaku1

      11 years ago

      GOSH DAMMIT, TAY!! SIGN ON!!

    • fairbias

      11 years ago

      Tama you still need to add me! T_T

    • HaloCYRUS117

      11 years ago

      have fun in england taylor
      even tho u probily wont look at your profile there

    • shikamaru00

      11 years ago

      I missy you Tama

    • _blackrose

      11 years ago

      i miss yew!

    • enl33tment

      11 years ago

      i missy tama

    • bluteam

      11 years ago

      where are you!? TT_TT

    • Junkie_XXX

      11 years ago

      Tama, when are you going to sign on again? I miss your wacky and entertaining journals.

    • HaloCYRUS117

      11 years ago

      well when u do come back online i need to tell u some thing

    • Shadow_Skarr

      11 years ago

      how are you?

    • fairbias

      11 years ago

      Uh hi. You probably don't remember me, but I was a member and a friend of your here a years or so ago. I went by Garyuu. It would be cool if you accepted my request. Thanks.

    • stinky5_0

      11 years ago

      Care to readest thou my new journal?

    • InsaneChurch

      11 years ago

      Marry me~ smiley12.gif

    • FemWolfLynn

      11 years ago


      in reply to :MrVernedead

      "whats with her title?" CAN'T YOU SEE THAT SHE IS A FUNKY LADY?


      *sigh* amatures, nothing but amatures. Hehe, how are you chibi-san?






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    • stinky5_0

      11 years ago

      Watch this

    • HaloCYRUS117

      11 years ago

      Hey tama what up

    • MrVernedead

      11 years ago

      so, if you don't mind me asking, what's whith the "Funky Lady" title?

    • Katerater Why Am I Here?

      11 years ago

      Yeee it is very trivial, lookin back, but I remember many of my friends, making it their whole world, and it sad that they would die, when they are the better half of the population

    • Katerater Why Am I Here?

      11 years ago

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    • misamisa07

      11 years ago

      smile.png how are you?

    • Sora523

      11 years ago

      are you there?

    • misamisa07

      11 years ago

      hi ^_^

    • I_AM_L

      11 years ago

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    • Katerater Why Am I Here?

      11 years ago

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    • HaloCYRUS117

      11 years ago

      merry christmas tama and a happy new year

    • I_AM_L

      11 years ago

      well lynn left

    • I_AM_L

      11 years ago

      Where has my Tama gone?

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