teenagezombi

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    • living in the shadow

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      and she's so pretty and she's so sure
      maybe i'm more clever than a girl like her

      so the depression has gotten worst over the last few weeks... i've been in school for a full day maybe 2 times in the past 3 weeks... life seems to be spiraling out of control, and to top it all off, no one can fucking help. my mother, father, julie, alex, andrew, becky, adam, and joey have no idea how to help me and can't. it's so hard to maintain my facade for everyone when the stress is getting to me. i'm losing friends, failing classes, and am unable to do anything about it. i try so hard to keep my life from crumbling, but every failed attempt drives me deeper into drepression. i don't even know what to do anymore. sometimes i wonder what it would be like had the two most important people in my life hadn't left me here to rot. neither one of them am i able to contact...
      can't anyone save me? i tried submersing myself in art, making myself work more and more doing more difficult things, but the stress was too overwhelming and i ended up just winging the project the rest of the way.

      has anyone ever felt like they had no control over their life? if so, perhaps you can help, what the hell can i do without screwing my family over like i did last time this happened?

    • i really do want this kind of guy

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

      When she walksaway from you mad===[ Follow her]

      When she stare's at your lips===[ Kiss her ]

      When she pushes you or hit's you===[ Grab her and don’t let go ]

      When she start's cursing at you===[ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

      When she's quiet===[ Ask her what’s wrong]

      When she ignore's you===[ Give her your attention ]

      When she pulls away==[ Pull her back ]

      When you see her at her worst===[ Tell her she's beautiful ]

      When you see her start crying==[Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

      When you see her walking==[ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

      When she's scared===[ Protect her ]

      When she lay's her head on your shoulder===[ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

      When she steal's your favorite hat==[ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

      When she tease's you===[ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

      When she doesn’t answer for a long time===[ reassure her that everything is okay ]

      When she looks at you with doubt==[ Back yourself up with the TRUTH ]

      When she say's that she loves you==[ she really does more than you could understand ]

      When she grab's at your hands===[ Hold her's and play with her fingers ]

      When she bump's into you===[ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

      When she tells you a secret===[ keep it safe and untold ]

      When she looks at you in your eyes===[ don’t look away until she does ]

      WHEN SHE MISSES YOU===[ SHES HURTING INSIDE]

      When you break her heart===[ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

      When she says its over===[ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

      When she repost this bulletin===[ she wants you to read it ]

      - Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

      -DON'T let her have the last word

      -always call her when u know somethings wrong

      -Pretty and beautifull is soo much better...NOT HOT

      - Say you love her more than she could ever love you

      - Argue that she is the best girl ever

      - When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

      - When she says she's ok don’t believe it, talk with her

      - because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

      - Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

      - Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

      - Treat her like she's ALL that matters to you

      - Tease her and let her tease you back

      -Stay up all night with her when she's sick

      - Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

      - Give her the world

      - LET HER WEAR YOUR CLOTHES

      - When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

      - Let her know she's important

      - Kiss her in the pouring rain

      - When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

    • SINGLE

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

      la-dee-da-daa-da-dee single life is for me :]
      no picture cause i'm in school

      So, after a week of being sick, and a month of getting treated like shit, Logan and I broke up. I really could care less, there are plenty of other fishes in the sea. Besides, that boy's not good enough for me! :D haha, He's also, like, super immature and embarassing to be around. So do I really care that I am no longer with that leper? NO! haha, I found a better guy anyways, his name is Billy. Billy is such a cutie, and he's so sweet. Like, so much more than Logan. He made me smile last night when I was sad, and we're hanging out this weekend! I'm kind of torn, though, there's this really cute girl named Krystal that I like flirting with, and an amazing boy named JD that I absolutely adore. However, he's 23... :[ I have to wait two more years until I can do anything with him... Maybe you guys remember Drew, I talked about him alot two years ago? Well, he's my first love and he's coming back to Godwin! YAY! Ahm, that's all I have to say.

      I don't want a relationship, though. I just want to date. :] Dating is fun, and you can do it with multiple people.
      Haha, stupid Logan doesn't understand that. Guess what! He has the nerve to tell me he still loves me! What a loon!
      He's so full of shit, he doesn't even realize it. xD

    • what's up with these double standards

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      so you can flirt but i can't?

      dude, what is up with that shit
      just cause you're a guy
      and you are supposedly in "high demand" you can flirt
      but when i go to a party i can't do shit
      cause i'm with you
      and then you fucking deny it
      you know what
      fuck that shit

    • jump off a bridge

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

      cause luke told me to

      1. Take a picture of yourself right now.
      2. Don't change your clothes, don't fix your hair, just take a picture of you in the moment... that means now or at least immediately following the closing of this journal entry.
      3. Post that picture with absolutely NO editing.
      4. Post these exact instructions with your picture should you choose to take part in this particular photo journal "trend"... seriously, get to it; no excuses. Let's have fun with this.


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    • a few things ALL guys should know

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

      1) For all we talk about how hot guys are. We mostly care about there personality. Though a hot body is a plus
      2) We are just as shy as you are about relationships
      3) Many of us don't let you see us cry, unless we want you to comfort us
      4) We like dropping small flirts, to see if you are interested. But we will later deny it or make it into a joke
      5) Most of us prefer to be call beautiful than hot or sexy. But not all of us
      6) We only wear mini skirts, tank tops and skimpy cloths for you (unless it's REALLY REALLY hot outside). So if you don't like what we wear say something likely look really nice today, but you know...I think I like you in jeans better'
      7) We travel in groups for one of two reasons 1) because we want to share some form of gossip with each other or get advice on something 2) B/c we don't want to get caught by ourselves with you because we won't know what to say and are afraid we'll make a fool of ourselves
      8) MOST girls spend about 15% of the time thinking about specific guys, 20% thinking of guys in general, 25% thinking of how to get guys to notice us and what to say when we do, 30% of the time TALKING about guys (even if someone else isn't listening), and 10% of the time doing something else
      9) Girls automatically assume that all guys are assholes and only want to get into our pants until you prove otherwise (and even then some small part of us still thinks that)
      10) Most girls are under the impression that guys only want skinny 'hot' girls
      11) Most girls enjoy being paraded around once in awhile in front of your friends. We enjoy having you show us off to your friends, kind of like, 'Hey, look at my hot ass girlfriend! Aren't you jealous?" But we don't enjoy being nothing but a trophy girl
      12) Nicknames like "Babe, or darling" are safe to call just about any girl. But beware of "Princess or Angel". Some girls will take offense to this thinking you are calling them to innocent or incapable of taking care of themselves.
      13) Speaking of nicknames, almost every girl has ONE nickname that they just love to be called
      14) Most girls will drop lots of hints to tell you that they like you, but won't come right out and say" I like you" or "I love you". If you think they like you, there is a good chance they do.
      15) Scenario time! -You like a girl named Ashley, Ashley has a friend named Brenda. Brenda comes up you in the hall and asks "Do you like Ashley?"
      More often than not in this scenario Ashley asked Brenda to ask you because she is to shy to ask you herself. And even if she didn't the first thing Brenda is going to do with your answer is tell Ashley. Now you are thinking "WHAT!? NO!! DON"T TELL HER THAT!!!" but in reality, this is a good thing. Because there is a good chance she already likes you. And if she doesn't, she will now be looking at you in a different way, and let me tell you. It's a lot easier to fall for a guy if you already know they like you. So its safe. So go ahead and tell Brenda that you like Ashley. Take a chance.
      16) Girls hate it when guys say perverted things.
      17) Girls love to feel special, even though they might not show it
      18) Girls talk about everything with their girl friends. So unless you tell us not to tell them about something, they WILL know about it within 3 days. And if you are the girl's boyfriend, that means, you're possibly 90% of their conversation. And believe me, trash talking takes up most of it, unless you're a Greek god, which you're not...
      19) Girls hate guys with bad hygiene.
      20) Girls love it when a guy pulls them close by the waist
      21) Most girls like a guy that will willing dance with them, even if he doesn't know how
      22) Usually, when a girl is sarcastically mean to you, it means they're attracted to you, but are afraid that they'll be showing too much
      23) A kiss on the hand with the right timing can be a REAL TURN-ON
      24) Some girls can think about their crushes for 18+ hours straight. No exaggeration
      25) When a guy says something really sentimental, girls will remember it forever
      26) Girls get embarrassed easily, even if guys don't know what the hell just happened.
      27) Girls daydream about their crushes ALL the time. They just don't show it.
      28) When a girl is upset and wants you to listen, she wants you to listen. She doesn't need you to fix it or tell her how to. She just wants you to listen.
      29) When a girl is crying, she feels a lot safer if you pull her close and tell her that everything is going to be all right. And more likely than not, it will endear them to you more than anything else.
      30) Girls love it when guys say their name
      31) Girls love confidence
      32) When a girl cooks for you, you know you mean a lot to her
      33) Girls hate it when other girls flirt. Yet they flirt themselves too. Ah, the beauty of irony
      34) We don't enjoy talking dirty to you as much as you enjoy listening.
      35) Saying something sweet might get you off the hook; doing something sweet will always get you off the hook.
      36) Size does matter, but only to hoes; not girls that want relationships.
      37) No matter what you say, your ex-girlfriend is a hoe to us. Not because we don't like your taste in women, because believe me WE do! its just that...we don't want to have to wonder if she is better than us. And if she is a hoe, we are better. So it makes things simple for us.
      38) We are self-conscious by nature; we can't help it. But we CAN try and hide it.
      39) Even if you think it is cool to burp, fart, or emit other strange gases from your body, it is not. Though we sometimes will tell you it is.
      40) As far as you are concerned, we are beautiful at all times, and don't tell us different, unless you make it sound like a compliment (even if it isn't) Like, "You were really pretty yesterday when you wore -insert clothing/accessory here-, I think you should wear that more often"

    • and she H A T E S me

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      sweetie, if your going to be two-faced;
      at least make one of them pretty.


      So, there's this chick named Lindsey is basically spreading shit about my friend. Mind you these aren't too bad, just her saying that she's his girlfriend, and saying their going to homecoming, which is bullshit cause I'm going with him. She's really quite intresting, the majority of her "boyfriends" are either a crush of mine, a boyfriend of mine, a friend of mine, or a famous person. Now, my best friend told her upfront to leave him the hell alone, and she didn't, so she apparently doesn't know what NO means. That friend currently avoids her as much as possible and pointed out the glare she gave me in the hallway. Unfortunately for her, she planned to have me in a fit all day because, guess what, she doesn't like me. Well la-dee-fucking-da!

      Well, we all know ellie doesn't like letting things alone, so I confronted her at lunch. You wanna know her reason? It was because the boy had asked me, not her, and she had asked him and he said no. I don't think he knows how to turn her down, so I guess I'll have to wait for her to shut up about the two of them until I get with him. I know it will happen soon, unless Lindsey keeps getting in the way, making it akward. It seems no matter when I see him, she always lurking, not getting to class on time, just standing there, with that face i love of hers.

      Now, I know what you guys are wondering, what does my little quote up there have to do with what I've written about. Well, she is exactly what I have claimed her to be, a two-face. I know the real reason she glares at me, and I see the hatred in her eyes. Yet infront of the boy, she acts as if we're friends still. She occasionally pulls the pity card, making me feel like shit, and him feel like he is to blame. Perhaps he is just too good of a person to tell her to get over it, I dunno.

    • L O V E and other D I S A S T E R S

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      &&he finally asked

      Ever since the day I met him, I knew he was special. His smile brightened my day, while the moments I was without him seemed dull in comparrison to every amazing moment we shared together. Though we only saw one another in Guidance, he an aide, I a very troubled student in need of help with my schedule, I found him easy to talk to. I never thought he would ask, I was so shocked when he did. It was indirect, but when I questioned him he confirmed his intentions. What could I say, that boy made each day special. Each hug he gave me he pulled me closer, it was hard to let go and leave when my time in the waiting room was over. So, I 'm going to homecoming with the boy my friend's all admire, I feel like a princess already.

      But the problem is, I asked Alan, so of course I said yes. I mean, I didn't think of us as more than friends. Friends with Benifets. Is that so bad? I guess it is, becuase I don't know how to tell him I'm going with another guy. I know that if we got in a huge fight, or he decided to hate me, it would split my friendship with Becky.

      HELP
      what do i do?

    • all i need is your LOVE and a revolution

      10 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      Hey babies, the hair has been cut. So where does that leave me, hopefully not attrocious.
      I have recently aqcuired the best pets on earth, rats!
      Wewt, a little grey baby and an albino with a grey nose.
      Their names? Mondillo (or MongoJerry) and Fetus.
      They brighten my day when I walk into my room and see their little pink hands grasping the cage and their noses sniffing curiously
      I'd show you a pic, but they are kind of afraid of cameras. Go figure.

      The summer has been great, I got a tan, lost it, joined the marching band, fell in love and had a panic attack. However unrequieted the love is, I know one day it will be returned.
      The panic attacks were kinda scary, I thought I was dying, like seriously. My lungs refused to work for some strange reason.
      They thought it was an allergic reaction so they gave me benedril, almost fucking killed me.
      Damn Ashlee, this is all her fault.

      But on a sadder note, my best friend Drew is moving to Canada, which is too far away. Midlothian I can handle, Raleigh I can handle, but fucking Canada! That's ten miles away. No matter how much I plead he still says no.. Oh well, nothing I can do about it but hope he decides not to leave me...

      BLAH! nothing intresting
      LOVE
      ellie

    • unconventionally conventional

      11 years ago

      teenagezombi

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      from a place so L O V E L Y

      hey there lovers and fighters it's been a while since we talked, or i ranted in the journal.
      so how have you been? i've been lovely, i found love and lost it all in a four day period and am currently quitting love. it's a pointless emotion why should i feel it. ahm, i haven't lost the weight i was hoping to lose, but i am more healthy. i cut out soda and i cut out junky foods, and am currently living off of frosted flakes and powerade. both come in blue boxes or bottles. apparently blue is supposed to decrease your appetite or someting, i don't know...

      erm, about the love, there was this girl, but... i dont wanna talk about it... i'm kinda pissed at chris, i mean i dont know why i just feel like hating him... am i bad person because of that? who cares, who knows... ah, i don't know what to say... RAWR!
      love you

  • Comments (4779)

    • themoon

      9 years ago

      jamelia_l@yahoo.com


      hopefully this mail will find you in a perfect state of mind and good condition of health.how are you today i hope that every things is ok with you as it is my pleasure to contact you after viewring your profile and see your personal definitions which i personally find interest on it.i decided to have communication with you ,if you will have the desire with me so that we can get to know each other better and see what will happened in future.i will be very happy if you can write me back (jamelia_l@yahoo.com)for easiest communication and to know all about each other, So that i can send you my PIC.me mail back i will be waiting to hear from you as i wish you all the best for your day.
      Thanks take care,Yours Truly Love

    • suicidegirl

      9 years ago

      I haven't been called that in soo long.
      Hey, I got a question for you.
      Is the past tense of "bullshit" "Bullshitted" or "bullshat"?

    • suicidegirl

      9 years ago

      ELLIE!!

    • TacticalPB87

      10 years ago

      hey

    • spartan638

      10 years ago

      :D

      This is Forward Becka.
      ...
      Now I'm guna smear bananas of my nipples.

    • Xcstar8

      10 years ago

      you know typical high school stuff trying not to fight someone the works lol how you been

    • Xcstar8

      10 years ago

      sup

    • teenagezombi

      10 years ago

      In reply to spartan638, #-1:

      what if i don't wanna watch it?

    • kinkyhacker

      10 years ago

      hey howd ur christmas go

    • laughingmanx

      10 years ago

      Well, I know that your not the only one who feels that way. My christmas break seems to be going slowly, yet I know that I have some stuff that I should work on. Ah... I feel like sleeping for the winter.

    • GunsNRoses For The Swarm

      10 years ago

      haha
      sounds fun

    • finalshadow

      10 years ago

      hum thanks for the image comment xD
      but i don't understand it T_T

    • finalshadow

      10 years ago

      lol ok xD

    • laughingmanx

      10 years ago

      It has been way too long since we have sparked a conversation. So What have you been up to?

    • GunsNRoses For The Swarm

      10 years ago

      youre welcome
      so we havnt talked in awhile what ya been up to?

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      hello

    • kinkyhacker

      10 years ago

      lol yep yay <333

    • finalshadow

      10 years ago

      yea i gess xD

    • 555666777

      10 years ago

      haha your welcome

    • 555666777

      10 years ago

      lol your to hot to get cold

    • xXJakFrostXx

      10 years ago

      awesome
      fun helps
      YAY FUN!!!!!!!!!!

    • xXJakFrostXx

      10 years ago

      but smilesare fun :)

    • xXJakFrostXx

      10 years ago

      cant complain
      havin fun

      y like shit?

    • xXJakFrostXx

      10 years ago

      we havent talked in a long time

      whats up?

    • metal_headz

      10 years ago

      what are u talking about

    • laughingmanx

      10 years ago

      Its good hearing from you too!
      It has been a while since we have had a conversation.
      I was curious what you have been doing all of these weeks that you have
      been off of rooster teeth?

    • metal_headz

      10 years ago

      new pics

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      ....

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      cool!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      that cool

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      ouch, hope you have fun!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      cool!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      yup! lol

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      hahaha, you look fine.

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      well, whatever rakes in the money I guess....

    • lilflash200

      10 years ago

      got it

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      okay then. you don't have to starve yourself to be 110 then.

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      would you rather die pretty? or live beautiful?

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      its unhealthy...

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      WHAT? I sure as hell ain't dating anybody as skinny as a fucking pole...

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      weight factor...wow. harsh dude...

    • metal_headz

      10 years ago

      u there

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      you're kidding right? I didn't know that there was a height factor involved.

    • GreenarmyCO

      10 years ago

      you're height? I know you're probably a junior but you look at least a sophmore.....

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      I'm good, and dont worry my memory is horrible too!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      cool

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      its cool you can, wish you had more time though!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      I see, if i have to do that i would be sol, cause i cant draw!

    • darklife

      10 years ago

      that bites, i'm good at writing, but i would need a topic.

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