"We've got these chains that hang around our necks / People want to strangle us with them before we take our first breath. / Afraid of change, afraid of staying the same, / When temptation calls, we just look away."
Excerpt from an email I'm currently writing to a friend.
Have you ever had one of those moments in life when you feel so incredibly detached from everything that makes up your world? Or when everything has become so.... stagnant. That people you used to talk to are so unchanging. Day after day is the same entire looping schedule that you've somehow found yourself trapped in. That nothing is worth remembering because it was just like yesterday and the day before.
Sometimes, I want to break free outside of this subtle jailhouse and explore life. Talk to strangers. Color the world. Be something different in other people's lives.
Other times, I'm just a mindless drone that carries on with life as if it is nothing special to begin with.
In a way, the sense of freedom I want to taste is dangled away from me with the fact that I'm too young. The fact that society has created this... system of which they must know your every action, your very location, your very identity. They instill a sense of real fear to bind you inside of your own tiny world. Rapers. Murderers. Armed lunatics who will bleed you until you die. Humans who are only human when they walk through our daily lives, unknown and anonymous to us.
What I have always wondered was if I was just one person out in the world, away from home and those that know me, what kind of people would I meet? What kind of stories would I hear? What kind of places would I stumble across? What would I witness? Experience?
But of course, no one would ever allow me that pleasure. Everyone is just simply afraid and so we confine ourselves and the people we love inside this incredibly bland jailhouse of a life.
Just thought I'd share.
Also, I was watching Waking Life earlier. It's actually very bland event-wise and the animation is kind of disorienting, though it is very fitting. It's mostly the dialogue that makes it. In other words, it's a very philosophical movie. Of which I'm going to blame as the reason all this thoughtfulness is being spawned at the moment.