theusedisme1

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from all i know is iam prob. going to hell^_^

  • Activity

    • heyyyy i hvent been here for ever

      9 years ago

      theusedisme1

      I MISSED U ALL SOOO MUCH I FOUND MY PASSWORD LOL

    • Mii Baby Boy aka Fili <3

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      ok, people, i know ive writen so much about this kid and i know you guys are prob getting tried of it. XD which will suck for you. cuz i will never stop talking about him. This kid, ok, well Fili <3 is the love of mii life. i could never ask for anything else and nothing would be better. no nohting could be better. he makes me the happiest ive ever been in mii life. we mght be going though hard times and some wonderful times but were always here for each other. I know hes here for me adn will do anything to make me happy (i know that from what has happend though the year that we've known each other) i'd never thought i'd find the one i want to be with for the rest of mii life but i found him. ive been w8ing mii hole life to know who "he" would be. now that i found him iam so greatfull and happy to still be living. without him i wouldnt be here without him i would have no one who cares. without him id be nothing. he cares about everythign i do. he wants the best for me and he tries his hardest to make me happy and give me what i want and even tho i might not get what i want it makes me happy that he tries so hard and thats all i could ask for. when i hear his voice mii heart malts when i hear him say i love u mii heart skips a breat. its so amazing ive never felt this way about him befor. i trust him more then i've ever trusted anyone i know he wouldnt hurt me. he means everything to me and i know i do to him to. i'd do anything to make him happy and proud. i'd take a bullet for this kid =D I couldnt live a day without talking to him and i couldnt love anymore else but his mexican butt (TEEHEE)you know baby that i cant live without you, and i need u. falling asleep everyday on the fone and waking up to his voice makes me cry i cry at night to be happy to have him. i dont know what i did to ever diserve him. hes mii angle and mii love. and now we are married and i just want to cry (happy tears) i cant beleive i have him he will have me frever and i will have him we were ment for each other and i never thought i had a reason to be her until i had him. i could never leave him and i could never love anyone at all not even mii famiyl the way mii love burns for him. i HATE how when you say "your in love" people say "you dont know what love is like your to young" why do people do that they dont know your feelng and they dont know you as well as he does or they dont know him as well as you do not even close. i know iam in love and people can say what the ywant it will never change the way i feel about him. never ever! he's mii love and mii soul he owns me mind and body. so say what u like we're togther forever. if u dont like it suck it! (TEEHEE)
      I <3 YOU, FILI BABY <3
      FOREVER ADN EVER AND EVER AND EVER
      MARRIED FOR LIFE THATS A PROMISE
      MUAH!!!!
      <3,
      BELLA aka MUFFIN

    • YAY!

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      i have good news iam very much in love if u guys havent noticed. teehee. but i love fili (sixx_am) hes the most amazing person i know and the only guy that i know that cares abotu me. he always makes me laugh and smile no matter how i feel. he knows the right thing to always say. and he always know if something is ever wrong. he always listens which i know alot of guys dont do. hes just all out amazing. (wish u had him to bad)! well something very great happend l8ly! can u guess??
      hehe
      iam married to him! yaay! =D he is the most amaing thing that has ever happend to me and i hope he stays. i always think about him not one second go's by that i dont think about him. i dont think id be here now without him he saved me from what i would have done.... life had no point with out him. but with him now i am so happy i notice what i would have lost. i would never be able u hurt him atall he means so much to me if ive ever hurt him its killed me. at times i think of all the mistakes and what ive done to hurt him. i want to take it all back! i wish i could go back in time and fix it all. i swear to miiself to never hurt him ever again to afrade to lose him.
      Now he's mii husband and i love him with all mii heart! so be jelous BITCHS!
      I LOVE YOU FIL!

    • hate!

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      ok people can eat an egg
      u all suck
      iam tired of people that lie and people that dont have the balls to tell me the truth
      and people that hurt me soo much and dont give a shit!
      so fuck u all iam out!

    • confused...0.o

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      life is so odd right now idk why there are some reasons i guess...iam still sick, i dont talk to mii friends anymore barly even atschool cuz ive been isolatingmiiself from everyone mostly, iam getting in fights at school with teachers, i got off the fone tonight at 9;30 and mom comes in yelling and screaming but never told me why she was acting like that just walked out and slamed the front door, i have alot of homework now i missed 6 days being sick and mii teacher yelled at me for it cuz shes prago.theres always stuff happening its moving so fast and i dont know how to move with it. iam getting mad at people for no reason and starting shit. i broke alot of stuff today cuz i was upset. i just confused about how to live mii life. iam getting tried of hurting others and dont think its worth it anymore. but apart of me does. you guys are prob thinking oh get the fuck over it we've all been though this. but u can go fuck it. iam tired of everyone talking about me and what i do behind mii back. and u can go eat it...i just am saying how i feel. we're moving again to a bigger house...which we will move from soon cuz mom wont have the money after a month or two...i found out mii mom has been lieing to me about smoking and she knows i used to but yet i stoped now she blows it in mii face to fuck me up even more.... she promised me it was her bf that smoked nope its her. i told her when she starts dieing of cancer not to come to me cuz i wont do shit. once i see shes getting sick iam running. ive seen mii great gpa die at the age of 60 and start at the age that she did mii gma says...not a suprise to see her quit on us. plus that the fucken governtment didnt give us our money so now we're screwed with bills and stuff which makes her smoke more and more. but oh well that money would be in handy if she didnt smoke... smoking isnt worth losing a life over and isnt worth losing the ones u love....anyways.

      iam so sorry for everything ive done to this guy but i love him with mii heart i always hope hes ok and happy. i dont know what id do without him and his hardheaded self smiley1.gif but he's all mine and forever he makes me the happiest person anyone could ever be you guys have no idea how happy he makes me all the time no matter how i feel befor i talk to him. if u knew him the way i do you'd totaly under stand i dont know how i lived mii life befor i met him. hes the most amazing person i have ever met and is the most amazing person out there for sure. he makes mii heart skip a heart beat everytime i think about him. i dream about him and neverstop thinking about him...your the MOST amazing thing that has ever happend to me.... I LOVE YOU, FILI.
      smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifI LOVE YOU, FILI forever and ever never apart!! smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley12.gif

    • In Love!

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      i have good news iam very much in love if u guys havent noticed. teehee. but i love fili (sixx_am) hes the most amazing person i know and the only guy that i know that cares abotu me. he always makes me laugh and smile no matter how i feel. he knows the right thing to always say. and he always know if something is ever wrong. he always listens which i know alot of guys dont do. hes just all out amazing. (wish u had him to bad)! well something very great happend l8ly! can u guess??
      hehe
      iam married to him! yaay! =D he is the most amaing thing that has ever happend to me and i hope he stays. i always think about him not one second go's by that i dont think about him. i dont think id be here now without him he saved me from what i would have done.... life had no point with out him. but with him now i am so happy i notice what i would have lost. i would never be able u hurt him atall he means so much to me if ive ever hurt him its killed me. at times i think of all the mistakes and what ive done to hurt him. i want to take it all back! i wish i could go back in time and fix it all. i swear to miiself to never hurt him ever again to afrade to lose him.
      Now dhe's mii husband and i love him with all mii heart! so be jelous BITCHS!
      I LOVE YOU FIL!
      smiley12.gif ,
      3E!!@

    • Poem: Shes ended

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      Her eyes are swollen.
      Her cheeks are red.
      Tears pouring out of the lonely girl.
      Love was all she asked for.
      She got walked all over.
      It seemed that no one cared for what she believed in.
      As she lays in her bed, saying a prayer to make the pain go away.
      She can't sleep, so she steers at his picture.
      Trying to put the memories in her past.
      She's waits to see, how she's going to make it.
      As she struggles to get out of bed, thinking of what went wrong.
      She has lost all the faith and all the happiness.
      She is lost in the waking of her day.
      As she has no one to talk to.
      She's done everything to try to make it.
      As one night she made her choice,
      She can't live without him.
      She swore that she couldn't make it without him.
      As days go by, she doesn't want to come out.
      She wrote him a note, saying that she will always love him.
      One night she lost it.
      Her mom came to get her because he came to see her.
      She can't get her to answer her or the door.
      As they break in her room, they have found out they lost her.
      She lays with the note and his picture on her chest.
      He was too late, she was gone and all he does is scream.
      She had finally ended her pain.
      I LOvE YOU FILI!
      <3. BELL smiley12.gif
      XOXOXOX

    • We Miss You

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      wemissyouoq9.jpg
      We will never forget you Buck!
      Love,
      Bella!
      P.S. i lvoe you FILI and Buck!

    • no name...

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      have u ever thoguht your life is falling apart? no one to trust? and nothing to believe? thinking alot adn not talking to friends barely anymore...friends ignor u cuz u dont talk anymore? sitting alone at school and at lunch when u look acrossed the other table and see them laughsing and staring at you.. wondering if u will ever come back..and then at home your life suck more then ever mom takes everythign out on you adn your family calls u at 11:30 tellign you they wish you were dead? then u wake up to a mom screaming adn brother crying? he comes running to you telling u to make mom stop yelling. then u think u can go out adn haev fun with friends then your mom shows up and slaps you infront of them because her boyfriend broke her heart? having your friends talk about you and just stair at you as she still yelling at you, you cry and go to the bathroom. and get sick. you have not one friend to talk to cuz their all out there talking about you behind your back. amagen what they have to say, u come home and see a text on your fone saiding your love is cheating on u as the same gos for u that someone told your love. ..you dont know what to trust you call your "bestfriend" that u find has been calling you a whore behind your back and telling your love that ive been cheating on him... people lie and never tell thje truth which you thought they could be trusted but they cant. have you ever thought that the person u tursted tursted in you? but talked behind your back? and it came true. the person that told you to your face you were like a sister to them and then get slaped in the face and stabed in the heart at the same time? and just wanting to go in a corner adn cut till the bloods all gone.. thinking no one care a fuck about you?i know iam not the only one that has ever felt this way tho. but everyone needs to remember when you think no one care someone in this world always does. weather you know them or not... i have had it done to me and it just did again.
      I LOVE YOU FILI MEMBER THAT.
      XOXO,
      BELLA
      smiley12.gif

    • Seek Not My Heart

      10 years ago

      theusedisme1

      Oh gentle winds 'neath moonlit skies,
      Do not you hear my heartfelt cries?

      Below the branches, here about,
      Do not you sense my fear and doubt?
      Side glistening rivers, sparkling streams,
      Do not you hear my woeful screams?

      Upon the meadows, touched with dew,
      Do not you see my hearts a'skew?
      Beneath the thousand twinkling stars,
      Do not you feel my jagged scars?

      Seek not my mournful heart kind breeze,
      For you'll not find it 'mongst these trees.

      It's scattered 'cross the moonlit skies,
      Accompanied by heartfelt sighs.
      It's drifting o're the gentle rain,
      A symbol of my silent pain.

      It's buried 'neath the meadow fair,
      Conjoined with all the sorrow there.
      It's lost among the stars this night,
      Too far to ease my quiet fright.

      No gentle winds, seek not my heart,
      For simply ... it has torn apart.
      broken_heart_by_starry_eyedkid1.jpg
      UNTILL I FOUND YOU.
      Fili u put it all back togther

      I LOVE YOU FILI!
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  • About Me

  • Comments (1125)

    • deathnote101

      10 years ago

      ....

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      chahahahaha!! lololol i misss u soooooooooo much babe!

    • awsomness000

      10 years ago

      Sure.

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      Eh, I really need to get A new proxy mii love. this proxy is being a bitch. hey baby, its fuxking up big time. wont let me send u messages and cant rarely get urs. i love you sooooooo very much babe! hey baby get some rest same as me, so we would actually talk tomorrow in the morning before school u know?
      =) ill be dreaming of u gorgeous!! always thinking of u like crazy!! muah!!! <333333 togther forever!

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      ah babe the website didnt work D: im like augh thats not cool! u know? it only letted me sighn in! ah im freezing. misssssssssssssss u sssssssoooooooooooooooo very muuuuuuuuuuuuuuchhhhhhhhhhh babe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!11111

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      babe! the website doesnt seems to work but just let me sigh in!D: ah i hope u get on here so we can get things settled babe

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      ok ok u should be on

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      Posted 1 month ago + 1 Zing! Mod this...+ 1 Cool+ 1 Funny+ 1 Ditto+ 1 Zing!- 1 Lame- 1 WTF- 1 Noob- 1 Flamebait [ Reply ] [ Quote ]
      Now for a some what long comment to leave before I go to bed <3 Oh mii love, if only you knew how happy you make me <3 When I hear your soft, adorable voice it melts mii heart away. Makes me studder at times if you haven't noticed. and when you say " I love you " I smile everytime, blush if I may say and makes me feel like theres butterflys in mii tummy hitting upon the walls of mii stomach. also makes me feel soo fuzzy that I'd giggle all the time <3 when I hear you say " forever " it makes me the happiest guy for sure. your an angel from heaven, very amazing, adorable, wonderful, loveable girl that I have ever met. If I only had one wish I would wish I was their with you now and together forever, even when we get white hair on our heads and on strollers taking our walks through the park watching other young couples have there first kiss out there under a tree, and it will remind us how it was for us when we were kids and we'd smile and tell each other how much we love each other. I mii love, love you with all mii heart, mii soul and mii life. your the most amazing love that somone could ever have <3 I am the lucky guy, the guy who god wondering eyes chose me to have an angel like you mii love. Now that Your mii girl, I will do all I can do to make you as happy as possible . To make you fell comfy and loved every day <3 I love you soooo very much babe <3 so now you know, when I tell you that "I love you" u know how much i feel for you babe. and still, words still dont describe its fully potential of mii love for you boo <3 so when i am with u and ur with me, together, I will show you how much I love you and how much I would do you for to make u happy and feel safe and secure

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      eh.........im toooo shaky to stay on........

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      aye aye aye <3 im soo tired ! me gonna go to sleep babe. i love you soooooooooooooooooooo very deeply much
      !

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      !!! miss u mii baby girl sooo very much !!!

    • breakXbreak

      10 years ago

      Ha ok. You do that.
      =P

    • breakXbreak

      10 years ago

      OMG NO WAI FERREAL?!?

      You should get a pit'cha of her!

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      The movies get pretty bland.
      Books end up being really creative and they give the classic vampire a new twist.
      As in Cirque du Freak and the DarkAngel.

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      Haha, I prefer books to movies, but then again, I'm just kind of a nerd. :D

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      muah!! xoxoxo love you soooooooooo very much !! imma get off now as i promised u babe <333 mii wife, i love u forever and ever! together forever! :D good night sweet dreams mii angel !! mii wife!!! muah!

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      i am freezing mii wife! hehe! miss u soooooooo very much ! muah ! muah! muah! xoxoxoxox ! love you sooooooooo very much mii dear wife ! love of mii life :D ahh im coughing so much, getting more sick i think mii love o.o " imm take a nap and text u in the morning babe!! got lots of hw to do now, teehee! ilysvm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      Because vampires own over werewolves?

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      I love vampires, too, but werewolves just scare me, lol.

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      It wasn't even the real movie, it was this cheapish, modern spin-off where Bloody Mary was just a crazy ghost from an insane asylum.

      I agree. There are two types of horror I absolutely can not watch without HOURS of cartoon therapy afterwards, and that's the insane asylum crap [just because they make it so scary looking!] and werewolf movies. Werewolves freak me out soo bad. I always get really paranoid about them. xD Haha.

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      He is really weird. o.O
      I love horror and gore, but there are some movies that really just do it for me.
      Ghost Ship was another one.
      And this dumb, low budget Bloody Mary spin is part of the reason I'm so terrified of insane asylums.

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      did u got mii message babe?

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      awe rele babe? <3 love you so much !

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      aw! I got on few minutes too late mii love D:

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      rawr! missed me babe? <3 muah ^-^ so u likey the comment darling?

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      Now for a some what long comment to leave before I go to bed <3 Oh mii love, if only you knew how happy you make me <3 When I hear your soft, adorable voice it melts mii heart away. Makes me studder at times if you haven't noticed. and when you say " I love you " I smile everytime, blush if I may say and makes me feel like theres butterflys in mii tummy hitting upon the walls of mii stomach. also makes me feel soo fuzzy that I'd giggle all the time <3 when I hear you say " forever " it makes me the happiest guy for sure. your an angel from heaven, very amazing, adorable, wonderful, loveable girl that I have ever met. If I only had one wish I would wish I was their with you now and together forever, even when we get white hair on our heads and on strollers taking our walks through the park watching other young couples have there first kiss out there under a tree, and it will remind us how it was for us when we were kids and we'd smile and tell each other how much we love each other. I mii love, love you with all mii heart, mii soul and mii life. your the most amazing love that somone could ever have <3 I am the lucky guy, the guy who god wondering eyes chose me to have an angel like you mii love. Now that Your mii girl, I will do all I can do to make you as happy as possible . To make you fell comfy and loved every day <3 I love you soooo very much babe <3 so now you know, when I tell you that "I love you" u know how much i feel for you babe. and still, words still dont describe its fully potential of mii love for you boo <3 so when i am with u and ur with me, together, I will show you how much I love you and how much I would do you for to make u happy and feel safe and secure

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      what never *hugs*

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      yeh im bord

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok im not gonna ask y

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      nmu

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      not relly

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      still low

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok ill try

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok

    • urlilcupcake

      10 years ago

      Haha, thank you. =3

    • SergeantS0L0

      10 years ago

      yep, not much
      how about you??

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      :D missed u sooo much babe !

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      read my jernal

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      im steve bythe way and im a little low

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      =]

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      u2

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      ok

    • wil0087

      10 years ago

      i know pink bubbles has that pic

    • SergeantS0L0

      10 years ago

      hi :)

    • gravemynd

      10 years ago

      Alll right then, not sure who you are at all, but welcome to the nuthouse!

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      aw imma stay up just to talk to u mii love <3 muah anything to talk to mii sweetie

    • sixx_am

      10 years ago

      That's right mii love, together forever and ever <3

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