wolfala

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from Los Gatos, CA

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    • RvB HD Crash :(

      14 years ago

      wolfala

      Well,

      There goes another blog down the tubes! Time for a new 1 - onward we go!

      Wolf

    • Posting Etiquette

      in Forums > Posting Etiquette | Follow this topic

      wolfala

      I'm kinda thinking this should be made a sticky.

      http://www.trials-shack.co.uk/posting.html

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    • Girls Girls Girls

      14 years ago

      wolfala

      Today's article will not be about Iraq , or the war, or my state of being a soldier, though I am sure it will touch on those things. This article will be about one of the most perplexing and grief-causing things in my life.

      Women.

      Girls.

      Broads .

      Dames, skirts, tail, babes, chicks, whatever the fuck it is you choose to call them, it is the other half of the human species that seems put on this earth solely for the purpose of driving me absolutely batshit.

      There are not that many people I choose to relate to on the level that I am comfortable on. Maybe that's a little conceited of me, but believe me, it's necessary. Try getting drunk and discussing the puzzle of Schrödinger's cat, or the finer points of eastern vs. western philosophy. Or trying to tell people about the complexity and emotion you saw in Smoke and Thunder , the latest book of poetry you bought.

      Not likely. So my social interaction is sometimes limited to testosterone fueled trips to the bars to watch UFC, or swilling cheap beer and watching porno with a group of dudes who are inexplicably more clueless than myself.

      But I still manage to get laid on a regular basis.

      I dunno.

      I've been thinking, though. Thinking about how our society today is so debauched, sexually and emotionally stunted, and how ‘cool' it is to be a whore, male or female. It's everywhere, from popular music to MTV to college culture.

      For all my hedonistic and self destructive tendencies, deep down I am still a very old fashioned guy. I believe in America (the ideals), home cooking, dogs, firearms, and marriages that last forever. I believe in children raised by parents, not TV. I believe in blood tests before unprotected sex.

      I've been thinking that maybe I need to slow down, and find a girl that I'm not bent on conquering within the first month of a relationship. Maybe find a girl that not so fucking Americanized. Shit.

      What you have here, folks, is a geek that was shunned for years by the opposite sex, suddenly finding himself awash with pussy. It was like magic. One day I couldn't get laid with the neighborhood slut, the next day I couldn't handle all the ass I was getting. This happened years ago, and I think maybe it's time to grow the fuck up.

    • Realizations

      14 years ago

      wolfala

      To be able to enjoy that single slice of time, that vision of a human being's world view shattering, takes a certain sadistic streak.

      Even though it forces a man to sink or swim, to reevaluate everything in his life, to reconsider things that he had always unquestioningly believed in, and possibly come out a better person, it is a sometimes painful process to watch.

      I myself have lived through this process, not once but many, many times.

      It is something that comes with becoming wiser, with opening one's eyes to the true nature of things.

      I refuse to die without touching people. I refuse to die unless I see all of the very best and the very worst things I possibly can. I want to know love, hate, war, harmony, birth, death, knowledge, folly, and every possible shade of gray in between. It is so easy to pass judgment on another human being, and I myself am guilty of this, as we all are.

      I used to think that I had a pretty good grasp on what the world was actually all about, but I was wrong. This is the ultimate folly: To believe that you are right. Because you aren't. The world is so fucking complex, Machiavellian, and enigmatic, that the only thing you can every truely count on is that you will never know it all. There will always be a path you haven't traveled down, a painting you haven't seen, and a person you haven't met.

    • Q & A

      14 years ago

      wolfala

      Q: Why are you so arrogant/cocky/egotistical?

      A: When you are great, people often mistake candor for arrogance.

      Q: Are you really like this?

      A: Oh no, in real life I’m kind and compassionate, I just enjoy broadcasting myself to the world as an insensitive prick. Are you kidding? What do you think? My life has been one big exercise in inexcusable behavior and unforgivable sins. The simple reality is that even though I’m brilliant and charismatic, I am also young and immature, and am only just beginning to develop enough maturity to empathize with the emotions of others, a necessary predicate to compassionate behavior and moral action, something I know little about.

      Q: How do you write about all of this stuff and not get into fights?

      A: Its quite simple really. Messing with overbearing disciplinarians can be a boundless source of joy. If you're any good at it, you can really make a difference in this world. Just ask my college advisor. She's the woman with her face buried on the bar, sobbing uncontrollably.

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    • armeav8r

      13 years ago

      A few years after 22 of commissioned service. I love Falcon 4.0. flew an online TE tonight. Killed 2 mig 23's in mortal combat. Got 1 with a BVR slammer shot and another in a turning fight. Then i took out an SA-2 with a HARM, and an SA-11 SAM with a HARM then after the bastards shot 6 sam's at me, I got wacked.

    • armeav8r

      13 years ago

      Check out the Freebirds. It's an online Falcon 4.0 squadron. They also fly allied force.

    • 1ce

      13 years ago

      The fact that you know what Exosquad is makes you a Badass. The fact that you listed it as a favorite TV show makes you a god among men.

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