wolfbeast2

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from Southampton, NY

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    • R.I.P.

      9 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      this is a poem/play that i wrote. not finished yet. what do u guys think? theres 3 characters: me, my mom and my uncle chris who has passedd away on christmas, before i could finish this. god rest his soul.


      MOM - He asks himself who am I now
      He can’t stand up, he just falls down
      He cant feel pain
      Cuz he stands on deaths lane
      When all he has is nothing,
      He continues to look for loving
      The loving he never had
      It makes his spiritit feel oh so bad
      So now he withers away
      Cuz once again, he has no love today

      Chris-I don’t wana live like this anymore
      Im dyeing from the core
      So many regrets, so many misunderstood concepts
      Waiting to here I love you,
      But he wouldn’t say that I knew
      Im just ready to dye
      Im tired of living this lye

      Me-I just cant watch him dye
      Im not ready to say goodbye
      They say so many things
      And pain is all it brings
      They say, all they wana do is make him as comfortable as possible
      All I can say is, well, that this disease, it has to be stoppable
      There has to be another way
      Cuz well, him dyeing, is just not ok

      Chris-Its my time to go
      God has said so
      He will take me to a better place
      Where I can finally once again keep with the pace
      All ive seen, all ive done
      Om just goona let the memories go
      Let them run
      Im giving up cuz theres nothing to fight for
      Im giving up, cuz im nocking on deaths door

      Mom-I sit with him, let us talk
      I sit with him, cuz he can not walk
      Hee is my brother
      We both suffered from no real mother
      I will miss him so much even though we fought
      I’ll even miss the times that he got me cought
      Cuz I know you don’t deserve this!
      Im just trying to say I love you chris!

      Me-I see him swallow so many pills
      that’s the real reason cancer kills
      He feels like nothing but bone
      His fate is no longer his own
      Now I can see it in his glazed over eyes
      Hes ready to say goodbye
      But…am I ready?
      I feel so unsteady
      How do I show love
      When he is ready to be taken from above
      How to show that I care
      Even though we all know what hes going through is not really fair
      Andim tired of the same old phrase
      It brings me into an emotional craze
      Tired of them sayin “spend as much time with him as you can
      Why, so he can see me cry again?

      Chris- (note: my nickname is jamie) Hey jamie I think im dyein
      And no, don’t you start cryin
      Cuz I know your strong
      Don’t prove me wrong
      And listen…I just want you yo know, when I leave
      I don’t want you to greave

      Me-And now its almost Christmas day
      And even more on his death bed he lay
      Last Christmas all he wanted was a year
      And that’s all hes getting I fear
      He is unaware of him self
      Cuz hes falling off his emotional shelf
      (verse not finished yet. what do you think?

      Dedicated to my uncle chris. RIP

    • Just some writing i need to get out....

      9 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      Why the fuck are you doing this to me?
      I'm just tryin to be who i need to be!
      So what if i hustle?
      it makes the money rustle
      it is what i gotta do
      not what i wana do, but i do it for you
      so what if its not my money?
      people still leavin it out, its just kinda funny
      when they goona learn?
      But i guess thats not my concern
      they are just goona have to figure it out
      but instead, like you they waste there time tryin to figure out what im about

      Alright now listen, im hittin the ground fast
      but, i will make sure everyone falls before me, im not goon/ a be last.
      thats why i do the things i do
      so i lyed its really not for you
      And stop tryin to figure out why i do things,
      Shit i don't even know, and it kinda stings.
      Maybe its cuz im finally takin a stand
      or atleast i try, but iend up with my head in the sand
      hiding all the shit that i feel
      And now you probablly see, tthat the mask you see of me isnt really all that real.


    • In Love

      10 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      Ok So i want all of RVB to know, Even though i lost like all mysponsors, Im in love with a girl. Her Name is Brittney. She is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me. Not a day go's by, that i don't think about her. She is the most amazing person ive ever met. And even though i've fucked up a few times, she's forgiven me, and its made our bond even stronger. i LOVE everything about her..even the annoying little things she does sometimes.

      Dear Brit: I mean everything i said, I love you. You are completely amazing. And well i want you to be with me for as long as possible. Cuz i love you and thats how it will always be. And I know sometimes you are upset with your self because you can't open up to me, well it is ok. Time will fix evedrything, and i will be there for you the whole time. I am completely and toatally in love with you. Don't change, cuz you are perfect to me. I love you sweetheart.

    • Not sure...

      10 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      Well i am at my best friend PJ's house (AKA TheSoloist). i was here since friday. we had an expadidtion in the woods and are going to build a fort out there, such a five year old thing i know. But thats not the main point. Me and him Are really close, family friends, so if you read my last journal you will know whats going on. for some reason i felt when i got up this morning it would be awkward to have my uncle come over. i don't know, i really am still just trying to think that the whole thing is just not real, not happening. its like nothing ever happened,we talk like barely but when we do its the same old thng. The main thing that is really starting to eat away a me is, i cant say i love you to him, for some reason, unknown to me, i just cnt do it. i mean TheSoloist might understand why. My uncle has a very...rough personality. i guess thats it. And with him being TheSoloist's god father its even more tight knit then usual. i guess it won't be that awkward, I dont know, i guess we will just have to wait and find out. i just wish it all wasnt happening. But, what can you do?

    • well...

      10 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      well, my life has truely began to suck, with my favorite uncle being classified as terminal, my family still notas together as i wish it was, and still the constant struggle over drug adiction, things have just begun to shut down. My uncle has had cancer for a few years, he went into remuiission but then got it back a few months ago. After going threw Chemo therapy and radiation twice, there is nothing they can really do. The radiation it self burned his insides, incuding his throat so he can barely eat. The doctors sugjested that we call in Hospus. Anyone that doesnt know what hospus is, well ts lik the last stand before death. It is hard to seea man, cut down in his prime a workahalic. its hard to see him bed ridden. He is in so much pan....because he was an Opiate user, which is like what pain medication and valume and things liike that are made of, so the doses that is doctors give him are no where strong enough, and he doesnt want to tell them about his past, becaus lets face it, you just dont, when thats where you come from. Not only that, my mom is strggleing with her job and taking care of him, hankgod she has moved back in with us. that was hell without her around for a while. but ofcourse, we still have the drug struggle with her and the rest of my family, shes trying to drop the habit, but its never easy, especially when she has to go pick shit up for my uncle. bu thats just how it is i supose. I just have to remember....tuff people last, tuff times dont. well its not all bad, i mean i met my true love, and she is the most amazing girl ive ever met, i know your going to read this abby, dont worrie about me, i love you! i guess i just needed to vent, and i know barely anyone will read this because well no one ever sends me anything, but i guess thats just me, shit happens, Thanks for reading if you did.

    • ahhh

      10 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      i cut my left hand....so i cant play mah guitar.....james sad naos...cheer him up!

    • getting ready

      10 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      Its war today. Paintball war that is. we r all going over to my friends house for a big war, TheSoloist will be there. i can't wait, i love paintball although i havent played in like forever. i have a tippman 98 custom.

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      im using recon hard shell paintballls. which are camo ( i dont see the point in that but what ever.) wish me ann my friends luck!

    • just a quick poll

      11 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      about soda! yummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

    • remember...

      11 years ago

      wolfbeast2

      don't you remember...the good old days, when you had that bank of mod points. when you always had none when you really needed them. the good old days. when other ppl affected ur kharma, and you the random ass negm mods? i mean wat was that all about? the good old days. some of it is better now...but, you wil still miss it don't ya?

  • Comments (327)

    • zeppchick

      9 years ago

      hello
      im doing well
      college is busy and fun
      i cut my hair :D
      AND ummmm how are you ?

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      9 years ago

      Did you write that?
      It's amazing (:

    • TheSoloist

      10 years ago

      you know it

    • pimpsniper1

      10 years ago

      Uhh yea why wouldn't it be?

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      Thanks.

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      HAHA HAPPY? IM WRITING YOU BACK LOSER! :D

    • Glazdon FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      10 years ago

      180 lbs, two 45s on each side.

    • KillerQueen4

      10 years ago

      pfffft riight.

    • auzrius

      10 years ago

      Heheh, Sounds good. :D

    • KillerQueen4

      10 years ago

      be in a bathing suit

    • auzrius

      10 years ago

      Yes... You did.

    • auzrius

      10 years ago

      Pretty fair, I'd say. lol
      Nah, I'm doing good. Gonna go fence a few. Idc what people say, fencing is kind of fun.
      You?

    • auzrius

      10 years ago

      lol not sad. hehe

    • auzrius

      10 years ago

      Heh, I didn't really expect anyone to know or even notice that. I realized a while ago that no one really payed attention to that! It's cool you know the song too. I love that song, and everytime I get reminded of it, I get that high pitched "afternoon delight!" stuck in my head. smiley8.gif

    • KillerQueen4

      10 years ago

      its too cold out

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      hey

    • Orangejuice

      10 years ago

      whats up

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      FXCK!

      I_miss_you_already_by_theymakestars.jpg

      PLease read my other 3 comments below...without thinking of how much of an idiot i am! xD

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      [img]http://i233.photobucket.com/albums/ee191/tofclover/I_miss_you_already_by_theymakestars.jpg[.img]

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      Oh and take a look at my journal pleaseee..
      xD

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      10 years ago

      ORGASMIC!

      it's called [sexy]*

      AND

      SuPeRsTaR!
      lol.

      Under the influence of illegal substances...CALLED LIFE!

    • zeppchick

      10 years ago

      yeah i got it today, like this morning lol and i would like to help but what kind of site are you thinking of making?

    • pwnageman

      10 years ago

      DUDE HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!

    • zeppchick

      10 years ago

      you don't need me to translate
      lol
      you can use google!

    • zeppchick

      10 years ago

      lmao not super fluent but enough to get by with my grandparents and random strangers so i think thats good

    • dark_wolf_90

      10 years ago

      hey james

    • newmanewma

      10 years ago

      funny comment contest!

    • TheSoloist

      10 years ago

      sup?

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      11 years ago

      Yeeeeah no! Sorry...Edward Cullen is amazing!

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      11 years ago

      Im sick.
      Sorry about last night...my mom flipped out on me becasue of my sister screaming in the hallway and woke her up.
      I got my phone back.

      Still no texting though.

      Egh....*sneeze*
      My sister licked my book DD:

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      11 years ago

      i_love_you.jpg

    • Death_By_Day

      11 years ago

      yeah ;; myspace ?


      www.myspace.com/randomnerdhottie

      i have more pictures

      and i go on there alot more

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      i know

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      thats fine

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      true

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      how old i'm 5'4 and 150 i know i'm fat

    • lil_Punk1223

      11 years ago

      hey

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      no no you love Japanese girls

    • Death_By_Day

      11 years ago

      ha well im 15

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      dah

    • Nyuu

      11 years ago

      your not 20 how old are you?

    • FemWolfLynn

      11 years ago

      Don't commit suicide now. I just had to run was all.

    • ShOeLaCe_E

      11 years ago

      ITS SO FLIPPIN HOT OUTSIDE!

    • Ikerules2700

      11 years ago

      sup

    • Ikerules2700

      11 years ago

      well i tell them i 13 but im 11

    • Ikerules2700

      11 years ago

      ya whats about you hunt ^_^

    • Ikerules2700

      11 years ago

      hya sup

    • lil_Punk1223

      11 years ago

      thanks!! lol!!!!!!

    • lil_Punk1223

      11 years ago

      hey!

    • Narniafan357

      11 years ago

      Heyy,yeah I'll be your friend.
      And the part that I looked like a nice girl?
      You need your eyes checked
      because I'm probably not that nice.
      Anyway,thanks for the journal comment.
      I'm sorry about all your family.
      Do you want to contiue this in a message?

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