wordsmith12

20 years old
from Marietta, GA

  • Activity

    • On Florida

      3 years ago

      wordsmith12

      My heart goes out to all of the families who lost loved ones at the Pulse Club in Orlando last night, and my heart goes out to the Orlando LGBT Community which lost fifty of their friends. I wanted to write something about this but I honestly have no words to express how devastating this is. All I know is that something needs to change. This is the worst mass shooting in American history. It may have been a hate crime against LGBT people, it may not have been. The shooter may have been believed in radical Islam, he may not have. We don't know all the facts yet. I have no idea what can be done to stop attacks like these from happening. All I know is that I woke up this morning and heard about the attack and was not surprised. We should not have to live in a country where violent attacks such as this are commonplace. I do not want to raise my future children in a world where attacks like this are commonplace. How many more people are going to die before something, anything, is done to prevent mass shootings in the United States? Too many have died already. Something needs to be done.


      With prayers for all those lost,

      Aidan

    • Endings and Beginnings

      3 years ago

      wordsmith12

      Today was officially my last day of junior year. When I walk through the front doors of my high school In just over two months I will be a senior, getting ready for the college admission process and the decisions and adult life that follows it. I therefore welcome this two month respite with open arms. I am taking online health and online phys ed in order to graduate, but otherwise I will have a lot of free time, and I will therefore be able to post on here more and read more. The past few months of school have been very stressful, and I am very happy that I can live for just a little bit without said stress.

      Over the summer, I also plan to write a bit more. As an assignment in my American Lit class this year, we had to write a story using the elements of realism (which is the literary movement that includes Mark Twain). I ended up writing a story that in two pages managed to make my teacher, and two of the three other people who read it, cry. I have never before written something that had that emotional impact before, and I now have the desire to write more short stories so that I can have emotional impacts on more people. I am considering sending the story that made people cry to a zine or something, as my teacher and several other people I have spoken to about it have said that it was well-written.

      This summer is an end to my stress and a new beginning of creativity and freedom and the anticipation of being done with high school forever in less than a year. I can't wait to see what this beginning holds.


      Best Wishes,

      Aidan

    • 3 years ago

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    • After All This Time

      3 years ago

      wordsmith12

      I was sitting on the bus when I heard. A CNN notification showed up on my phone and my face fell in shock. I immediately showed my friend next to me, and she couldn't believe it either. I quickly googled it because it couldn't be true. And yet the news was confirmed. Alan Rickman died today at 69.

      Harry Potter holds a special place in my heart, as I'm sure it does in many people's hearts. When I was younger, my mother would not let me read Harry Potter. She didn't want my head to be in the clouds any more than it already was. When I finally read it, I was 13 and well past the age when many of my friends had eagerly awaited their Hogwarts letters only to be disappointed. I was so overjoyed that I was finally allowed to read the books. At the time, I did not know about the head in the clouds excuse, so I wondered what reason my mom could have for banning these books for so long. My joy made my expectations very high, and they were well placed. I was swept into the world, a world where magic was real and anything was possible, a world where good conquered evil but at a great cost, a world that could make me laugh and cry and hope for my favorite characters.

      When I finally saw the movies, the world became even more special. The world was made all the more real in my mind by being able to see all of the characters played by actual real people. At the time I did not very much care for Snape, but his character is one of the most complex in the series, and was made all the better for having been played by Alan Rickman.

      He had many other roles, yes. He was brilliant in Love Actually, and Hitchhiker's Guide, and every other film he starred in, yes. But it was his performance as Snape, his making my favorite world real, that made me love him. I expected him to live forever, as his character already does in my head and in the books and on screen. I expected him to make it to 80, and read Harry Potter to his family, and say "Always" when asked "After all this time?" like he planned to.

      And yet, today, I told my best friend to sit down, and told her that her favorite actor who had played her favorite character had died. She didn't believe me at first. I am still having trouble believing me. In my mind, he lives on as one of the kindest and best actors I have ever had the privilege of watching. I will cherish his memory, and his work, along with the rest of the world, for both his life and his work were masterpieces. Yes I will cherish them, always.


      Best Wishes,

      Aidan

    • The Quest for the Jamz Continues!

      3 years ago

      wordsmith12

      Join Raf and the chat as he plays Fract OSC on ShimmySham Gaming

      http://www.twitch.tv/shimmysham_gaming

    • Reason for Lack of Journals

      3 years ago

      wordsmith12

      I haven't been posting lately because I've really been trying to focus on school and robotics and getting enough sleep. I still take the time to check the site every day, so I still see the things you lovelies have to say, but I have just lacked the motivation to post anything. I'm going to try to start posting regularly soon though. I'm going on vacation next week (Disney World eeee!) so it will be after that.

      Remember, I love you all.

      Best Wishes,

      Aidan <3

    • 4 years ago

      wordsmith12

      For over a week, I've had pain of varying degrees in my upper back between my shoulder blades, closer to my right shoulder. In the morning, it is virtually nonexistent, but as the day goes on it worsens, especially if I sit in or on something without a back on it or bend over to pick something up. Right now, at about 9:45 PM, it's medium and dull to sharp and piercing, with flare-ups of the sharp pain every few seconds (with especially sharp ones every few minutes). The best way I can describe it is that it's like someone has stabbed me in the back and left the knife there, but they pulled it out most of the way, and as the day goes on they push it further in, sometimes pulling it out and stabbing again with more force. I get distracted momentarily from my homework by it. It's impossible for me to sit on the floor or on the edge of my seat without a flare-up. I have trouble finding a position that's comfortable when I go to sleep because the pain won't fade until I fall asleep. I've mentioned it to my dad, but he doesn't want to go to a doctor just for this. I don't want to try pain meds because some of them make me drowsy and I have school and homework that lasts till late. I don't know what to do. I want this pain to be gone. Does anyone have any advice?

    • I'm Starting A Blog!

      4 years ago

      wordsmith12

      Lately, I've been consistently making some posts on here that qualify as personal essays. It's become so much easier for me to find things to write about, and I want to keep up writing these kinds of essays for as long as I can. This is the first time in my life I've actually enjoyed writing essays. I want to keep writing these so that I can become a better writer. I greatly appreciate each one of you who reads these long posts I make. Even so, our community is relatively small, and my profile also has a bunch of posts on it which do not qualify as personal essays. Because I want to have all of these sort of posts together in one place and get myself out there outside of the RT community, I've decided to start a blog on Wordpress. I will still continue posting to the RT site, but all of my essay-like posts will go onto my blog. I would appreciate it if y'all followed it or looked at it. It would make me so happy to have people read my work. It will be updated weekly, with some variation depending on how much school work I have.

      Check it out at: https://aidanrjblogs.wordpress.com/

      Best Wishes,

      Aidan <3

      P.S. On the blog I'm using the psuedonym Aidan RJ to avoid using my last name and because it has both of my middle names as initials and sounds cool to me.

    • On Genders Outside the Binary

      4 years ago

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      Note: I will be using the terms amab and afab throughout this post. Amab is an acronym for assigned male at birth, and afab is an acronym for assigned female at birth. These are being used because I do not want to call people someone a man when she is in fact a trans woman or someone a woman when they are in fact agender.

      Most people grow up learning, and still believe, that gender is binary. There are girls and there are boys and nothing else. We are taught that we can't change these. Our gender is on our birth certificate and practically every form we fill out for our entire lives. Stores are divided into men's and women's sections. Most places have just men's and women's bathrooms. I could go on and on. There are countless things that are divided between these two binary genders and nothing in between. With the recent increased visibility for transgender people (amab people who transition to binary women and afab people who transition to binary men), more people are beginning to realize that people can switch between these two binaries if they feel that they need to. I admit, there is still a long way to go for transgender rights and visibility. Yet I am writing this today to speak about a group that has even less visibility.

      Some people feel as though their gender does not fit into one of the checkboxes that society has built for them. Male and female just don't really seem to fit for some reason. These people all fall under the nonbinary umbrella. Just as every man and woman experiences being male or female in slightly different ways, every nonbinary person experiences their gender in a different way, although in the case of non-binary people there is definitely more variation. Some nonbinary people feel as though they are somewhere in between male and female. Others feel that they are another third gender. Still others feel that they don't fit in any box and don't have a gender at all. There are many more identities and various fluidities or fluxuations between them all. It all depends on the person. There are many labels out there for various nonbinary genders, dozens or even more. Some people find a label that fits them and strongly identify with that, others choose to stick with an umbrella term such as nonbinary or genderqueer, and others choose to forgo labels completely.

      Some nonbinary people experience dysphoria. This is a feeling of distress and unease about your assigned gender. There are three types of dysphoria, and they can experienced in different degrees by different people or not at all. Social dysphoria, which is the most common, is distress felt when society perceives your gender as something other than you know it to be. This can be aided through changing one's name, style of clothing, or pronouns. Most people grow up using either he/him or she/her pronouns. Some nonbinary use one of these, but others use the singular they/them or more untraditional pronouns such as ze/hir or ne/nem. If you know someone who is nonbinary, it may be a good idea to ask about their pronouns so that you can be respectful of their identity when speaking about or to them. If someone asks you to start using pronouns different than the ones you are used to for them, please try to use them out of respect for the person and their identity. Body dysphoria, which is very common, is the feeling that your body doesn't match the body you were meant to have. This can be in regards to chest, hair length, genitalia, or build. Body dysphoria can be combatted with surgery or hormones, as well as with less permanent options, such as binding of the chest or cutting or styling one's hair. Finally, mental dysphoria, which is less common, is feeling that your mind or thoughts don't match your gender identity. This includes continuing to refer to yourself using a name and/or pronoun you changed to match your identity, or simply calling yourself, for example, a girl in your head when you know that you're nonbinary. This can be combated by finding friends or a support group who can help you overcome this, especially if they are also nonbinary.

      Other nonbinary people experience little or no dysphoria. For this reason, it can often be hard for a nonbinary person to accurately explain their identity. In my experience, I experience some dysphoria, but for the most part am fine with my body and how people perceive me. Being nonbinary is something I realized through a lot of introspection and thought. It is something I know in the deepest part of my mind to be true, and I don't need to change anything about how I look or act to validate that fact. Regardless of whether any other nonbinary person experiences dysphoria, regardless of whether they physically or socially transition or not, they are still nonbinary (or whatever more specific label that they choose to use). No one can validate or invalidate their identity but them, for it is in their mind, and they alone know how they truly feel about their gender. They alone can truly know this about themselves. It's their body, their mind, their soul. And that soul may just happen to be nonbinary.

      Here are some examples of and definitions for a few identities under the nonbinary umbrella which some nonbinary people use:

      Agender: Someone who has no gender. They are genderless.

      Androgynous: A style of clothing or appearance, androgyny is also a type of genderqueer, the state of being inbetween man and woman, or both man and woman.

      Bigender: Someone who has two genders, typically man and woman (but not necessarily). They either identify as both, or they move between the two.

      Demiboy: Someone partly a boy, and partly something else, without defining that other part.

      Demigirl: Someone partly a girl, and partly something else, without defining that other part.

      Enby (or NB): Short for Non-Binary, someone whose gender is simply non-binary.

      Genderfluid (or fluid): Someone who is genderfluid moves between genders; their gender is not something that they or anyone can pin down and define.

      Neutrois: Similar to agender, but often including transition, someone whose gender is null or neutral.

      Polygender: Someone who has more than one gender, either identifying as more than one gender at once, or moving between genders.

      Disclaimer: I have done extensive research on the preceding topic in an attempt to figure out my own identity and to better understand other identities. There are not many credible sources on this topic out there, therefore much of this is based on my reading about the experiences of other nonbinary people or drawing upon my own experiences. This information is all true as far as I know, but please let me know if I get anything wrong. I have tried to be as inclusive and as accurate as possible.

  • Comments (27)

    • StryfeRyder

      3 years ago

      So it looked like you posted an update journal but RT won't let me see it, so whatever has happened, I hope it is, and continues to be, wonderful.

    • Akwardcupcake

      4 years ago

      AIDAN I hope you have a good, fun, safe trip girl!!! I dunno if I'll catch you on skype or not, but I just wanted to let you know.

      Take lots of pics and have a blast!!! :D

    • StryfeRyder

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add, you are my 200th friend!

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      p.s. how is life?

    • HeyJambi FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

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      This is what is going to happen to you eventually once you become a more advanced robot birther. BE READY!!!

      Now that that is out of the way...AIDAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNN!!!! HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My other half of the Spaghetti Cannon!!
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      Seriously though, words can not express your awesomeness. To hanging out all the time in SS streams, silly snapchats, and CAH shenanigans, every time we talk we come up with more ridiculous stuff! So thank you for being on par with my silliness, and for being a part of Team Friendship. I can't wait to see what evil being we have to take down next with THE POWER OF FRIENDSHIP!!!

      Happy Valentines day!! smiley12.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley0.gif

    • Akwardcupcake

      4 years ago

      Aiiiiiiiiiiidan!

      You were the first person to talk to me on here, and I want to thank you for that, cause that's awesome. I hope your robot beats all the other robots up today, and that you have a ton of fun.
      Thanks for reading my fics, cause that's really appreciated. Talking to you is always a blast, and I really like having you as a friend!
      :D

    • rohwen TheBlade

      4 years ago

      You're real good with robots, and very smart
      I'm sure one day they'll destroy the world
      I only ask that you give them a heart
      So I can rule and it'll do what it's told

      Please build me giant robots to take over the world!
      Thanks for helping me rule :D

    • Audrey

      4 years ago

      Thank you for being on The List! You are amazing, my dear! smiley12.gif
      Spread the love with Warm Fuzzies of your own today!

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

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      Aidan, I can't thank you enough for everything you've done for me and the shimmysham crew. You are an absolutely beautiful person. Thank you for the amazing friendship and for hanging out with us. Your personality radiates so much positive energy at all times. I absolutely appreciate and am grateful for your presence, don't ever change, lady! Forever got your back, lil sis! smiley0.gifsmiley12.gifsmiley13.gif

    • Caszie

      4 years ago

      Dear Aidan, have I ever told you how amazing you are? You are so sweet, so funny, so loving, so kind, you are my favorite kind of person and I absolutely love you for it! You're always there to help, ya know? You spread the love and happy feels wherever you go. You are such a beautiful person, inside and out. I'm so glad I have gotten to know you!

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      I hope this made you feel warm and fuzzy because you definitely deserve it! Happy Valentine's Day!
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    • Nabohs FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold We Want The Funk

      4 years ago

      AIDANNNNN!!!

      What's actually really funny is that I was just looking you up on here to add you :p

      • wordsmith12

        4 years ago

        smiley0.gif *happy dance*

      • Nabohs FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold We Want The Funk

        4 years ago

        Yeah, I was pretty surprised I hadn't added you either. But now it's fixed smiley0.gif

      • wordsmith12

        4 years ago

        I don't know why I hadn't added you before.

    • AlphaLima_01 TheDarkCountess

      4 years ago

      Thank you for the friendship!! smiley0.gifsmiley0.gif

      *gives you chocolate*

      • wordsmith12

        4 years ago

        No problem! Thanks for the chocolate!

    • HeyJambi FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

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      is this it?!

    • Caszie

      4 years ago

      Thank you for the friendship! :3

    • topham FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DHYB

      4 years ago

      Hey! Hows it going?

      • wordsmith12

        4 years ago

        I'll be celebrating the traditional Polish Christmas Eve, Vigilia.

      • topham FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold DHYB

        4 years ago

        Ah awesome! Got any big plans for the holidays?

      • wordsmith12

        4 years ago

        Pretty good. I'm getting excited for the holidays, and I only have four days of school left until finals and then I have a break.

    • rohwen TheBlade

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add. Hope you enjoyed the stream, and the rage that went with it.

    • Layne SortaMalicious Mod

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the friendship smiley11.gifsmiley0.gifsmiley12.gif

    • LostInSweden

      4 years ago

      Hi hi, thank you for befriending me~ ^^

    • Xyerci FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Dark Flame Master

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add! Hope you enjoy my gift!

    • Raf Raf

      4 years ago

      Thanks for the add, dude!

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