xxZaxxNekoxx

Female
from The Depths Of Hell

  • Activity

    • Just writing.

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      It was you who stopped responding,
      Stopped talking,
      You are the one who left,
      The one who vanished,
      Hardly leaving a trace,
      Leaving a pained look upon his face,
      Leaving sorrow and uncertainty in his heart,
      Sadness showing in his eyes,

      It was me who stood there,
      Stood beside him without fail,
      Told him it was okay to cry,
      I'm the one who brought him comfort in the night,
      Reminding him things would be alright,
      I'm the one he called on to ease his pain.

      You left him nothing but pain and questions,
      I gave him a reason to smile again,
      Now you wish to come between us,
      You are trying to find any reason to deny him the right to see his son,
      You are the one who is trying to make him suffer,
      It is me who refuses to leave his side

      Say what you want,
      Do as you will,
      He's mine now and the only one to blame is yourself,
      I will fight to keep him in my life,
      I don't care if you wanted to be his wife,
      You left him, he didn't leave you,
      Now you're through and it's me he's missing when he's gone,
      It's my kisses he's dreaming of waking up to,
      He cares nothing for you,
      Give it up,
      Move on now,
      Stop trying to make him feel the same as you,
      It's not his fault.



    • Update

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      To all those who've kept up to date on my life up to this point I figured it's time to fill you all in again.
      I've had my braces off since early October, I just finished another set of classes including my final Airframe class which means a couple of things. One thing is that I will be meeting with the FAA next week to get my paperwork underway so that I can take several test and get my first rating, simply put I will be an airframe mechanic. This of course also means that I'm more than halfway done. I started my first Powerplant class today and will be graduating from school just before 2012.
      My dreams are coming through, even through all the pain and struggles that I've been going through. I'll met it there yet.
      I have noticed that as of lately I've been highly out of touch with everyone on here. I don't know if that is simply because everyone is too busy or that they have moved on with other things. If you guys want to talk I'm still around, I check in once a week now since I never have anything waiting for me. If you send me something I will notice and check in more often though.
      Anyways, that the update summary, I could go on for longer but details can be filled in later if need be, wanted or anything such as that.

      -Neko

    • Random poem I came up with just now ^-^

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      When all seems lost,
      The worlds gone dark,
      Look deep within,
      There's a light within your heart,
      Guiding you out of the dark,
      Onto a path of security,
      A path a knowledge and happiness,
      In fear we do not see the light,
      Too lost in our sorrow to see,
      We are the reason for which we are not free,
      Spread your broken wings,
      Take to the skies,
      You'll find you're not alone,
      One stands before you,
      Caring for you,
      Wishing for you to come near,
      In your fear you are blinded,
      By sorrow and hate,
      Fail to open your eyes,
      Open your heart,
      You may soon find your worlds fallen apart,
      In the end,
      You were the reason for your destruction.

    • Unfiniished random poem

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      I do my best to walk this path called life,
      I try real hard to find the light,
      Yet somehow still find myself lost in the night,
      I hold tight to all that I have ever known,
      Daring foolishly to call this hell a home,
      Finding each day I'm still alone.

    • Ik Houd Van ou Grijze Wolf

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      They say time heals all wounds,
      Yet my hearts still beating for you,
      Bleeding for you,
      Broken from despair,
      Broken 'cuz you're no longer here,
      Overflowing with pain,
      'Cuz you said you no longer care,
      Each day I wear a smile so you wont see,
      How badly this is hurting me,
      I set you free because I love you,
      Although I haven't let go,
      Remember with me you forever have a home,
      So when she hurts you,
      And your heart''s full of despair,
      'Cuz you finally realized she doesn't care,
      I'll be waiting here,
      My arms open for you,
      Waiting to hold you once again

    • Series of poems.

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      {Note: I have not put one up because I felt it might be a little inappropriate to some people, if you would like to see it though just let me know and I'll send you it)

      Because the sun might not rise for me tomorrow,
      I want to tell you today,
      I love you in every possible way,
      There are no words good enough to explain this feeling

      Your hands so strong,
      Yet so soft,
      The touch or your hand against my skin,
      Brings such warmth and comfort,
      Your fingers dancing against my skin,
      A sensation without description

      Your sweet smile,
      And gentle laugh,
      To see that glisten in your eyes,
      Such priceless things.

      Oh what I wouldn’t give,
      To see you smile,
      To hear you laugh,
      To have you sitting next to me

      I wish I could show you,
      To make you see,
      Just how much you mean to me,
      How much I need you,
      To hold me close,
      Help me up when I fall down,
      How much I love you,
      No matter what.

      You are the simplest pleasure,
      Although I wish to be yours forever,
      I don’t expect you to want the same.


      Trying to fly with broken wings,
      Dyeing by a broken heart,
      Smiling through all the pain,
      Hiding that my world,
      Has all but fallen apart

      Drowning in my tears,
      Living with a fear,
      That I will not survive the year,
      For you are no longer here,
      Yet you are still so near

      Fighting to my last breath,
      Unable to live with any regrets,
      As I have time for nothing but pushing forward,
      Until I fall,
      I shall carry on,
      Doing my very best to be strong

      You see me smile,
      Yet I want to cry,
      You hear me laugh,
      When I wish I could die,
      You push me to chase my dreams,
      Yet they are nothing without you.

      Sleepless nights,
      Endless days,
      Far too long you've been away,
      Seeking rest,
      Finding only broken dreams,
      As all colors fade to gray,
      For your light does not shine here today.


      You shattered my heart,
      And broke my will,
      Yet somehow,
      I love you still

      Drowning in my tears,
      Wishing the pain to end,
      Having no care for if I ever wake again

      Life without you,
      It holds no value,
      The sun does not shine,
      There is no light in my eyes,
      I live with a pain,
      That can never be disguised

      I loved you yesterday,
      I love you today,
      I’ll love you forever,
      Even if you turn away

      When your heart gets broken,
      And you feel alone,
      Remember this,
      You always have a home,
      You are always welcome here with me

      I will hold nothing against you,
      Will not yell at you,
      Nor judge you for what you've done,
      So when you're done being this way,
      Come back,
      For my arms are waiting to pull you close.

    • Poem in progress.

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      Trying to fly with broken wings,
      Dieing by a broken heart,
      Smiling through all the pain,
      Hiding that my world,
      Has all but fallen apart

      Drowning in my tears,
      Living with a fear,
      That I will not survive the year,
      For you are no longer here,
      Yet you are still so near

      Fighting to my last breath,
      Unable to live with any regrets,
      As I have time for nothing but pushing forward,
      Until I fall,
      I shall carry on,
      Doing my very best to be strong

    • 8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx
    • Photo shoot

      8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx

      So I went with a friend to her photo shoot on Sunday, just to help her out with things like when she needed to change (because the photo shoot was outdoors and she was changing in the back of her car, I was to hold the blanket over the back so she could). Well, I did do that for her, but also I ended up getting involved. The photographer to pictures of her and I together, and even me separately.
      It was actually a lot of fun, and he wants to do another one once the leaves start changing colors out here too.

    • 8 years ago

      xxZaxxNekoxx
  • About Me

  • Comments (4915)

    • Herlock

      7 years ago

      Hey there.

    • Herlock

      7 years ago

      Eh. They could be worse, that's for sure.

    • Herlock

      7 years ago

      Hey there. Long time no see.

    • Herlock

      7 years ago

      You.

    • Bloodyvamp23

      7 years ago

      I don't know yet I haven't heard back from them yet. >.< Which sucks, but I so hope I can get it. ^-^

    • Bloodyvamp23

      7 years ago

      That's right. Lol and ya I'm kinda the same i have less than 6 weeks left and then I will be on my externship. ^_^ I excited but nervous.

    • Bloodyvamp23

      7 years ago

      Heh. ^_^ I kinda figured thats probably what you did.

    • Bloodyvamp23

      7 years ago

      OMG MY XXZAXXNEKOXX IM BACK ON RVB AND IVE MISSED YOU *GLOMP*

    • alkalined FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Impaler

      8 years ago

      I hope so too.

    • alkalined FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Impaler

      8 years ago

      Its alright im just a little run down is all.

    • alkalined FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Impaler

      8 years ago

      Its a long story.

    • alkalined FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Impaler

      8 years ago

      I've been better.

    • alkalined FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Impaler

      8 years ago

      Its been a while...

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      That's uber! :D

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      xP i just study guns in my spare time sis

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      Mi too, I am busy trying to get into College. :P

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Mmhm always have, my dream side arm is a Jericho 941 with .41 Action Express Cartridges instead of .45

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Mmhm always have, my dream side arm is a Jericho 941 with .41 Action Express Cartridges instead of .45

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Yeah might buy a russian bolt action from a friend too

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      I'm inheriting some rifles from my grandfather.

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      ^^ I think it would be fun. I could take you out and teach you how to shoot and stuff

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      ^^ Cause i only got on to check for a new episode while she was here for the week silly. But yes you'll get to meet her one day. Love you little sis

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      I guess..

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      I thought you would remember a little.

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      I don't remember much either, I can remember is that it had something to do between her and I.

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      xXLiliacXx.

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      I can remind you, if you want? I just want your forgiveness. :3

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      It is okay, I just didn't expect you to message me, I thought you were still mad at me.

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      XxCrushedxX. -.-;

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      Well, you were mi mother once.

    • Wolf_Soul

      8 years ago

      I remember you, I have been good.

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      It goes well my darling little sister. I'm just waiting to go pick up my fiance from the bus station so she can meet my family

    • go_naruto

      8 years ago

      Thanks! :3 I hope so too. xD

    • go_naruto

      8 years ago

      I want to go to a college in Japan called Yokohama Desgin college. :3 and then I just would like to know the langauges. But who know, I might don't want to go there, I mabye find another college or university, but just right now is Yokohama my goal. XD
      And also I am half Korean and I don't know any, so I thought it would be fun to learn it. ^w^ hehe~

      Post edited 7/15/11 4:09PM

    • go_naruto

      8 years ago

      Mostly a college or university there I can study Japanese, Korean and mabye another language. :3
      I know there is one university that has these languages, but I have to wait til December til I can sign up for that university. >w<

      Oh that sounds awsome. :D

    • go_naruto

      8 years ago

      Oh oki oki, I see. :3
      *Hugs back* Not much haven't going with me, I graduated school 1 month ago and now I try to look for a job, which hard. :l
      I have to wait til December to sign up to a college or a university.

    • go_naruto

      8 years ago

      Wow D: Yes, it been 4ever, I thought you left the site. ; w ;

      Welcome back~ :D *Hugs* smiley12.gif

    • snchider

      8 years ago

      hehe I come and go but I always catch you offline. *sits*

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      it goes well

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Hey lil sis

    • nekobladen

      8 years ago

      Did you hear? There is going to be an eclips tonight.

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      You are never truly lonely hon. Your brother is with you always in spirit

    • h4ck3r

      8 years ago

      you have no idea man im about ready to just end it all

    • h4ck3r

      8 years ago

      bad like all ways

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      It's what big brothers are for

    • nekobladen

      8 years ago

      Still up to your RPing ways fair neko?

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Well just remember that big brother is always here for you

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      well sweetie if anything feel free to PM me for my number and IM info for skype. and we can talk anytime you need

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Your big brother is always here for you, and will always listen. But yes do tell him those things next time you talk, it is an important factor in any relationship to have good communication and express your feelings.

    • UBCS_Lt

      8 years ago

      Little one when it comes to things like that you should tell him how you feel. Let him know you are worried and pray his safety everyday and you miss him with all your heart

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