Update: November 30, 2008.
Is a bitch. Let's just say that the walls have ears. It's a bunch of lame-o high school drama that I have to put up with. I'm so sick and tired of working with LITTLE kids all the time. So yeah, bunch of rumors going around and life itself is hard, don't need another high school crisis going around.
Well, it went so by fast, and well I only have about 2 weeks left, but like 4 days left of school. I have a 5 page essay due then 2 articles due too as well as only two finals. So...get to studying to get that B at the least =/
I'm soooooo glad that my best friend is there for me every step of the way. I am able to tell her everything that is going on and she is ready with anything to give me as advice. That's why I lovveee her to death :D
So happy with him :D He makes my heart melt when I kiss him and when I look into his eyes. I love EVERYTHING about him. He makes me feel special in every way. He is simply PERFECT to me. It's been a month already into our relationship and everything is good so far. He asked me on October 22nd so, it's memorable in a way. lol.
I haven't gone to any concerts after the last one, but...I am however, going to Saosin :D I'm super duper excited about that. I've been listening to "You're Not Alone" and "Seven Years" like crazy. They're both my favorite. I'm dragging my boyfriend, Eli, with me cuz he's like the type of guys who are kind of preppy but are into country/reggeaton music. So, we'll see how he'll be at the concert.
And one more thing:
[Christmas is coming :D]
in  days
10 years agoylizt89
Update: November 30, 2008.
11 years agoylizt89
Crap, I haven't written a Journal in a long ass time :X
Work: I work at Jason's Deli and have been working there since The end of January. Subways was BS! Two Sundays ago I sliced my finger, like above the knuckle on my index finger of my left hand =\ It still hurts like a bitch sometimes cuz I stretch it And I'm trying hard to let it dry cuz if I wet it, it moistens up and it hurts since it's an open wound.
School: Well, I'm in Summer II Classes right now and my last week is next week =) I'm excited to finish it but...I hope I get a good grade. So far, Summer II classes are so much better than my Summer I classes. After I finish, I will have 2 weeks off of no school so, time for a lil vacation again :D haha. Then I go back to PanAm [University of Texas-Pan American] for the Fall and Spring Semester. I'm super excited to go back because, I love thee college Life =}
Boys: Eek, I'm In Love with my Boyfriend XD His name is Alex and we have barely started going out. He asked me on [7/21/08]. But have been friends for about 5 or 6 months. So, it's seems like forever but it's ok. I <3 Him ^^
Birthday: My Birthday passed like two weeks ago :P I'm  already :D My Last Teenage Year. Damn, imagine, next Year, I'm going to be 20 :O
Concerts:So lately, pretty good things have been going on. I've been going to concerts lately and I went to the Dance Gavin Dance Concert, and chatted with thee boys of "Secret & Whisper". I love them! Their Awesome :D I should have gone to eat with them at Whataburger but I had to go home :( But Damn, the concert was intense, I was everywhere! haha.
The Sky Eats Airplanes concert was great too :) But I also went to the Alesana concert. Omg, that one was freaking AWESOME! It was their last tour concert and it was a "Prank Concert" so a shit load of things happened and I was there to witness it :D
Well, I'll keep updating on stuff.
11 years agoylizt89
Abraham is Love. hehe. IDK, liking the boy, bad. Haha, he went one way and I went the other and so, then we were like almost parallel but on different directions, and so, I was "looking" at my phone. And thought about taking a glance at Him And what do you know, he was looking at me hehe. So I smiled at him =).
Do I want him? Yes.
Can I have him? Maybe.
Does he want me? I dunno.
Can he have me? YES! Just ask me boy.
I only see him Tuesdays and Thursdays when I have him for class but that's all. I would like it if we did go out, I mean, his profile says he lives at Weslaco, but graduated from Mercedes so, IDK, but McAllen and Weslaco/Mercedes. Hmm, like around 20-30 min away from each other but it can still work out. Fuck, I'll lie just to be with him, I wouldn't mind hehe.
He's simply, Perfect for me.
Anyways, the Chiodos concert was the next concert I WAS going to go to but...
it got cancelled because of this message:
And there's no freaking refund now. But they gave us a promise and they better give us a great "refund" for pissing a huge group of ppl. Plus, they added an extra late show because the first show sold out. So, 2 groups are really pissed. I mean, I was looking forward to this concert since like August. And now, it's cancelled but [sigh] it happens.
What pisses me off was I had to work that day and I called in earlier to HOPEFULLY get me my day off and luckily she found somebody to take my place but, that somebody wasn't really good. No joke.
So, I'm going to try really hard to get Abraham and hopefully get things done with IDK, life. hehe.
11 years agoylizt89
I went to the Scary Kids Scaring Kids concert and met the lead singer of Pierce the Veil. It was freaking awesome besides getting pushed into the mosh. That part sucked and the next day I woke up with a sore neck. Well, we got autographs and I got a free CD that they were throwing to the crowd. Awesomeness. There were a lot of cute guys there but none for me to be with. Oh well.
Uhm, school, going pretty good. English is being a sucker but not much since today, she talked about Jonathan Swift's "Modest Proposa" essay and I have already read that essay in my senior year, so basically I knew what she meant when she started talking about Satire and eating babies and stuff like that.
So, crushing, not the same guy since he has a girlfriend and who knew that he was in mariachi but at memorial not at Rowe. He's also in district so, I'm guessing, he might have known my brother. Well, now, I'm crushing on this other guy on my english class. Hehe we talk, it's awesome and he added me to his myspace yesterday, pretty rad huh.
Well, McAllen's being super gay on the climate but it's all good, it's October, one of my two favorite months. And also, Halloween is near so awesomeness.
Well I'll update.
11 years agoylizt89
Hmm, I started my first week of college and what can I say? It was great.
They got a new gym this year and is still underconstruction so basically, we're the first class to have a gym. Part of it is open so me and my best friend went to go Rock Climb and wow. It was so fun. I fell like 3/4 the way lol. She made it all the way.
What sux the most is that I miss Marching band more than anything. And having a football team to look forward to pep-rally's and me playing at the pep-rally with the band. Aw, I really do miss it.
So, it's cool too, there's this one guy I'm crushing on so bad lol. I know nothing of him, no name, age, nothing. Just that he's a freshmen at the same university as me. I see him around sometimes and ah, he's like everything I wanted in a guy in appearance. So, I just wonder how he is when he's a friend, and better yet, a boyfriend lol. Awee, I want to know him, actually meet him. Well, I'll see what happens though. But I have a crush on someone. Wow, I've never had feelings like this in a long time.
Well, the Problems arising before that, is that me and my best friend don't talk much. It sux, I'd thought once in college we'd able to talk more or hang out more. Yeah, we hang out more but, we don't talk as much. And she'd rather wait for her other friend than for me. So, thanx, a bunch best friend. But yeah, we're drifting apart and it doesn't feel right.
Work is ok, besides working on days that there are concerts such as, yesterday was the "A Change of Pace" at STC and the day before was the "Vanna" concert at Club Metro. Fuck, I really wanted to go. I hope to go to the next ones, that have Silverstein, Chiodos, Alesana, and more. A lot are coming on September and October so super psyched about that. I just hope to go though.
This is where I end this journal.
12 years agoylizt89
& The Truth is, I just felt a Rain Drop.
So my summer completely sux. This past saturday, I went to San Antonio for a DCI competition and it was awesome. DCI stands for Drum Corps International; it's a band thing. lol. Well, I was able to see my high school friends for the last time, hopefully it's not the last though. But the excitement was thrilling and the bands were so good. The Dark edgy sound of the low brass was so awesome. Like I've told my friends, that day was the best day I've had all summer. So then, during halftime, we went to the mall, and I had loads of time walking around trying to find a decent restaurant lol. But it was hard, because everyone who went to DCI ended up walking to the mall, but that's a given.
My Summer story goes on when I say, ppl should really take care of themselves and try not to hurt themselves or others. So, I like this guy, I met him last summer and I've had a crush on him since. Then we stop talking around early December and somehow, we start talking again around April. The crush part had slowly faded away but some was still left. And so, it's summer, and I found more about him through other ppl than through him. I finally get the chance to meet him in person at "The Zone." And we just played around by pushing each other. I won. lol. But as we still talk about things like we normally do, inbetween the silence unfolds another secret. Things reveal itself than the true kind. So the most out of this world secret was revealed and everything has changed since then. He's no longer a crush, just a friend.
But it really does suck because, he was the only boy I liked right now. And now, I guess like I've said, I'm going to focus on my career. I don't want to focus on anything else than on college. So basically, things have changed on my perspective. And for some reason, I actually do believe it started on my birthday. I'm like grown up now and somehow I don't care about certain things than I used to. I guess, maturness does grow on you. And it has infact grown on me.
My eyes, reveals the reflection of a maturity girl.
And that's about it...
12 years agoylizt89
I graduate next week! It hasn't hit me yet, probably on the day it will, if not sometime soon I hope. Well, I'm catching up with people, the old and getting to know some new. I just wish that the new i would have known earlier.
So, last week I went to go see Spiderman 3 with my boyfriend. All I have to say is that, what everyone says that it kind of sucked, well it didn't. It was ok, I mean, it wasn't good but it wasn't bad either. Just right down the middle, Ok. Monday, I went to go see his football scrimmage game and he did good. I just don't know how summers going to go since he has to go away for vacation and I might too. This relationship started late, I guess you could say but it's going good.
Senior year, well it's ending, only days away till school is over for us and about a week til I get my high school diploma. Pretty cool I guess you could say. I hardly get on much in here, so sorry if I don't reply or something.
12 years agoylizt89
So life lately, is great, just stressing over school projects and softball. I noticed, today will be 1 month and 30 days left til I graduate. Again, so happy for that. Well, nothing can get between me being happy or anything like that anymore. I have gotten over everything that has happened to me and what is happening to me and like, moving on. And those ppl should too.
Lately, there's this one boy who likes me. He sent me a carnation and leaves me notes. I feel bad because, I really don't like him the way he feels the same way. So sorry boy, it's not right to go out with someone who doesn't have the same feelings for the other.
Um, School, well it is being a bitch, but I'm graduating in like a practically 2 months, so I suck it up and the hell with it. I do my work. lol. I have like a project in every class except band, so that's 4 projects I have to do. Meh, I have to get started on them and stop being a lazy bum about it. lol.
Friends, well they're there to support me all the way. I love them. Just meeting new ones is better and I haven't lost any which so good.
Let's see, I haven't been online lately, for the reason of school and games, and other things that I'm in. But I have viewed some things ppl have been posting so that I would see. Well, I guess I'll say it. Ester! get over yourself, you will never be like me, or be better than me. You too Ivon, both of you guys have no reason to be against me. Ester, your just mad for the reason that I went out with your bf, get over it, it was last year. I am over him. God, and then Ivon, the only reason your friends with Ester is that so she could like you, and you being a wannabe for everything. Then, your there to "support" her, sure, when you liked Juan last year, and we were uhm, "friends", which we weren't because I never liked you in the first place. Get over it, just because I went out with him and you liked him, you got mad at the fact that I did what I did. That's why you stopped talking to him and to me. Then when we finally broke up, you started talking to him, then I guess you found out he was going out with Ester, and IDK, you decided to be her so-called "friend."
Seriously, both of you, your living in denial. And it is so stupid. Now, get over it and get over yourself. I'm almost leaving, so be happy. Well, I'm still staying here, just that I'm not going to Rowe anymore. Seriously, go bitch somebody else, I had already forgotten about you already and then, here you come with fucked up comments. Seriously, Get a LIFE!.
-Well, that's all I have to say.-
12 years agoylizt89
I let go of the one I truly loved,
And gave that one love to the one I truly hate.
Why did I do that mistake? Or was it right to do that, as if he was an omen or something. I know that it has been awhile since it happened but I can't get over
ithim. Though, seeing him, questions me, "why him?" It's not regret or jealousy, or nothing like that; it's just something that I can't get over. -->My first ~love~ was taken away with the one I hate. Hmm, sounds like a story. I hate it though, us not talking to each other anymore, can't get near him, and can't even look at him. I think about it once in awhile, what if I hadn't broken up with him? Things would have been different. We would of lasted a bit longer. IDK, it's just hard going to school and being there 3rd pd, in the same class with him, nonetheless, same school. It does suck. And then I think what if I would have given him, the thing he wanted the most but I wasn't ready for. I hate love with passion. I do regret it at times but then I think about it, and say that it was the right thing to do. What he doesn't know is the truth of why I broke up with him in the first place. I wasn't just because it was depressing to see him not happy and me worse, crying. I knew he was talking to her, and to make him happy, the only way was to let him go. And so I did, but then we came back from summer and she just came at me for no reason. It's ridiculous how she makes a stupid remarks of me. She should really be happy that I broke up with him so that he would happy, and to be happy was to be with her. I felt that I should just give up my happiness and just let him be happy . She just doesn't know. And so doesn't he. He thinks I broke up with him for another reason, but it's not that. Why stop talking to me? I just tried to do what's best for him. He should just really thank me for finally able to be with her. Ah, it's just to complicated right now. And I hate it. Too much drama! It effin sux. If only he knew the truth, if only she knew why I did what I did, so that she would stop bugging me. I feel like I should talk to him, once in awhile when I see him. Then, those times when randomly you have to look who's coming in, and then it turns out to be him. We lock eyes for a few seconds then turn away. I would just like to talk to him, that's all. I won't forgive him or trust him anymore.
-I'll put more later-
^.^ v [Peace yo]
I have moved on...
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