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    • Christmas Things

      1 year ago


      *at Christmas food table*
      Uncle: Gran must be thinking, God I thought this would end when they grew up! [referring to himself & my mom]
      Brother: Yeah, & now there's 2 more of them! [referring to himself & me]

      Uncle: She's thinking about how to get rid of us.
      Brother: She's gifted us with food poisoning!
      Mom: Wouldn't that just make us stay longer?
      Gran, mutters quietly: How do you know I haven't?


      What I got:

      - a new silver ring from mom;

      - 40€ and a pair of mittens from gran;

      - a concealer cream for dark circles under the eyes, from mom;

      - Fallout 4 from brother~~


      I need to visit my cousin in Helsinki this week, but after that I'll most likely flee back home to be alone for a few days before the new, busier semester begins. I need that quite badly.

      How's your Christmas / holidays been? <3 Hopefully well!

    • https

      1 year ago


      Anybody else have issues with HTTPS on this site? I don't remember how it was looking last time I logged on here, but... there's no green lock next to the address. D; 

    • Merry Christmas!

      1 year ago


      Again, Merry Christmas! 

      It's 24th & gran is fussing about.. I escaped onto the bed after she turned her hearing aid off again when I suggested I could vacuum the floors. (She did that at my place when she started cleaning there..) 

      It's sunny & not too cold outside. I might go for a walk after we get some last minute food shoppings done. :) 

      I slept like crap last night, though, so a nap is in order I think. X_x 

      Have a good holidays, Christmas or whatever it is you might celebrate. <3

      Oh oh, btw - to whomever has sent me a card for the RT card exchange! We've had some issues with the postal services in my area, & since the card hadn't arrived before I left... Well, I won't be back home until like January 2. ^^;;

    • A Few Words..

      1 year ago


      Today was a pretty good day after all. Better than I'd feared.

      I couldn't sleep too well, and right after waking up I had a long, hot bath, cleaned the guest room, then watched some RvB and slept for a couple more hours before heading downtown to see a girl friend I've not seen in about 7 years. We sat around a couple of cafes, talking, until she had to go to meet with her mom. It was awesome talking with her, it was like we'd just met yesterday at school, heh. <3 (We first met during a study programme I got into here.)

      Waiting for the bus, I stopped by at a store to pick up some chocolate and Mt Dew. There was a drunken couple after me at the check-out queue, and the man said: "Pätkistä ja kolamehua. Suklaa on seksin korvike." (Pätkis [a type of chocolate] and Cola-juice. Chocolate is a replacement to sex.)

      Now I usually get annoyed by whatever comments drunkards make, but that just made me want to laugh out loud and turn to him to say, "Damn right it is." But I just smiled to myself, paid my stuffs, and left.

      I'm feeling tired. There are times when I want to give in to the tears, because there's a lingering sadness of things - a sense of finality - but I also feel content, and it's... a weird, torn feeling, y'know? Anyways, I hope I have the energy to do today's yoga and workout, but I just might take a complete rest day today and pick up with it tomorrow. Go to sleep actually early. Listen to music. Watch more RvB. 

      Anyways, it's a bit early but - hyvää joulua! <3 I'll be around~~

    • Zeit Tries to Date, part 5

      1 year ago


      SOOOO. Some of you have already heard the recent news from last weekend... I was hesitant to post anything because well, uh... and I've been kinda busy trying to live a normal human life at normal human daylight hours, as well as trying to think of Dec 23 as just another day of December.

      But the memories of the last engagement anniversary are strong. Every year since 2010, he'd take me out to eat and the movies. Last year we went to eat as well, but when the girl behind the counter - whom he was familiar with via work stuffs - asked him (never looking at me once btw) what he was doing downtown, he replied "Oh just some late Christmas shopping."


      Naturally I got upset about it, and didn't feel like eating. We had a verbal fight at my place before heading out to spend the Christmas at his family, which also turned into a nightmare as I managed to get sick and we had to chase after his aunt's foster kid as the bastard ran off yet again, and since he wasn't sober, well, guess who had to drive.

      Anyways, tomorrow - Dec 23 - I'm going out with a girl friend I have not seen in about 7 years, we'll have some coffee and catch up and I'll hopefully not break into tears anywhere public pls. 

      And then, last weekend. Before I go on - I have a tendency to be pretty open about myself in public places like journals like this. I've learned over the years what kind of things to keep to myself, though, and I won't go into much details and won't mention names etc.

      After meeting dude number 2 the weekend before, he started messaging me more and it kinda annoyed me. When he asked me out again to the movies, I got the feeling he'd want to drop me off home and I decided I'd come home alone. He kept saying he could drop me off, no biggie, but I said I can take the bus thank you. He did come pick me up from the nearby store, which was nice of him. He handed me a gift, which I guessed to be chocolate.

      All went fine, we watched the new movie adaptation of Unknown Soldier and I thought it was pretty cool. We headed out and he again said he could drop me off - but the store was closed and I got the feeling I just didn't want to be in his car and all.

      He saw me to the bus stop, wrapping an arm around my shoulder and I didn't pull away even though it sort of felt a little uncomfortable, but not too bad if that makes sense. We talked for a bit while waiting for the bus, and a few minutes before the bus got there he kissed me on the mouth, pretty much while I was in mid-sentence talking about whatever. Now, the kiss didn't feel bad... but it didn't feel great either. Y'know. And it was in a public place so I didn't want to make a scene out of it by telling him right there and then I am not after a relationship... which, I thought I had stated on my dating app profile (but who believes the word of a woman anyway, right, especially on such things and women and guys as friends, tf is such a concept). 

      After I got home, I spent a restless night playing games and ranting on Discord, I called mom a couple of times and talked to my cousin as well, and opened the gift and discovered he'd also given me a gift card to the store chain that's close to me and thus frequent often. Now, as far as I know those damn cards can have anything from 10€ to 100€, and I just... exploded. 

      Well, I then sent him a message apologizing for not having been clearer before about MY intentions, saying clearly we were after something totally else, and ... well, blocked him. He hasn't tried contacting me anywhere since. 

      Had a few hours of sleep then went to see Star Wars with another fella, the one I had seen first. Duderino number uno. We had a good time, we were both a bit more relaxed - I'm guessing he's sensing I'm not up for much more, not at this point, and not expecting much from me since earlier tonight he just mentioned how awkward it is to browse Tinder back in his hometown, as he's visiting his family (dude if I went back to my old hometown, I'd hide the damn profile lmao). But he's also sent me pictures of dogs, and let me know when he was leaving the town and when he arrived to his hometown, and let me know when he got out of work for the vacation time. It's just what I've been looking for with a Finnish dude: hanging around, messaging silly things and details of a daily life, ...

      I let him drive me back to the store (he also picked me up, even though I insisted I come by bus - I had to switch buses though to pick up a book, so he said he'd come pick me up from the post office there). It was kinda slippery / icy, and the back of his car made this swerve - he controlled it pretty well, and I made this excited stupid noise so on the empty parking lot of the store he did a little handbrake trick. xD It was fun. :P 

      Since coming to gran's town, I've also been browsing the local... err... supply and demand <.<;;; and have had a few conversations this week but most have died out pretty quickly. Still talking to dude nro 3 from back JKL, as well. Nice and chill! :D

      So anyways, that's about the news from my dating life. XD The Zeit dating sim has earned some experience points, yeah... lol.

    • Listen, gran... 2

      1 year ago


      [note: I used to live here for about 8 months when I was studying at a local school for an English language & lit programme]

      me, in my head when my half-deaf gran is complaining loudly about her alcoholic neighbors: Perhaps I should tell her that I left the guest room window open for some fresh air...

      me, when gran kept on listing names of people that are apparently her neighbors: Dude, I don't know who these people are.

      gran: Well surely you remember! 

      me: No.

      gran: Well you must've seen them around when you were here, when was that again.

      me: Gran, that was 7 years ago so no I can't remember, and besides, I barely pay attention to my OWN neighbors, let alone yours. 

      gran: *starts digging around for an obituary of a neighbor, then another neighbor's, all the while speaking about people I apparently should know about*

      me: *admits quiet defeat and noms on Cheerios granola in silence*

      gran: Here!

      me, shaking my head and thinking: Jesus Buddha Satan, I still don't know who the fuck are Retsi or Markku but now I know where to look for their obituaries in her kitchen. 

      Also half the time when I talk to her I start questioning if her hearing aid is on or completely taken off, as it feels like we're having totally different conversations.

      Still, <3

    • Listen, gran...

      1 year ago


      The fact that I'm awake and up before noon is a miracle in itself. So let's be grateful for these baby steps.

    • FF3 Tips?

      1 year ago


      Since I am now relying on Steam for games (visiting gran), figured I'd try finish with this Final Fantasy III business. The jobs confuse me, soooo any tips are welcome on what to focus on & where the best EXP grinding locations are.... ^^;;;

    • A Quick Thank You To Y'all

      1 year ago


      I just want to take this moment to thank all the people I've met on this site so far, withstanding my vents and all and trying to help me navigate in the sea of messes I manage to get myself into because I am socially so feckin incompetent. 

      Like RvB helped me through a very, very difficult phase of my life last spring / summer / autumn by making me laugh a lot (it still makes me laugh - I was roaring with laughter the other night when I saw Caboose visits Halo Reach Campaign... and "Where There's a Will, There's a Wall" is one of my all-time favorite miniseries), y'all are helping me stay afloat when I feel like I'm becoming insane. <3

      Not to mention
      all the funny moments, memes, pictures, Mecha Cats (shit, I should've drawn a whisker on my current avatar it's gonna be a hassle to upload a new version to all the places *gives The Look at the Xbox*), and y'all know so much about different types of topics and there are talented artists, writers, and other enthusiasts I can't even. Sometimes I check the OCC and am just mind-blown (and often confused and lost, and feeling dumb, hah). Everyone's also been trying to understanding and supportive, even though I bet at times some of you may feel like "Zeit the fuck you doing with your life stahp no don't do that facepalm there she goes again why is she like this pls" (<-- totally just my own assumption).

      In short, I think you're all amazing and just thank you. I have not been here for that long, but I am happy and proud to call you lot my friends and can just hope to return the warmth with which people have received me here. 

      And... I am not the wisest person out there (obviously), and don't know always how to comfort, but my PMs are always open if anyone needs to talk or vent or just share silly pictures. <3

      That is all. Keep on being awesome.

      I'm having a weird sense of deja vu I've written this before... but I haven't.... have I? I am also having all the feels and not enough sleep.

    • Finnish Friday: Nobody Lives Here Because of the Language

      1 year ago


      Hello! (  ̄▽ ̄)/ Tonight I am posting a new installment in the Finnish Friday posts, earlier than usual as I'll be busy as heck this weekend (cleaning and packing for a trip... going out to the cinema...).

      Anyways, earlier tod-- yesterday I saw these two amusing links on Facebook, and decided to share them on here! ^w^ 

      The first is a map of Finland with some information about the population per square kilometer (1 square km = 0.386102159 square miles). Kukaan ei asu täällä = Nobody lives here.



      The second is a map of Europe with estimates about how long it would take to reach reading and speaking proficiency with one of the European languages, from the English-speaker's point of view. 


      (source) (see also: European language levels - Self Assessment Grid)

      Fascinating, right? :D 

      Anyway, that's it for this week's post! (~‾▿‾)~ I should try to get some sleep, but I just beat through - after several attempts - the final boss in Episode Prompto the DLC for FFXV, so I am kinda hyper right now! Wooohoo!

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