SOOOO. Some of you have already heard the recent news from last weekend... I was hesitant to post anything because well, uh... and I've been kinda busy trying to live a normal human life at normal human daylight hours, as well as trying to think of Dec 23 as just another day of December.
But the memories of the last engagement anniversary are strong. Every year since 2010, he'd take me out to eat and the movies. Last year we went to eat as well, but when the girl behind the counter - whom he was familiar with via work stuffs - asked him (never looking at me once btw) what he was doing downtown, he replied "Oh just some late Christmas shopping."
Naturally I got upset about it, and didn't feel like eating. We had a verbal fight at my place before heading out to spend the Christmas at his family, which also turned into a nightmare as I managed to get sick and we had to chase after his aunt's foster kid as the bastard ran off yet again, and since he wasn't sober, well, guess who had to drive.
Anyways, tomorrow - Dec 23 - I'm going out with a girl friend I have not seen in about 7 years, we'll have some coffee and catch up and I'll hopefully not break into tears anywhere public pls.
And then, last weekend. Before I go on - I have a tendency to be pretty open about myself in public places like journals like this. I've learned over the years what kind of things to keep to myself, though, and I won't go into much details and won't mention names etc.
After meeting dude number 2 the weekend before, he started messaging me more and it kinda annoyed me. When he asked me out again to the movies, I got the feeling he'd want to drop me off home and I decided I'd come home alone. He kept saying he could drop me off, no biggie, but I said I can take the bus thank you. He did come pick me up from the nearby store, which was nice of him. He handed me a gift, which I guessed to be chocolate.
All went fine, we watched the new movie adaptation of Unknown Soldier and I thought it was pretty cool. We headed out and he again said he could drop me off - but the store was closed and I got the feeling I just didn't want to be in his car and all.
He saw me to the bus stop, wrapping an arm around my shoulder and I didn't pull away even though it sort of felt a little uncomfortable, but not too bad if that makes sense. We talked for a bit while waiting for the bus, and a few minutes before the bus got there he kissed me on the mouth, pretty much while I was in mid-sentence talking about whatever. Now, the kiss didn't feel bad... but it didn't feel great either. Y'know. And it was in a public place so I didn't want to make a scene out of it by telling him right there and then I am not after a relationship... which, I thought I had stated on my dating app profile (but who believes the word of a woman anyway, right, especially on such things and women and guys as friends, tf is such a concept).
After I got home, I spent a restless night playing games and ranting on Discord, I called mom a couple of times and talked to my cousin as well, and opened the gift and discovered he'd also given me a gift card to the store chain that's close to me and thus frequent often. Now, as far as I know those damn cards can have anything from 10€ to 100€, and I just... exploded.
Well, I then sent him a message apologizing for not having been clearer before about MY intentions, saying clearly we were after something totally else, and ... well, blocked him. He hasn't tried contacting me anywhere since.
Had a few hours of sleep then went to see Star Wars with another fella, the one I had seen first. Duderino number uno. We had a good time, we were both a bit more relaxed - I'm guessing he's sensing I'm not up for much more, not at this point, and not expecting much from me since earlier tonight he just mentioned how awkward it is to browse Tinder back in his hometown, as he's visiting his family
(dude if I went back to my old hometown, I'd hide the damn profile lmao). But he's also sent me pictures of dogs, and let me know when he was leaving the town and when he arrived to his hometown, and let me know when he got out of work for the vacation time. It's just what I've been looking for with a Finnish dude: hanging around, messaging silly things and details of a daily life, ...
I let him drive me back to the store (he also picked me up, even though I insisted I come by bus - I had to switch buses though to pick up a book, so he said he'd come pick me up from the post office there). It was kinda slippery / icy, and the back of his car made this swerve - he controlled it pretty well, and I made this excited stupid noise so on the empty parking lot of the store he did a little handbrake trick. xD It was fun. :P
Since coming to gran's town, I've also been browsing the local... err... supply and demand <.<;;; and have had a few conversations this week but most have died out pretty quickly. Still talking to dude nro 3 from back JKL, as well. Nice and chill! :D
So anyways, that's about the news from my dating life. XD The Zeit dating sim has earned some experience points, yeah... lol.